Category: Music

  • What Is Your Favorite Holiday Music?

    "Holiday" music came out this week.  But which Holiday?

     

    Meshuga NutcrackerTuesday evening I went to see The Meshuga Nutcracker, a film of the Channukah Musical.  It was cute and funny, in parts, and in others a bit strained.  I think it would have worked brilliantly as an actual musical on stage, but needed some help being translated to film.  It was a little bit too "Look here we are making a film and pretending it is a play" to really work.   Or maybe they really were just filming the play, and there was something I didn't get.  I enjoyed it, but it could have been fabulous.

    It wasn't well attended, and that could just be a Tennessee thing, although I'd like to think it was also because the actual ballet, Tchaikovsky's Nutcracker Ballet, was being performed downtown, although I am probably fooling myself it I believe that was all that was involved.  I would have liked to have done both, but even I knew that was never going to work. 

    I came out of the movie theater with the latke song roiling about in my head, and I knew I needed to make a batch of latkes, although it could wait as it was late and I had already eaten.  When I was young and naive, and probably a bit arrogant as well, I couldn't imagine that anyone would need a recipe for latkes.  That was before I ever had a bad latke, or potato pancake, as my non-Jewish family and friends referred to them, or before I realized the way the term "traditional" is loaded: Tradition is whatever your grandmother made, and someone else's grandma is always wrong.  Now I am old enough to know that tradition is really a mixed bag, as is the idea of authenticity.

    Veni Domine

    Yesterday, however, I made latkes.  I also listened to holiday music.  I started the day with a new CD I had purchased this year, Veni Domine by the Sistine Chapel Choir.  I purchased it because it said music for Advent and Christmas in the title, and I like Advent, and Advent music.  It is not Christmas yet, after all, and Christmas lasts for 12 days.  I am too much a child of the Anglican Tradition, a child whose mind remains entranced by the 12th night parade in Madrid and waiting for the wise men to come and fill my shoes with gifts.    The Veni Domine CD was also a bit of a change for me, simply due to its more general nature as an assortment of songs and carols.  I do listen to choral music:  I listen to Handel's Messiah every year on Christmas Day, and usually also listen to Berlioz's L'Enfance du Christ at least once during the season, but George was the one who could listen to choirs singing carols for hours on end.

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     By the time evening rolled around and I was actually making latkes, I was no longer listening to carols.  It seemed time for celebrating another holiday, and, even though Channukah is already over, I listened to Itzhak Perlman's collection, Holiday Tradition, a compilation of traditional Israeli and Eastern European music.  I can't actually say that I've listened to this as a Holiday album all that much, Jewish Holidays, yes, and Channukah is a Jewish Holiday, but it was not one George particularly observed.  A lot of the music is seasonally appropriate however, and it is relaxing and  joyous music.  

    Latkes

    I made my latkes with a combination of shredded and finely grated potatoes, and I don't use flour, but the potato starch that accumulates in the bottom of the bowl after soaking the grated potatoes, a trick I learned from George's Aunt Hilda.  And I served my latkes with pork chops, definitely not kosher, and roasted mushrooms, including some lovely black chanterelles.  I didn't eat half of that food.  But the leftovers went into a lovely hash, some of which I had this morning for breakfast.

     

    I can't say that I only listen to classical music at Christmas, or that I don't like Christmas carols either, although I get tired of hearing them everywhere I go, especially now that many places start playing them before Thanksgiving.  Nor can I say that my holiday music choices are particularly profound.  I've listened to my favorite Christmas album, A Charlie Brown Christmas, several times already and it always makes me smile and feel generous and happy and filled with joy.  Charlie Brown is part of my lifetime Christmas lexicon.

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    In these photo montages are my favorite Christmas season albums.  I have more of a collection than I realized, and now I've added two more, the new Veni Domine album, plus the Itzhak Perlman album I've had a while, but which I never particularly associated with the December holidays. I don't use digital playlists yet, mostly because I haven't acquired speakers for my iPad or computer, or set up a way to connect them to my stereo system, something I need to look into next year.

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    My question to you is this:  What is your favorite Holiday music?  Do you listen to albums? If so do you have favorites?  Do you listen to playlists? If so what are your favorite things to listen to this time of year?  Do you listen to holiday music at all? Or do you come home, happy to get away from the world of "Jingle Bells" at every turn, and retreat into silence or play something else entirely?

  • Ahh, Music.

    The symphony season opened last week, and I went to the Friday night concert. All in all it was a lovely concert; the music was enjoyable and although there were a few glitches here and there, they were really just that, glitches.  The evening was still lovely; in fact it may have even been remarkable.

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    The concert opened with a piece commissioned for the orchestra by a young composer named Michael Schachter.  It was titled Overture to Knoxville and I found it to be a piece of music that was both enthusiastic and brash but also softly melodic and even hopeful.  The brass section of the UT symphony was in the balcony with us and they played well, although not perfectly.  There were a few missed notes in the French Horns to my left, a few minor struggles here and there, but overall the work accommodated them and the charm of the piece absorbed these minor missteps.  The more melodic, soft, sections of the work were also lovely and I was actually happy that the composer  wrote an ode to Knoxville without falling back on Appalachian heritage, without making obvious overtures to bluegrass and country music.  Yes, this is a part of our heritage, and not just our past, but also a part of our present and our future.  But it is not all that we are.  It is good to hear something expansive and less chained to one aspect of being to the exclusion of everything else that we are. I would like to hear more from young Mr. Schachter.

     

    I suppose I would say the core of the concert was a pair of works built around the words of Knoxville native, James Agee:  Samuel Barber's Knoxville Summer of 1915 and Aaron Copeland's orchestral suite, The Tender Land. Surprisingly to me, the high point of both pieces may have been captured in the readings, performed by RB Morris.  Morris read the opening part of the text as a prelude to the Barber, and it was only through this reading, poetically rendered, that one got the sense of the piece, of the story behind the music.  The music was beautifully performed and although the soprano, Joelle Harvey, has a beautiful and richly melodic lyric tone, the words were unintelligible, either due to lack of enunciation or projection.  The performance offered beauty without a foundation of meaning. For a piece that is meant to be sung, a piece that revolves around words and story, the absence of that story proved to be a setback, no matter how skillfully and beautifully rendered was the music itself.

     

     RB Morris read again before the Copeland, this time a passage from Let Us Now Praise Famous Men.  He ended by singing a portion of Jim Reeves' song This Is Not My Home.  Oddly this kind of mixing of elements usually bothers me, and admittedly I am perhaps too attached to my little boxes, but this may have been one of the most magical and emotionally moving parts of the concert.  And. as you know,  I'm always a sucker for the magic.

     

    But it was in the second half of this concert that the music had its greatest impact:  disturbing, unsettling, enchanting and enlightening, all wrapped in what should have been a familiar wrapper, except that it seemed like something else entirely.  And what was this music that caused such an inner uproar in this listener?  The piece was Sergei Rachmaninoff's Symphonic Dances, Opus 45.  Honestly, I struggled with the performance.  I can't say it was not beautiful, it was.  In places it was gorgeous and understatedly spare.  And yet although it was obviously the work I know and love, it wasn't;  And I didn't know what I thought.

     

    The Symphonic Dances is late, Rachmaninoff's last work, and it is certainly far more Spartan and menacing than his earlier works.  But it is also still Rachmaninoff, and there remains a subdued lushness, almost a decadence, a holding on to the past in the face of an uncertain present.  And yet this is something I did not really sense in this performance.   Demirjian emphasized the sparseness — the isolation and the darkness — in the music.  It sounded like something I had never heard before, some newly discovered "lost" piece, but it is, in fact, a fairly frequently performed piece, probably familiar to most concert goers.  And yet, I often felt like I was listening to something completely unfamiliar. 

     

    Initially, I was on edge, filled with hostile protest.  I felt the work was too slow, and it was slow.  Perhaps it was not radically slow, here is where I wish I played an instrument, had more musical training, but it was slow, intentionally slow, in a way that changed everything.  It was obvious in the very beginning, in that first, energetic, opening movement.  The pace was heavier, more threatening.  Yes the threat was always there, but Friday evening I heard it differently and I was not always convinced I liked what I heard.  And yet…  the meltingly beautiful melody in the center of the first movement, the saxophone solo, was more melting, more poignant that I have ever heard it to be, and this was more than just the superb performance.  The very tenderness rendered the harshness of the return of the military theme all the more threatening, bone-chillingly so.

     

    The second movement is a waltz, not a strauss-like waltz, but a dance nonetheless.  It begins with hesitation, but pulls together, forming something lovely and sad before decaying and revealing an almost sinister edge.  I've heard the work many times and I always felt the pace, the movement of the dance here, even when it slows to an almost imperceptible echo of itself, the dancers barely moving, clinging together to a memory of a past that is crumbling around them.  But I did not feel the dance in this performance, and I am still uncertain of what I make of that.  Without the waltz, the sense of decay seems simultaneously harsher  and yet also more removed.  The poignancy is gone; the human touch removed.

     

    As expected the last movement pulled everything together, disparate threads tied in knots, explosive trumpets and timpani, and even Rachmaninoff's lifelong fascination with sacred chant.  In the finale he quotes the Dies Irae, the day of wrath, or the last judgement.  And there is much wrath in the finale.  But Rachmaninoff also uses the chant "Blessed be the Lord" from his own All Night Vigil, and yet I almost missed it in this performance.  closes by quoting his own Vespers, as was done here on Friday night, and yet I almost missed it.

     

    For the first time, certainly since I moved to Knoxville, and perhaps for the first time that I can recall, I wanted to hear the concert again. I wished I had gone to the Thursday night concert simply so that I could have gone again on Friday.  I came home Friday night, poured a glass of wine, and sat in the living room listening to a favorite version of the Symphonic Dances.  Perhaps I prefer the more traditional approach.  It is certainly less unsettling.  But as I listened to the recording I also began to more deeply appreciate what I had heard in the concert hall.  Now that I have heard a further depth in the music, I cannot un-hear it.  Nothing was done to that work other than an exploration of what was already there.  Perhaps in our gloss over Rachmaninoff, our affection for melody and a certain pacing, we have smoothed some of the edges, have grown so familiar with the melody we no longer think about the work itself.

     

    Music is so much more than the physical act of playing notes on an instrument.  It is everything, the playing, the pacing, the expression of everything in the hearts and minds of the musicians.  The notes, the instruments, are just the tip of the iceberg.  I wish I could hear it again.  Even more I wish I could sit down and talk with Aram Demirjian and learn where he was coming from, what he was thinking.  Not just his head, but the thoughts of the musicians as well.  What has in their hearts?  What was in their heads?  Did the musicians accept or struggle with the pacing?  And how did that all play out in what I heard?  I may have heard he heart of Rachmaninoff revealed for a newer world, a world in which we no longer cling, waltzing to a romantic ideal. Or I may have heard something else entirely, something only time will reveal as the tendrils of the music wend their way through my memory.

     

    Just when you think you have everything under control, just when you think you know what to expect, your world is cracked open and the old becomes new again.  

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Two Concerts in Chicago

    The weekend before last I was in Chicago.  That first day, the day I arrived 2 1/2 hours later than planned due to flight delays, the day I missed an appointment, the day after I had closed on the old house and was still exhausted from moving out, I went to two concerts.  In fact I was running so late that I almost didn't make the first concert, and I was so tired I wondered if there was any sense in it, but I had bought the ticket, and it wasn't cheap, so I went.

     

    I was glad I did.

     

    Friday afternoon I attended the Chicago Symphony. Ricardo Muti was conducting the Brahms symphonies, and I was in town for the first two.  I perhaps feared a stodgy performance of Brahms, a gentle dusting off of the standard repertoire, and I feared that I would doze off.  My fears were unfounded. The first symphony opened with a strong sense of controlled drama.  I felt the second movement could have strayed a little further into lyrical territory, but that may be due to my own emotional yearnings more than any understanding of Brahms.  The rest of the piece came together beautifully with a thunderous and convincing release of restrained turbulence in the finale, like a distant thunderstorm approaching only to be cast aside just before its climactic arrival with a sudden break in the clouds and the arrival of a sudden burst of sunshine in the form of a horn solo.

     

    The second symphony was also incredible, with an almost a pastoral undercurrent in the opening movement.  That Brahmsian restraint was still present, but it felt more lightly held here.  Again the second movement did not quite live up to my expectations.  It is, to my mind, a slow, ruminative work, deeply imbued with melancholy, yet never quite surrendering.  In this performance the movement felt rushed, as if the conductor had no time for meditative melancholy, or as if going to slowly would flirt too closely with a loss of control, I'm not sure which.  There was a palpable sense of "hurry up"  present in the performance which did not serve the work well.  I felt the conductor and the musicians, the music itself, felt at odds.  Yet all came together again in the allegretto, as if Muti's instincts and the music were more at peace, and the orchestra pulled off that balance between emotional release and intellectual control that marks Brahms's works, that flirtation with the pastoral without ever quite giving in.

     

    In the evening I was back at Symphony Hall for a jazz concert.  I found this concert more difficult.  I wanted to go, and I enjoyed the concert overall, but there were times when I was also confused and even bored.  It brought to the forefront my struggles with Jazz; the way my expectations and my enjoyment don't always align, as if there is something I just don't understand, some frame of reference I am missing.  Every time I am bored with a concert, I think perhaps jazz is not my thing, but then, just as I am ready to say "never again", I am captivated by something new.  I wonder this is simply because I have not listened enough, or if it is something deeper.  Basically, the jazz concert reminded me that I really haven't quite figured out what I like or even why I like what I like.

     

    The first part of the concert featured Regina Carter playing music honoring the late Ella Fitzgerald.   I felt that Carter successfully translated the theme of Ella's swing into something that suited them both, capturing both a sense of Fitzgerald while at the same time honoring Carter's own talents and interests. I did enjoy most of the music, and I liked the way she started with a reference, and a hit of swingtime but took it in different directions. Yet I also felt occasionally bored, and my mind would wander off, wondering if I was missing some key element.    There were moments that were heartbreakingly beautiful, and other times when I felt that the performance stayed in too long in a fairly narrow stylistic range, perhaps popular, but at times mind-numbing.  I yearned for greater dynamism and a bit more of the wonderful harmonic invention of which Carter is quite capable, but which did not seem present that night.  Or perhaps it was just me.  My neighbors, long time subscribers, seemed perfectly content. Anyway, by the time I figured this out, it was time for intermission and I was happy to stretch my legs.

     

    The second half of the program was more to my taste and made me sit up and take notice.  Perhaps I just had better reference points, perhaps I am just more attracted to the edgier world of the SF Jazz Collecive.  Although I am familiar with both Ella Fitzgerald, and the work of Miles Davis, perhaps Davis is closer to my heart.  Perhaps also I am attracted to the way the members of the SF Jazz collective were willing to transform Davis's music, I treasured the riffs and the references.  Both my neighbor, the long-time subscriber, and I were chortling under our breath and rocking our seats during Sean Jones transformation of "So What" and I loved the playfulness of their take on "Feel the Groove".  Woolf's vibraphone playing was shimmeringly beautiful, but my favorite piece was Miguel Zenon's  rearrangement of Nardis with the incredible acuity and audacity of the high-velocity four-horn front line and Zenon's incredible solos.  The piece I least understood was David Sanchez's original work "Canto".  It was gentle and melodic and quite beautiful in places, but I was also bored and felt it lacked tension.  Or perhaps I was just tired.  The concert started at 8 Central Standard time, 9 by my east-coast body's time, and perhaps exhaustion simply played a role.

     

    Two wonderful concerts, and they were exciting and soothing the way only music can be.  I missed a concert in Knoxville that weekend, but I think I got the better deal.

  • Five Things Friday

    1. It seems my mind has been too fragmented to write regularly, at least here, and I accept that it may be so for some time.  It is not actually a matter of discipline because I do sit and write each day; or perhaps it is a matter of forcing myself into disciplined focus.  And yet, I am content to let things slip by, unremarked, without analysis.  I am sure this will change in time but for now this transitional time is both a time of discovery and a time of letting life slide past, a floating perhaps, and perhaps something will come of it in time. 

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    2. More small tulips are blooming.  I love their petit blossoms, and the slowly evolving scattering of blossoms is like an extended goodbye.  I don't really plan on taking any plants with me from this house to the next one.  I did, with few small exceptions, take care not to plant anything too unusual, or which I would feel attached.  Besides, I do feel strongly that this garden is itself meant to be here, it is not mine to take.  This was simply my contribution to this space.  Whether anything will last, or be changed is beyond me, but I am content.

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    3.  I have just finished reading Pond by Claire-Louise Bennett.  There were passages that were quite beautiful, and at least one small segment I found moving, but I haven't really figured out whether the book simply did not resonate with me, or perhaps it was more that I did not resonate with it.  Perhaps it is simply that the fragments of my life at the moment and the fragments which made up the book were in opposition, with the book feeling far too insular.  It is certainly odd that I would think that, as I am a master of insular over-thinking.  But there it is. It is also possible that my own struggle with the book has had an effect on my own lack of writing, my discomfiture with the book amplifying my dissatisfaction with my own writing and therefore creating the aforementioned inability to blog.  Or perhaps I am just too scattered to pay attention to such detailed, and admittedly at times profound, focus on the mundanities of the every day.  As I stated, there were passages of great beauty, and Bennett does have the ability to capture and transform stream-of-thought musings into something more poetic than most of us probably manage on a daily basis.

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    4. Have you watched the Netflix series Chef's Table?  I just recently discovered it, and have watched season one and half of season two over the last month or so.  It is not something I want to watch quickly.  I want to watch and savor and occasionally watch certain episodes again.  Yes it is about fancy food in fancy restaurants, and although I have eaten in some of these restaurants I may never do so again, and I am content.  I yearn for something simpler now, but at the same time, I find the stories moving, especially the way the chefs speak about the elements of their cuisine, the food itself, and its connection to both the earth that nourishes, and the community of people who are dining.  They practice both an elevated and an elemental simplicity.  Never think that simplicity is easy. Listening to these chef's speak I am reminded of how we are each connected to this earth, and how each item and each moment is connected and precious.  I am reminded of the joy of cooking and why I love to cook, even in my simple and rather crude way.  I am reminded of the pure gift of sharing food with other people, of the bounty of this earth.  I am also reminded also of how disconnected most of us, at least those of us in Western Industrial Societies, are from the actual world we live in, the food we eat, and the cycle of life that nourishes us.  The series makes me want to cook, even a simple burger, but to pay attention, and it makes me want to work in the garden, to take time to smell the dirt and notice the new leaves, and think about my place in this world.  A stretch perhaps but what does art do but cause us to stretch?

     

    BigEars

    5..  It is Big Ears time once again in Knoxville.  I will not be attending as much this year as I have in the past couple of years, not because there is less to hear, but simply because there are too many things to do elsewhere.  But I will still go, and already my heart and brain are overflowing with music.  For me, the magic started last night with the Knoxville Jazz Orchestra playing with Carla Bley.  From the moment I walked in, and I did miss the beginning, the music carried me away.  I was reminded of the way music focus and transforms us, and ties into the essential spirit and eternal motion of life.  The music is all around us every day, in the sound of the wind, even of the grass growing, but we are usually too distracted to notice.  In music however, we reconnect to something elemental, an eternal prayer of sorts, that has the power to take us beyond ourselves, connect us to the universe, and even bring us back home, safely into where we most need to be.

     

     

     

  • Catching Up

    There is a danger in juggling too many thoughts, in holding onto attention loosely.  In such random jostlings and momentary fragmentations tragedies have occurred.  More often, however, our failures are minimal and we are simply inconvenienced.  It was through a similar misallocation of mental resources that I found myself at McKay's bookstore Monday afternoon puzzling over the cacophonous hubbub of children, young and young at heart, who yearned to be outside in the sun but instead found themselves trapped (myself included)  in long lines and interminable waits. Only as I pulled out of the parking lot did I remember that it was a holiday.  The prize: coming home with slim volumes by Alice Munro and Richard Yates.

     

    As it seems that my days have been as scattered as my thoughts, an endless cycle of never-enough, and my own mental perigrinations are not likely to settle down unless I give them an outlet, you shall have just that: random mutterings in lieu of a post.

     

    32 yolks1.   I have mostly caught up on sleep.  In fact I slept 12 hours Saturday, perhaps to my regret as I was groggy and unfocused most of the day, a good part of which was spent curled up between Tikka and Moises, reading 32 Yolks: From My Mothers Table to Working the Line by Eric Ripert.   The book was engagingly enough written to draw me in and it seems honest and forthright.  You see in the young Eric, in his character as a young child, but also in how he deals with his experiences growing up, his stubbornness, his drive to push through pain and loneliness, his need to excel, all the qualities that will make him a top chef.  The book is quite clear about what is needed to succeed in the restaurant business, what is behind the perfect meals diners expect.  It was an easy read and good for a day when I was really only running on half power.

     

    2.  My state of overwhelming exhaustion may have been kicked into overdrive by attending the symphony Friday night, a decision I in no way regret as it was a truly wonderful performance and my heart soared with the music. The orchestra was led by the incredibly talented and dynamic guest conductor, Mei Ann Chen, who won the hearts of the audience with her energy, her sparkling personality, and, not least, the beauty of the music itself.  The concert ended with a stunning performance of Stravinsky's Firebird Suite.   The Beethoven was pretty good too, at least on the orchestra's part, which is high praise from me as I distinctly did not like the way Beethoven was performed under the former music director.  My problem with the Beethoven, the Piano Concerto #1, was actually with the pianist.  Lise de la Salle is obviously very skilled, with enormous technique and a very powerful sound.   And yet there were sections where her rather outsized sense of interpretation struck a discordant note in my enjoyment of the piece.  I don't actually mind hearing a familiar piece in a new way, especially when that new way of listening opens new vistas of understanding.   Perhaps I am just growing older and more set in my ways, a bit curmudgeonly concerning beloved music, or perhaps my disgruntlement was just an echo of my underlying exhaustion, but I felt that her interpretation grated, and I was often more annoyed than enlightened.  Perhaps if I were again in my 20s I would hear it differently, but alas it is not to be so.

     

    I must admit however  that Lise de la Salle gave a magnificent rendition of a Schumann song as her encore. She played with a fiery intensity that captured the imagination, making me yearn to hear more. I look forward to hearing her again, perhaps to following her career, and  I would happily hear her play Schumann again. Schumann, perhaps, would never be the same. 

     

    3.   I am in the midst of another round of sorting and tossing, a refinement of sorts, in both preparation for moving in a couple of months, but also for putting my current house on the market.  One such small burst of activity revolved around shelving books, and removing a few tomes that no longer held interest.  Two books that came down off the shelf were by John Reed, Insurgent Mexico, and Ten Days that Shook the World. I reread both.  I remember how the first book, the first book I read by Reed, perhaps when I was 19, captured my imagination.  I had never read anything quite like it and I was both thrilled and shocked by some of its revelations.  Reading it again now, I can remember those feelings, albeit fleetingly.  Read is definitely biased, but there is a humanity to his descriptions of his time with the campesinos,  and he captures pathos, and stunning naiveté born out of desperation. But he skims over the flaws and abuses of his heroes deftly, while going into excruciating detail of the crimes of the people in power.  He does the same in Ten Days but although the prose may be more mature here, it has also lost its humanity.  The text is dry, the revolutionary zeal more blindly integrated.  In Russia, Reed is consorting with the leaders of the revolution, not the common man, and there is less humanity, less questioning of the human condition, only acceptance of the rightness of the cause at hand.  The latter book held my interest less than the former.  It was in the bag of books that prompted that foray into McKay's mentioned in the opening paragraph.  Munro will make me happier.  Insurgent Mexico currently remains on the shelf, and yet its position is tenuous.  As I read and reconnect with those books that are my true joys, it may yet find itself traveling onward toward a new home.

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Recovery

    I am taking the sunshine cure in Dallas.  Idle hours were whiled away yesterday, basking in the sunshine and dry air, twirling in my mothers hanging chaise.  It was probably the best thing my sinuses have experienced yet this year, as I have continued to battle the dregs of the sinus crud that ended 2016 and forced me to bed for the beginning of 2017. 

     

    Alas this respite will be short-lived; hopefully it will be enough to get us over the hump, my sinuses and I, as we will be back in the cold and damp tomorrow.  We've been functioning fairly well except for the aforementioned residual congestion that just doesn't completely clear up.  But perhaps not as well as I've claimed, since I've taken to thinking of my sinuses as an evil twin I must tolerate begrudgingly at that,  an evil twin who keeps me from doing what I want to do. There were further setbacks this weekend, although whether this was due to over-activity or the return of seeping dampness remains undetermined.

     

    The overdoing is my own fault, not that I am complaining.  I wouldn't undo a moment.

     

    Friday night was symphony night, and it was Friday night that my congestion began to return.  In this case I do blame the weather, as the air had turned markedly damp in the late afternoon. But the concert was a delight.  The concert opened with Sarka, the third segment of Bedrich Smetana's Ma Vlast, which was delightfully performed, and which was followed by a gorgeous rendition of Sibelius' Violin Concerto in D Minor, performed by violinist Bella Hristova. The performance was a delight of precision and cooperation, of fresh and confident phrasing, and gentle storytelling which carried the audience away. 

     

    I was however so congested at the intermission I considered going home, although I did not.  I am glad that I stayed for the performance of Dvorak's Symphony No. 6 in D Major which was beautifully and lushly performed, with excellent balance between the woodwinds and the strings and rousing finale, which of course roused the audience as well.  It was a lovely performance of this, the least performed of Dvorak's final 4 symphonies.  It was not my favorite rendition, as I realize that I tend to lump performances of this work into two "camps", the lush, almost sonorous camp and the light and sparkling camp.  You might not be surprised to learn that my preference is for the latter, not that I would turn down the opportunity to hear this symphony, regardless of interpretation. .  Or perhaps this was simply the congestion speaking, and the way it lulled my body into somnolence when it yearned for a little gentle ebullience.  Either way I am happy I stayed.

    Globetrotters

    Saturday the Davis and Fehrenbach clan trekked off to Johnson City to see the Harlem Globetrotters. It was a wonderful, if exhausting day, and we played tag with the Globetrotters bus at least part of the way back to Knoxville, which seemed to be almost as much of a thrill to a 10-year old as the game itself.  Oh yes,  some part of me does remember those days.

     

    Sunday concluded with a feast of my brother's fabulous ribs.  Really, every time I come to Dallas I wonder why I eat barbecue anywhere else, as his is the best I've had anywhere, at least as far as I can recall.  Then I remember.  I live in Tennessee. Oh well.

     

    Have a great week.

  • Five Things Friday

    Let's see if I can eke out five things before the day is completely over.  It is hard, given my general state of exhaustion and distraction of late.

     

    1.  Saturday night I went with friends to the Knoxville Symphony's Pops Concert, where we saw the movie The Wizard of Oz with live accompaniment   Despite that the fact that the resolution on the screen wasn't all that good, and the soundtrack as it was played in theater, with the original singing wasn't stellar either, the performance as a whole was fabulous.  Well, the score is marvelous to begin with, and watching the movie while hearing the music being performed live was a stunning experience. I don't think I had ever seen The Wizard of Oz on a big screen, and although I saw it every year of my childhood, it had been many years since my last viewing.

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    I had forgotten how surreal and, at times, downright weird that movie is.  Of course that is part of the key to its success, the way it appeals to universal themes and yet doesn't succumb to deeply to pat stereotypes.  We can all learn a little something from the Wizard of Oz.  It seems I am still learning.  Of course children know this, know many things we adults have forgotten, know that home is safety and comfort and that the wild bright world "out there" is simultaneously vibrant and alluring, yet filled with dangers, with the overall too-muchness of it.  Hence when Dorothy returns home, she learns that she can conquer her own fears, but she also returns to a black and white world.  For a while I thought this was a bad thing, that the returned too world should be some half-way point on the color spectrum, but now I appreciate the security of it, of what we all long for, the security of home.

     

    2.  I've slept in my own bed for the last two nights, the first two nights this year!  This means that I can actually, finally, breathe well enough that I am not spending the night propped up in a chair or recliner, and I cannot begin to explain what a huge difference this has made in terms of regaining a sense of normalcy.  As a reward for sleeping, I even took a moderate walk today and it felt wonderful to be out and move, even if I did not manage as much activity as I otherwise would have preferred.

     

    3. Wednesday I attended a chamber music concert, something that is generally much more in keeping with my musical inclinations.  The highlight of the program was  Bach's Concerto for Violin and Oboe, which was stunningly beautiful, not that the playing in the other pieces was a disappointment either.  We heard Mozart's Quintet for Clarinet and Strings, and "Spring" from the Four Seasons.  The Vivaldi was the weakest piece in the evening's performance, with the slightest hint of hesitancy and disconnect in the strings, probably corrected by the second performance on Thursday night. But the strings redeemed themselves in the later two pieces, especially in the conversational intimacy and playfulness Gordon Tsai and Gabrield Lefkowitz brought to the Mozart.

     

    4.  I have finally gotten back to reading the first of Elena Ferrante's Neapolitan Novels, My Brilliant Friend, and I am thoroughly enjoying it.  Of course I enjoyed it when I started before, but I struggled because I had wanted to read it as part of a read-a-long and the pace was too slow and the whole thing felt pressured to me.  This was about me, not the other readers.  I tend to be a fast reader, and I also tend, when reading something I need to discuss, to be at my best when I can read something once-through before going back to look at it more critically.  However I did not do that, and then my time and my attention was too fragmented.  I am happy to be finally be fully engaged in the book and I am looking forward to finishing it and reading the other books in the series.

     

    5.  And although I have actually more or less had a normal, not too busy day today, and I have walked, and read and run errands and on a few small projects around the house, it seems I am still a trifle scatterbrained.  I picked up some salmon for dinner, and some black cod as well, but then I got distracted by another project, patching a small hole in the wall left behind when I removed a large picture from the wall when I put up some interesting sculptural tin flowers I purchased in Arkansas.  Alas by the time I got everything done, including a trip to the hardware store, it was too late in the afternoon on this cloudy day to get a decent picture in the sunroom, a room that is at its best in morning light.  

     

    It was also apparently too late for my salmon.  I had planned on baking it with some Thai Sweet Chile sauce, which I had made before the great sinus plague, but I forgot that I needed to marinate the salmon with the chile sauce for at least 2 hours.   By the time I figured this out I was ready to eat.  Luckily I had some fresh bratwurst in the fridge, and some homemade sauerkraut, so a successful dinner was not a problem.  The salmon can sit in its marinade up for up to 24 hours, so I'm ready for tomorrow's dinner.  The cod is bathing in a concoction of pretty much equal parts mirin, sake, and white miso.  My experience with this technique is that the cod is at its best between 48 hours (2 days) and 5 days, and so I am looking forward to have something to come home to after the MLK day activities on Monday..

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    Hope you are all having a wonderful weekend, and I hope to be back into a routine soon enough.

     

  • Three Decembers: A Journey

    Saturday evening I attended a performance of Jake Heggie's Three Decembers produced by Opera Fayetteville.  Although I have heard of Heggie, I am familiar with his work in name only.  I have not been to any performances or sought out any recordings, and I intentionally went into this performance blind.  I must say that although I cannot say the work is beautiful, the performance was powerful and touching.  There is an easy lyricism to the music, and it was beautifully sung and acted. The performance perfectly captured the sadness of the characters and the frustrations and loss of this family, bound up in their own stories, and unable to express their love for each other. 

     

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    Three Decembers is based on Terrence McNally's play Some Christmas Letters with some inspiration from Ibsen as well. The set was minimalist, befitting an opera that revolves primarily around the interior world of the three characters: famous actress Madeline Mitchell, and her two grown children.  Set as a series of letters and interactions between the children and their mother, the story is really about the often tenuous nature of relationships and the way the stories we build around ourselves define us and enslave us.  In the opera we hear and feel the yearning of the characters, but also their bitterness and we feel the constraints of the walls they build around themselves, walls they are unable to cross.  When some of those walls are shattered, they must rebuild, but they don't necessarily cross through the rubble to the other side.

     

    Opera Fayetteville is a young opera company in Fayetteville Arkansas with a two-fold focus:  on providing performance opportunities for young opera singers in the early stages of their careers,  and performing contemporary operas in English.  I am happy to learn about this organization, and I was happy to have attended a performance.  I am sure there are other interesting companies doing interesting work across the country, but this is where I happened to be.

     

    Yes, I went to Arkansas. I went to Arkansas to hear an opera I knew nothing about, in a production by an company I also knew nothing about.  And I had a marvelous time.  I went on a lark.  I heard about the opera because George's first cousin twice-removed, Jacob Scharfman was performing in the role of Charlie.  I went because I like contemporary opera.  I went because I've always been interested in going places to see and hear new things.  I went because I had a free weekend.  I went because, although I don't know Jacob well, his late father was someone I counted as a close friend in our youth, and although our lives had drifted, I still wanted to support Jacob in this endeavor.

     

    I went, and I didn't tell Jacob I was going.  Partly this was just because I've been struggling through the shallows in the last 5 or 6 months, and am only just beginning to find my way back into the deep waters.  Partly this was because I was distracted and I forgot until it was too late, the timing was too close. This was precisely because I don't know Jacob well, and I would only be there in the middle of production when the would be working, and I did not want to impose a sense of obligation, a sense that something extra was needed to meet with some distant relative through marriage that he didn't even know. Maybe this was the right choice, maybe it was wrong; I simply don't know. 

     

    I do know that Jacob is a good actor as well as an excellent singer.  I do know that the audience felt the raw power of emotion when his character, Charlie, was cradling one of the shirts belonging to Burt, his partner, who had recently died of AIDS.  I recalled that same feeling, known to all who have suffered a profound loss, of doing the same with George's sweatshirt.  It brought tears to my eyes, and not only mine. But I also saw a young Jacob, only a senior in college when his father died almost four years ago, loss and pain etched on his face.  It takes talent and guts to channel that pain and turn it into art. 

     

    Perhaps that was a bit voyeuristic, that hidden knowledge.  But it was a joy to see this young man shine, to see this moving story told by three marvelous young talents.  It was good to simply be there, to see and hear this performance, to see good work being done by good people in diverse places.  It was good.

  • A Concert of American Music

    Two weeks ago I attended the November concert of the Knoxville Symphony Orchestra.   It was the second concert conducted by our new music director, Aram Demirjian, and my second concert of the season as I had missed in October due to travel plans.  Generally, I was impressed with this performance and attending the concert made for a lovely evening.  Demirjian and the orchestra seem to be growing into each other and the evening's performance was for the most part smooth with a good sense flow and pacing.  It was a happy and satisfying evening, and although there were perhaps a few places where I disagreed with the interpretation of the music, I felt the performance was perfectly suited to this time and this place, and was able to relax and let my more intellectual neurons be lulled by happy sounds.

     

    The concert opened with Charles Ives' "Variations on America", which is often whimsical, sometimes sarcastic, sometimes angry, and definitely the work of a brash young man with all of that combination of bitterness, hope, innocence and joy that is the purview of our teenage selves.   It was a fun piece and I enjoyed the performance although I felt that some of the snarkier bits had been muffled, but that is not such a bad thing, and the lighthearted music reminded me at least that we all too often take ourselves far too seriously.  In short it was a good introduction to an evening of American music.

     

    The Ives was followed by William Grant Still's Symphony #1 (Afro-American Symphony).  It is a beautiful work, very American with its strong blues influences and jazz rhythms, and it was also very texturally interesting and engaging.  It is at times rather cinematic, and this from a listener who generally is not fond of the majority of composers who fuse cinematic with classical elements.  Most of these pieces simply sound shallow and boring to me, but this could not really be said of anything I have heard by Ives, and not by the Still piece as well.

     

    In the second half of the concert we heard Jeff Midkiff's Mandolin Concerto: From the Blue Ridge.  I had been fortunate to attend a luncheon at which Midkiff and his wife were guests of honor and enjoyed speaking with them as well as hearing Aram Demirjian's thoughts on the programming, which he also repeated at the concert.  And the mandolin concert was a very easy to listen to piece, filled with familiar bluegrass inspired and "Appalachian" sounds but it wasn't at dynamic and interesting as the previous two pieces.  Midkiff plays an American mandolin, which is shallower and although wonderful in bluegrass music, has a flatter sound than its older historical cousins.  I suppose I could wish that the Midkiff was less a clichéd piece of Appalachian-inspired music, and although lovely, it seemed out of place among the other three pieces performed in the concert, all of which were more complexly interesting, and none of which succumbed to expected platitudes.  That said, it was enjoyable, and the piece received a standing ovation.

     

    I believe the generous applause was primarily due to the music's familiarity and therefore high comfort level.  It has been my observation that the biggest applause at many a symphony performance seems to routinely awarded to those pieces that are, to my mind, the least deserving in terms of their merits in terms of music and performance, and yet are the pieces dearest to the audience's heart.  I have learned to accept this, although some inner part of me still clenches, thinking of one of the worst Beethoven performances I have ever heard, conducted by our former music director, which was rewarded with ovations and cheering and foot stamping galore.  I recognized, after talking to other members of the cheering audience, that most had relaxed into easy familiarity with a favorite piece, and this too is an important aspect of performance and audience building.  It is something I have done myself, especially in my youth, before George ruined me, and taught me to pay more attention.  But I have increasingly learned to lock my more analytical intellectual side in a closet when listening to a concert in order to simply enjoy the time and the experience.  She still gets out, and I cannot silence my inner critic, but at the same time, I also accept that an excess of criticism does nothing to aide in pure and simple enjoyment of life.  Increasingly, stepping back, and allowing enjoyment rule, seems more rewarding. 

     

    The final work of that Friday, two weeks ago, was the orchestral suite from Aaron Copeland's ballet, "Appalachian Spring".  In keeping with the rest of the program, Demirjian emphasized this sense of stereotypical Americana and "Appalachian" spirit, which I frankly do not see as the dominant theme in this work, which is incredibly complex.  I enjoyed the performance nonetheless and I also recognize that it was the right performance in the right place and at the right time, less than two weeks after an election that has polarized many.   Besides I recognize that a symphony needs its audience, and a symphony that played exclusively to my taste might be hard pressed to survive.   I could listen to music as I think it should be performed in the sanctuary of my own home, on excellent recordings, but I would lose the frisson of live performance and I continue to enjoy and learn and grow from each performance I attend.  Life locked up in a stuffy tower, living in one's own head, is no one's path to wisdom or humanity.

     

     

     

  • Three Things Thursday

    1.  2016-09-29 10.48.15-1It is a cool, gray, drizzly day here in Knoxville, although there was a brief bit of sunshine.  It would be a perfect day for working in the flower beds except that the drainage work is finally being done in the back of my yard after a long series of frustrating delays.  Once again there are heavy machines and men in boots mucking about and digging things up.  Admittedly I've let that section of the flower bed go to weed.  It was a hot summer after all, and I knew the area would have to be dug up, so it hardly seemed worth the sweat and effort,  knowing that any fruits of my labors would be destroyed. I've been waiting for this job since June and I am happy that the digging and hardscapes are finally complete (fingers crossed).

     

    2.  Last night's concert at the Knoxville Museum of Art was stunning in its beauty.  Our fabulous young concertmaster, Gabriel Lefkowitz performed Brahms' First Violin Sonata in G Major, bringing the  soothing lyricism of the piece to life, his violin singing with a gentle effusiveness, as if all the cares of the world could be washed away in the music.  The second half of the program, Schubert's "Trout" Quintet, was also beautifully performed and it was an experience altogether different from the one at the square room a week ago, even though two of the musicians were the same.  This time the music had its own life, the individual musicians indistinguishable, as if there were a profound conversation going on between them, the music melding to become something with its own life and presence, where as the previous week's concert I had felt like I was hearing three distinct musicians playing the same piece.  It was as if a couple of people were talking about the same thing and drawing the same conclusions, but although they were "hearing" each other, they weren't really listening, the experience was not transformative.  Last night's performance was something else all together, five musicians coming together to create something greater than themselves. If you are in Knoxville and you have a chance to go to tonight's performance, go.

     

    My brilliant friend3.  I am reading Elena Ferrante's My Brilliant Friend.  Actually I've gotten a kind of slow start, not because I don't love the novel, I do but because I started it on my kindle and now I've moved to a paperback copy and have found myself needing to step back, and retrace my steps.  I don't believe I had fully realized how different my experience of reading is, and how different my perceptions and reactions, between reading on the kindle, versus reading an actual book.  This has made me step back and pause somewhat.  I knew that I liked certain kinds of books better on one or the other, and that if I loved a book on the kindle, I might buy a physical copy as well, and end up rereading it as it always seemed different on paper.  But only now am I beginning to understand the repercussions, and appreciate how the difference affects my thoughts and relationship to the material being read.