What a relief. Suddenly I don't worry about style. Who cares? I think fretting about style was a symptom of something else. It is not that I don't worry about these things; I love clothes, they are never far from my brain it is true. And I still think about what I want, what would look good, what goes with what. But I don't need to force the issue. I know what I like. I know what I don't. There is enough room in the world for all of us to be whatever we wish.
I finally realized that the basic dichotomy that follows me in everything I do and love remains a constant. I love the simple. And I love the incredibly ornate. Simple predominates, except when it doesn't. Simple, isn't it?
I think I was trying to be something in-between, something not me. I was trying to pain that picture and then trying to live up to the portrait I had assembled. Not so simple at all.
I realize I need jeans again. I mentioned somewhere that I was going to need jeans soon, when I reached a certain goal. That point has come and gone. And spring seems to be approaching rapidly. I need jeans. I need simple clothes for every day. I need clothes I can wear to work in the yard. If they are also up for going to the post office all the better. I have been known to work in the yard in some baggy old worn out thing that I loved but with which I was not quite ready to part. That is no longer a possibility. Those old things are gone. Really, they were too big to wear anyway. I don't need to hang on to the past.
And now Spring is coming and I cannot live in cashmere and wool forever.
Isn't that why I was working on a shirt muslin? yes.
Isn't that why I was working on pants? yes.
Am I going to sew everything I wear? not on your life.
Seems like it may be time to get a move on.
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2 responses to “Suddenly I don’t worry about style”
A good post, Mardel. I too share a lot of what you wrote. I am interested of clothes, accessories, interior design- to a certain point. But, I believe that there are more important things in life. Family. The welfare of the family members. Friends are important too, including blog friends. Health, which can´t be taken for granted. As I describe myself in my blog portrait, I wish my blog to tell something about me; one day I´m high, one day I feel very low. I do have opinions, sometimes very strong feelings. For years, I have held my thoughts inside, inside in the fear that I may hurt someone else. Now I´m on my way to open up. I hope I manage to do it in a polite way. Thank you Mardel for giving me a chance to write this down.
A good post, Mardel. I too share a lot of what you wrote. I am interested of clothes, accessories, interior design- to a certain point. But, I believe that there are more important things in life. Family. The welfare of the family members. Friends are important too, including blog friends. Health, which can´t be taken for granted. As I describe myself in my blog portrait, I wish my blog to tell something about me; one day I´m high, one day I feel very low. I do have opinions, sometimes very strong feelings. For years, I have held my thoughts inside, inside in the fear that I may hurt someone else. Now I´m on my way to open up. I hope I manage to do it in a polite way. Thank you Mardel for giving me a chance to write this down.