Category: Music

  • Looking at Knoxville Through Visitor’s Eyes

    Sometimes it is good to pretend like one is a visitor to one’s own town.  One might note things, previously noticed perhaps, but quickly forgotten.  One might find magic in that which otherwise seems ordinary.

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    I engaged in a little such activity a couple of weekends past, becoming a visitor in my own town during the Big Ears Festival.  

     

    Yes I listened to a lot of music.  Although I think that generally I may not have been as adventurous in some of my selections as some years, I also think I heard more performance than at any prior festival. It was the first year I was truly comfortable with the “sampling” mentality, of walking in or out of something that wasn’t grabbing my attention.  It was also the first year that I didn’t worry about what I might be missing, rather just allowing myself to enjoy whatever I was listening to at the time.

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    And although I walked around town a lot, averaging 7 to 10 miles most days, I also took the new trolley service to some venues, and this proved to be better for my back as well as my stamina.  I think previous years I would walk 14 miles or more a day, if I was able to do so.  An added benefit of the  trolley proved to be the way it allowed me to engage in conversations with other attendees, to meet people, to observe and explore opinions and attitudes other than my own.  

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    The fact that the trolley was available, as well as other options such as Uber and Joyride Mobile, I was also able to relax more during my walks up and down Gay street and around downtown.  I was able to stop and pay attention.  Hence the collages above, from the three full days I spent at Big Ears.  None of the photos are of anything particularly significant in and of itself, but I am also realizing that is the way I take photos, not necessarily of significant things, but of details that catch my eye.

     

    When I left he festival my head was filled with music and a new appreciation for this little city I call home.

     

     

  • Wonders

    There are moments in life when we learn the world is not what it seemed, not what we had previously assumed it to be.  Sometimes those moments are full of discord and upset.  At other times they are miracles of wonder.

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    I remember one such episode as if it were yesterday, although 38 years have passed.  It was the day I picked up my glasses.  I don't remember much about the actual day, about picking up the glasses, or about walking to back to my dorm from the optician's.  What I specifically remember is walking into my room and looking out the window.  It was spring; the trees were filled with buds and blossoms. I could see individual flowers on the trees, I could see the leaves beginning to unfurl, individual leaves, not just an impression of greenness.  I could see the leaves from a distance, not just from proximity, when I was standing near a tree. I suddenly realized that the world was not meant to look like a late Monet painting, and I was entranced.  Whenever I look back on that day, that same feeling of entrancement floods my memory.

     

    I am certain that I had once seen well.  I hadn't needed glasses as a child after all. I did have a tendency to cross my eyes, and it turned out that I had some congenital abnormalities in my vision or the way my brain processed the input from my eyes.  But I am also sure that my eyesight faded so gradually that I never thought it about it, never really recognized what I was missing.  Until it was revealed. 

     

    That same sense of wonder returned to my mind this past month, the day I picked up hearing aides, although this time I was awed not with sight, but with sound.  Much as with my glasses, I knew I needed help hearing and I was ready to have the hearing aides.  I have seen too many people who wait too long, whose brains are no longer able to cope with the additional stimulus, who cannot adapt to what was lost.  I was determined that I would not be one of those people, so I went into the appointment knowing I would walk out with hearing aides.

     

    Even so, I was not prepared for the symphony that awaited me once I walked outside the door.  The birds were singing and I was enveloped in a cloud of song, sweet sopranos, base rhythms, melody and harmony intertwined.  I have always loved the sounds of the birds, loved even the sounds of the leaves in the wind, finding music surrounding me every day, but I had not realized how much sound I had lost, how enveloped on a cushion of sound I could become, and my first wish was was simply that I not forget, that I not allow this marvelous cacophony to fade into the background, that I not stop paying attention.

     

    Yes, at times I was uncomfortably jarred by certain sounds — the beep of my car telling me I was too close to something, the first time my phone rang, the sounds of traffic in downtown Knoxville while I was at big ears.  But I adapted.  And there were other sounds as well.  The soprano sax was sweeter, soft female voices were easier to interpret, I could hear the chirp of a bird despite the traffic, the splatter of drops of water. The melody of the earth is still present no matter how we try to pave it over.  I could focus upon, and pick out the sounds from specific voices or instruments, much more clearly than I had before, much like the way I hear music in my head when I read a score. I walked around town, I listened to music both in concerts and on the street, and I felt like indeed, I had big ears, big ears that were reveling in all the miraculous sounds, large and small, that surrounded me.

     

    I hope I never lose that wonder.  I am sure that there will be more days in which I am preoccupied, in which I don't pay attention to the many wondrous details surrounding me.  But I hope that I recall to stop, to look. to listen, as much as possible. 

     

  • A Museum Discovery And A Concert Review

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    I was looking at this painting, Soup, by Miquel Barceló the other day and was reminded that I had not yet written about last Friday's concert by the Knoxville Symphony Orchestra. 

     

    Somehow the idea of soup seemed relevant to me at the time, referencing the idea of art as a soup, as an essential form of nourishment but one that is a melding of all the interests and influences that go into the pot, yielding something that is shaped by and yet not necessarily completely defined by its parts.  Friday's concert, titled "Schumann's Circle of Friends" was in its own way a different soup, each work created by an individual, but also existing within a relationship of creative ideas and influences bubbling through the lives of a group of friends, music of a time and a place and a milieu, and yet, at least for some of that music, something that also transcended the limitations of that very culture which shaped its creation, in short, soup.

     

    The concert opened with Felix Mendelssohn's Overture to a Midsummer Night's Dream, written when the composer was 17. It was followed by Clara Schumann's Piano Concerto in A Minor, Op 7, completed when she was 14.   The piano concerto was beautifully played by Gabriela Martinez.  Clara Schumann was a virtuoso pianist and the piece was written to show off her talents; Martinez seemed to capture this spirit of youthful exuberance beautifully, and the piece was elegantly and harmoniously played, especially in the solo cello passages played by Andy Bryenton.  

     

    But I felt the first half of the program was the weaker half.  The Clara Schumann work was lovely, extraordinary really for a 14 year old girl, but although it seemed to capture  and coalesce all the themes of the moment, it struck me as just that, a perfect pulling together but ultimately without anything new to say.  The Mendelssohn overture was also lovely, well-known and beloved by the audience, but the performance felt out of sync at times, and, at least as heard on Friday night, I felt the Mendelssohn did not hold up to the works that followed the intermission.

     

    The second half of the program opened with Fanny Mendelssohn-Hensel's Notturno in G minor.  Originally written for solo piano, this arrangement was for flute and strings.  I felt the music was truly gorgeous; lyrical, tender at times, but also lush with a great balance of emotion and restraint.  I don't know enough about the music of Fanny Mendelssohn, but this concert led me to wonder what might have been had she lived in a different time, with more opportunities for women, led me to wonder if perhaps she was the more talented composer.  

     

    Certainly the Notturno held up against Robert Shumann's Third Symphony, "The Rhenish", a work that could be both grand and solemn, yet also lightly lush and lyrical.  I was impressed with the performance of a beloved piece that I have admittedly not listened to in a very long time.  The guest conductor, Eric Jacobsen, appeared to be adept at balancing this work, which can sometimes feel heavy with conflicting themes, in balance with the mood of the evening.  I felt like I was listening with fresh ears, carried away by the music, a feeling only magnified in the final piece, Brahms' Hungarian Dance #1.  In fact I think the entire audience, or at least a significant portion, was dancing in their hearts and heads by the time the music ended, and the audience rose up in one swell of joyous applause.  Most admirably was how these three pieces, so very different from each other, also were pulled together to create a sense of their own space, of something greater than any single one.  

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    And so I am back to the idea of soup.   I saw Barceló's painting at a small museum, the Meadows Museum, on the campus of SMU.  I went to see a particular exhibit, which I will write about later, but I was entranced by other pieces in the museum's collection, including this sculpture by Jaume Plensa outside the main entrance.  I was taken by its huge scale, and the way its size and construction play with weight and transparency.  Perhaps this work too, reminds me of how I felt leaving that concert a week ago, thoughts expanding with the music but also with a sense of transparency, of the light of seeing something familiar in a new way.

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    But let us enter the museum.  Immediately, we proceed up the stairs to the second level, where the main collection and special exhibits are housed. I am as intrigued by the view as I climb, and the glimpse of a twelfth century Spanish painting of The Three Marys, entering the tomb of Jesus.

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    On the landing are four works, offering a glimpse of the breadth of the museum's holdings.  Opposite that first piece is another twelfth century work, this one of the last supper.  I love the way the art is positioned so that I cannot get a photo of any one piece without partial glimpses of other works, I love the reflections in the mirrored doors.  Alas I was so entranced by the multi-dimensional reflections of he works that I forgot to note anything about the sculpture in the center.  

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    Representing the 20th Century, and bridging the passageway between the two galleries is this sculpture, titled In Between, by contemporary American artist, James Surls.  I went to the right, where I found 20th century Spanish art, including the painting at the top of this post, and the special exhibit on Dali, which I hope to be able to tell you about soon.

  • Musings on a Rainy Friday Morning

    It is a gray and rainy fall day, but for the moment at least I am enjoying looking out the window at the way the colors fade away in the gray light.  

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    It would probably be a perfect day for a fire if I were in my house and could have a fire, but I am not, so glancing dreamy-eyed out the window will have to do.  I have a book and a knitting project to finish, and those things should keep me adequately entertained.  

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    It was also a good morning for a little experimentation in the kitchen.  I had wanted to attempt the Sweet Potato and Squash Parathas from Sumayya Usmani's Summers Under the Tamarind Tree since buying the Pakistani cookbook last year.  This morning seemed like the perfect time, and I hoped that this recipe would be something that would work as a gluten free option, not at all like traditional parathas or stuffed parathas.  Usmani states in the book that these are more like a griddle scone than a traditional paratha, and I hoped the combination of flavors would make something that could be equally comforting even if not at all like its wheaten brethren.  There is a copy of the recipe online here.  Mine aren't as pretty, and can't be folded over.  The gluten-free dough is more friable, and rolling out didn't work as well as patting, making something closer to a Pakistani-spiced scone than a true paratha, but they are good, and I am content. 

     

    As I knit, I have been listening to Vivaldi, reminded of how much I adored Vivaldi when I was a young girl by the fabulous chamber concert Wednesday night at the Knoxville Museum of Art, the first performance of this year's concertmaster series.  In fact the entire program focused on music of the baroque period and it was both very well programmed to provide breadth and depth of interest and very well performed as well.  I don't think I could have imagined a more enjoyable and rewarding evening of baroque music. It felt like a rare treat, although admittedly there were also two separate baroque choral performances in Knoxville during the same week, two performances I missed, although I had planned to attend the Choral Society's concert before I pooped out.  It is indeed a treat to live in a place where there is more on offer than I could ever possibly attend.

     

    And speaking of treats, Thursday proved to be another evening of musical indulgence.  After doing a bit of Christmas shopping, already light-hearted and bouncy, I proceeded to a concert by the Seraph Brass for another evening of wonderfully programmed and beautifully performed music.  I heard some works by new-to-me composers and some fabulous reworking of familiar pieces; music that was both lovely and thought-provoking in how it shed new light on music I might otherwise assume I knew.  I also enjoyed the musicality and sensitivity of the playing, even subtlety at times, a word I do not always associate with the brass section, although perhaps I should.

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    Every year I seem to marvel that both concert season and autumn go hand in hand, my favorite season accompanied by some of my favorite things.  I love the fall colors, the cool mornings and evenings, the music, the ability to add layers again, to indulge in softer colors.  In fact, it seems that, having given away half of my already reduced wardrobe I am rediscovering old favorites, even while adding a few new things, like the sparkly gray and blue necklace above.  

     

    In fact I've made a couple of discoveries about myself, one of which is that I like a bit of sparkle more than I had thought.  It is not the glitter I object to, but the brightness. I don't like bright sparkle — too much jangly color or white put me on edge.  Too much bright feels too forward, and therefore more formal and less like myself; even when I am most dressed, I don't like feeling formal if that makes any sense.  Suddenly I know why certain things are never worn, and it not what I had thought.  Through this new sense of understanding I am thinking I may finally be ready to start seriously sewing for myself again, sewing regularly that is, because I may finally be ready to ask a couple of critical questions.  The two questions that have always been at odds in my creative life are:  "Is this something I want to make just to make it?"  and  "Is this something I actually want to wear." Each has their place, but I haven't always been successful in sussing out the distinctions.

     

    After all, I am the woman who once, when asked to introduce oneself to a group with a fact about oneself, chose "I love fog". I love rainy days and crisp cool mornings.  Yes I love color too, but I love the way a gray day makes colors shine in a way completely differently from the bright sunshine.  I love color the way I love music, the way the many layers of subtlety and technique and shading make a greater whole.  I don't want to be hit in the face with the obvious, I want to find the subtleties.  It is true.  I love fog.

     

  • Books, Triple Denim, and Another Opera

    As I settle further into this current phase of semi-settled liminality, my reading has picked up a bit.

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    October saw a few more books pass through my hands.  The two non-fiction books, Momofuko Milk Bar and Devil in the Milk have prompted some changes in my way of thinking (yes, even a cookbook can do that) but those thoughts have not yet settled.  They may well surface at some future date.  

     

    Otherwise, not surprisingly, I read fiction. Phil Rickman's Merrily Watkins mysteries bookended the month.  The first of the two, A Crown of Lights, was not my favorite and I struggled, impatient with Merrily and the story.  But perhaps also I was mentally contrasting it with Anna Burns' Milkman, which I had already started.  There was no comparison in terms of prose and the contrast may have simply unsettled me.  I was hoping light diversion from the Burn's intense meanderings, and Rickman fell flat.  You can read my review of Milkman here, and my thoughts on Donal Ryan's beautiful From a Low and Quiet Sea, another Booker-nominated novel,  here

     

    By the end of the month I was ready to return to Rickman and I read The Cure of Souls, which I thoroughly enjoyed.  Perhaps I had simply distanced myself enough from poetically lyrical prose that I was ready to settle into the story, perhaps I also found story itself more appealing.  There continue to be times when I find the jumping around choppy, and Merrily continues to be someone about whom I simultaneously feel becomes more familiar while also being completely unknowable and unrevealed.  But I think that may be the point, and part of her strength, even though she does at times try my patience.  Anyway I will continue with this series, and there are moments when Rickman so perfectly taps into something about the faith experience, about the mixing of the psychic and the holy, the muddling of human ego and odd moments of clarity, of good an evil and what we perceive and more likely(and often) misperceive, that continue to draw me in.

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    With the advent of transitional and autumnal weather I also made my first foray into double-denim, layering a chambray tunic over dark-wash jeans, although probably too late to be on trend.  Well, I've rarely been on trend with anything.  Obviously, it quickly became triple denim when I added my purse, which, now that I think of it means I've probably been doubling up on denim without even thinking about it.  When I bought the denim bag I wondered if I would wear it — now it seems to go everywhere except the dressiest of occasions.

     

    The denim bag even accompanied me to the opera last night, not that it was a particularly dressy opera.  I did wear my new velvet jeans, although, seeing as it was a rainy night and I feared I might traipse through mud, I wore them with my trusty blunnies.  Apparently I fit right in with the crowd.  

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    I was stunned by the performance, but I don't know how to write about an emotional opera about a self-indulgent madman, Nero, without descending into a self-indulgent morass.I will quote the brief description on the program:

     

    "Nero Monologues" is a one-woman pastiche opera.  The show journeys the inner workings of he notorious Roman emperor during his final hours.  The resulting work explores themes of abandonment, abuse, passion, sexual identity, love and power and comes together to paint a portrait of a damaged man; equal parts crazed artist and idealistic ruler.

     

    What immediately struck me was Sarah Toth's incredible emotional resonance.  Her diction was not always clear, but her ability to portray emotional content, even conflicting emotions through her voice and her movements wrapped this listener up in the experience. The interlayering of the music with alternating sung and spoken parts was evocative and very well done. The program notes had compared the Peter Learn's technique of layering music to Samuel Barber, and I could see that comparison.  The music, beautifully filled the role of inner voice, heard but not seen, as the musicians were in another room.  The composition itself was fascinating, at times very much touching on jazz and more contemporary atonal and minimalist forms and yet seamlessly mixing in passages by Handel and Monteverdi in order to build a complex emotionally-rich portrait..  For a moment even I was certain I heard a bit of Kurtág.  The relationship of Toth's performance to the musicians and the music seemed to embody an ongoing battle between emotion and reason, between madness and power, sanity and insanity.

     

    One moment that stands out for me in this immensely powerful performance occurred when Toth was singing Nero's lines from Monteverdi's Pur ti Miro. This duet, to my mind is one most beautiful love songs in the operatic repertoire,  becomes perverted, a song about one-sided obsession and fractured lust.  To me it spoke of the descent into insanity but also of the difference between relationship and obsession, and how what we might think of as simple, unrequited affection, can become warped in the mind, can lead into a dangerous path that is something else entirely.   The power of this piece is in its emotional content, the way it brings humanity to its subject, while at the same time bringing the receptive listener right up to that line that separates and protects  us from our darker inner impulses.  A lot of questions are opened here, about art, idealism, power, fear.  We don't necessarily need to see the answers, just trying to understand the questions may be a good start. I am happy I went. 

     

    Nero Monologue photo of Sarah Toth, from Marble City Opera, here.  There is also further information about the piece and a link to the poetry of Geoffrey Lehmann, a selection of which is used in the performance.

  • Two Fridays

    Two Fridays, two performances.  First the Knoxville Symphony and second, the Knoxville Opera. I preferred the former to the latter, but perhaps it is time to deconstruct.

     

    Last spring I asked myself if I seek out performances to attend simply to avoid being home alone too often in the evenings.  Perhaps I do.  But even when I was not alone, George and I struggled with this same problem, finding the balance between wanting nothing more than a quiet evening home alone, and loving art and music and wanting to hear more and more.  This fall, I added another question, namely how many of my choices are simply habit and do I need to both push myself and let go?   

     

    And so I have made a point of branching out.  I have purchased a subscription to a theater series, which I have so far enjoyed.  I enjoyed performances before, but I was not so likely to push myself to go out, and even tired, I am a better person for simply going. I went to hear Candide twice, and loved it, even though I went into it knowing that I really think Candide is Bernstein's least appealing work, pushing myself out of my own far too serious shell.  I have subscribed to Knoxville's Marble City Opera, a company that focuses on smaller, more intimate works, often contemporary, often in non-traditional venues.  I have thoroughly enjoyed the performances I have attended in the past, but again, without pushing myself I won't go out.  I need to go out and I need to work on my own biases and barriers.  This busyness, this going out more, doesn't directly address the first question, but I am sure that all of this struggle with too much vs too little will sort itself out in time.

     

    When a friend pointed out Knoxville Opera's comic double-billing of Mozart's The Impressario  and Puccini's Gianni Schicchi, I bought a ticket.  I knew it would be a push for me, for as much as I have loved many opera performances, I have also struggled with equally many, prompting those same questions about expectation and familiarity.  I know that I struggled with Knoxville Opera's performance of Aida last May.  I know I struggled with whether or not I was biased by some unrealistic sense of expectation, wishing to recreate the magic of my first opera performance, which was also Aida.  At the time I hopefully decided to blame most of my disappointment on the venue, the Knoxville Civic Auditorium, which has horrible acoustics, so bad that, in my opinion the place is only suited to loud over-amped popular extravaganzas where the performance is in fact not as much about the music as it is about shared memory and expectation. To my ears, that venue sucks the soul out of the music and leaves nothing but a barren shell.

     

    I was therefore interested in hearing the Knoxville Opera in a more amenable venue, and the Tennessee Theater fit the bill.  I have to confess to a falsehood however.  I told acquaintances that it was my first Knoxville Opera performance, which it was obviously not, reference Aida mentioned above.  At that moment I had forgotten Aida, which I only attended because my son-in-law was singing in the chorus. Nearly six months later I  remember the Knoxville Choral Society's portion of the performance more than I remember the rest of the opera.  Sad state that.

     

    I didn't actually remember having attended Aida until after the intermission, during the performance of Gianni Schicchi, which is much more traditionally operatic than was the performance of The Impressario.   I actually thought The Impressario was well done.  The work itself was intended as a parody, and the musical score is short, I would guess less than 30 minutes.  It is also my understanding that the spoken portion and the setting is commonly reimagined to suit the audience and the locale, which I think is important.  In that sense the production was good: a self-mocking reflection on a Knoxville opera company attempting to put on a production of Gianni Schicchi, filled with inside jokes and vaudevillian humor.  The Mozart meets Gilbert and Sullivan mash-up worked, and the audience, at least the audience around me, enjoyed that sense of being on the inside of the joke.  It wasn't opera, as I think of opera, but it was fun, light-hearted musical-theater, and a perfect example of knowing and connecting with one's audience, or at least a part of one's audience, as attendance seemed light.

     

    I was less thrilled with the second half of the program.  And here I don't know if my head just gets in the way.  The acting was fine, humorous and entertaining even, and the singing was fine.  Much of my enjoyment of opera revolves around the way sets and acting and music all intertwine.  The production itself was smooth, quickly moving and thoroughly entertaining.  And yet I was unmoved.  I felt that there was perhaps too much emphasis on comic relief at the expense of the story.  Perhaps I just don't understand the story.  Perhaps all those memories of being called too serious are true, and I don't "get" comedy.  But what I found lacking was balance.  My understanding of the music itself is that there is a balance, a contrasting play of themes between the comic and the solemn, a contrast that emphasizes the comic aspects of the story over the tragic, and it is this very contrast that elevates the comedy.  This contrasting balancing of themes centers around Lauretta's solo O Mio Babbino Caro, which provides this perfect moment of lyricism and beauty, after which the give and take, the jockeying between comedy and tragedy resumes.  Except that I felt the performance was unbalanced, geared more to slapstick, with the more solemn moments minimized, and I felt that Lauretta's solo, although beautiful, did not provide that moment of perfect repose that elevates the emotions; that it somehow remained disconnected from what came before and after. In short I was disappointed.  But I don't know if my disappointment was reasonable or unreasonable.

     

    Perhaps it is simply a question of exposure. Perhaps I simply need to attend more opera performances.  I'm not sure that I will however.

     

    I will continue going to the symphony.  I thoroughly enjoyed the previous Friday's symphony performance which revolved around Tchaikovsky's Concerto for Violin and Orchestra, in a rather interesting program which opened with Beethoven's Egmont Overture, which was beautifully performed.  I continue to think thet the KSO's performances of Beethoven have been consistently improving.  But what most intrigued me was Arem Demirjian's comments prior to the concert.  He discussed the Beethoven piece, explaining the story and illustrating how it played out in the work.  I think this was a good approach, even though we often neglect explanations of Beethoven, assuming familiarity.  He pointed out that Beethoven was a champion of political freedom and talked about how this played out in the concert choices for the evening, but I do not recall that he said much about the Tchaikovsky. Perhaps he should have said more, for although for although themes of fighting oppression, supporting the underdog, and freedom certainly apply to Shostakovich's fifth symphony, and were well explained by Demirjian, I don't recall him saying much about the Violin Concerto.  But of course it fit in the same theme.  Perhaps I missed it.  

     

    The performance was stunning.  Robyn Bollinger gave an incredible performance of a difficult work, and neither soloist or orchestra gave in to the excess romanticism, which occasionally mars a performance.   Aside from the technical brilliance of this work, I think it might have helped to remind audiences that it was written at a difficult time in Tchaikovsky's life; that he was struggling with a difficult marriage and a love that could never be; and that this work was not at all well received at the time — even though today it is one of the classics.  Illustrating this may have been helpful.  Or it may not have mattered given the thunderous applause at the end of the first movement, which tends to happen when this work is performed, but which did seem a bit protracted to me.  But I also remember listening to some girls after the concert, talking about how the talks affected their understanding of the music, and how entranced they were, how they lost track of time, except for the Tchaikovsky, which they felt went on and on.  I wonder about education and music, about what we expect and what we hear,  and although I have never been a fan of talks before performances, Demirjian, who does this very well, is changing my mind, almost as if he is letting the listener in on a secret, connecting them to the performance they are about to hear.

     

    This was particularly well done with the Shostakovich.  Certainly what he said about the work, the musical examples that were used to highlight meanings and themes, all meshed with the performance we heard, and it was enlightening, even for these jaded ears.  But then I sometimes think every performance I have hard of the 5th symphony has been different:  sometimes it is beautifully performed but bland, sometimes emphasizing the surface veneer of nationalism, the part that I assume Stalin heard and approved, and yet at other times emphasizing the disharmony.  I attended one performance that was so emotionally overwrought, so harrowing, that I felt completely drained after the performance, like a husk, with all humanity beaten out.  But I don't believe that was Shostakovich's goal.  

     

    The Knoxville Symphony's performance  was somewhere in between these extremes.  I think Demirjian's exploration of the music for the audience, and the performance itself captured the dichotomy of this work beautifully, the strong undercurrent of bitterness and pain lurking beneath a surface gloss of normalcy and expectation.  One could hear the hints of brash satire and wicked humor that are often contrasted in later symphonies, the grief tempered by hope, the sense that the spirit remains, subdued but unabashed. It was a bold and beautiful performance, and I suppose my sentiments align with those two young ladies — "it went by so fast….I was entranced….I want to hear more.."

     

  • Thursday morning musings: A review of sorts

    It seems I spent a fair amount of time last week listening to Haydn.  Now I like Haydn and can usually identify a piece of music as having been written by Haydn, but truthfully I never thought about Haydn much, or listened, actually listened to the music that much, well perhaps with the exception of the oboe concerto.  But I've always had a thing for the sound of the oboe.

     

    Anyway, last week, following a conversation with the Knoxville Symphony Orchestra's Music Director, Aram Demirjian, I found myself scrolling through youtube, listening to Haydn symphonies.  Initially I was seeking out performances conducted by Roger Norrington, but eventually I expanded my search only to return once again to Norrington.  I had forgotten about Haydn's sense of humor, the way the music plays with the listener, occasionally surprising, almost always sparking a smile.

     

    I knew that the KSO's chamber concert this past Sunday would include Haydn, specifically the symphony # 82, but I did not listen to that particular symphony prior to the performance.  I did not want to add a layer of expectation to my enjoyment of the performance, rather just reacquaint myself with the composer.  And it is true, that by Sunday afternoon I was eager to hear the performance, a performance I enjoyed immensely.  The Haydn was almost raucously joyful, especially in the last movement where the music imitates the sounds of bagpipes, intended to remind listeners of village fairs with their bagpipes and dancing bears.  It is a happy, joyful sound, music that left this listener grinning from ear to ear.

     

    In fact the entire concert was stunning. The Haydn was followed by an earlier work by Joseph Boulogne, the Chevalier de Saint-Georges, a work I was not really at all familiar with, but which I also enjoyed.  The incredible balance in the music, and in soloist Gordon Tsai's performance, between artfully placed arcs of dramatic tension and flowing lyricism, once again left me with soaring heart.

     

    Following the intermission, the symphony performed the one contemporary work on the program, and it was a piece perfectly chosen to complement the performance and expand listener's horizons.  Carolyn Shaw's Entr'acte for String Quartet or String Orchestra was written in 2011, and there are strong echoes of Haydn, although the work is quite modern as well, bridging that debt to history, but acknowledging the present.  In fact as I listened to the work I was reminded of the Brentano Quartet playing Haydn, a group I have hear on more than one occasion (and whose recoding of the Haydn Quartets I also own).  I never read the notes before the performance, but was then not surprised to find that not only had the work been inspired by a performance of Haydn's Quartet #2, played by the Brentano, but that the Brentano played in the first performance of this work, in its quartet form.    Anyway I found the music mesmerizing, especially  in the way the classical theme appeared and then evolved into something more modern, doing so without really jarring, reminding me more of memory and understanding the way one lives in the present, but the past is still there, always coloring and influencing our choices.

     

    The concert ended, as it should with Mozart's Symphony 31 in D Major, with its grand, swooping, and almost swaggering sound, probably the grandest opening I can recall in Mozart.  an opening that is almost mocking in its extravagance.  And yet, I increasingly think that is the genius of Mozart, that he can bring the music right to the razor's edge of parody without crossing that line, creating something incredibly beautiful, so beautiful that we might not even see (or hear) how close perfection is to mockery.

     

    Anyway, it was a lovely performance, marred by the interruption of bouts of applause from the audience.  I do, generally, think that moving away from the formality and imposed seriousness of classical music concerts is a good thing, and sometimes intermittent applause does not bother me, at least in moderation, but this time it did, and I left a little a wee tad disgruntled.

     

    Not for long however.  It has been a busy week in terms of performance, and I have had little time to mull over my discontent.  Sunday evening I returned downtown to hear Alison Krause at the Tennessee theater, and frayed sensibilities were suitably soothed and enchanted.  I had worried about the concert somewhat, much as I love music, most music, I often struggle with popular bluegrass/folk/country/pop concerts as too often they are a uniform mix of new work and crowd favorites that to my peripatetic brain waves all start to sound the same, whereas I really want a little dynamic programing and variation.  Krause has a varied repertoire however; I hoped for the best and was not disappointed.

     

    Tuesday night I went to an organ recital by the wonderful local organist James Garvey.  I was awed by the music, by the skill and mastery not only in the performance but in the program organization as well, complex, balanced, thrilling.  The concert opened with Bach and progressed through a remarkable balancing of music, with Distler, Franck, Leguay and Dupre.  George would have loved the Franck, and I sat happily with his presence in my heart as I listened to the music.  Everything was grand, but I soared with the Bach, and my heart danced with the Lequay, sometimes shocked alert, at other times peering through the clouds.  There is something about atonal music that always alerts my brain, makes every cell vibrate, and I continue to think, when done well, clears away the fog and shadows that shape our perception of reality, showing us something of the universe beyond.

     

    Last night I was downtown again, at the university, where I had tickets to Alias Grace, a marvelous and challenging play that addresses so many issues that affect society, and yet does so in a beautiful and compelling manner.  Although many issues are addressed, this is really a play about memory and truth, and it asks more questions than it answers.  Yet this member of the audience felt that the performance was graceful and sensitive, and that the conclusion was satisfyingly humane and complex, neither pandering to easy answers nor burdened with excess questions, only thoughts, and perhaps insight, or at least hope for insight.

  • Spark Joy

    The symphony season began last weekend in Knoxville, and as usual, I attended the Friday performance.  It was a wonderful performance, a wonderful evening, and I returned home bursting with happiness, happily jotting down a few notes and impressions of the concert, full of good intentions.  It always takes me a while to translate my swirling emotions and thoughts following a concert into cogent words, and I have learned to accept this about myself, that I would not be suited to writing reviews on a deadline, just as my hands and mind refuse to become a fast knitter.  Although I desire to make things and write, barring dire necessity, production itself is never the goal.  It is sufficient to get wherever I am going in whatever pace is needed.

     

    Alas, this week I took longer than anticipated.  I was under the weather Saturday and again early in the week.  Tikka was under the weather as well, and worry never aids in the flow of words.  But we are both on the mend and this year I am determined to not let the concerts slip into the ether before I put down words, if only to assist my own memory.  

     

    It was a busy weekend in Knoxville, and I got to the concert hall early.  Since this was the opening concert there was a champagne toast, and I enjoyed sipping champagne and spending time chatting with friends, getting to my seat before the short opening work, Starburst by young American composer Jonathan Leshnoff.  It felt to me like the composer, and the orchestra as well, had captured that energy, that sense of bursting forth, and turned it into a beautiful, swirling performance. The music began with a great rhythmic energy that built to a single chord that held, then slowly faded away as instruments dropped off, folding into the perfect calm of a clarinet cadenza.  The music built back up to a beautifully bouncing balance of rhythm and melody in the second half.  I felt it was a happy piece, although admittedly these are but fleeting impressions, and I really need more exposure to the piece to build any kind of appreciation or understanding.

     

    The Leshnoff was followed by what was for me the big draw of he evening, Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto No. 2, played by pianist Joyce Yang.    Of course, I tend to think that the piece itself is a work of pure emotional genius, and I was not disappointed in the performance.  Yang was fabulous, and the conversation between soloist and orchestra seemed perfectly harmonious, drawing this listener in from the opening bars of the solo piano, to the way the music swells into a powerful storm, balanced and interspersed with moments of calm.   There is so much happening in that first movement, different themes running around each other, sometimes bumping together but never crashing.  This is part of the genius of the piece to me, the way Rachmaninoff brings all these disparate elements into a common mesh, and the orchestra pulled this off beautifully.  I could not help but ebb and rage, swept away with the music.

     

    And that was only the first movement.  The second movement is of course the movement we all know, and from the heights of the first movement I plunged into the second.  It was the culmination of an emotionally difficult day, following a funeral for a friend's mother, seeing that same friend, drawn and worn, stretched thin; my concern for the family.  I too was drawn and frayed and the emotion of the second movement burrowed deeply, eliciting tears.  Of course that movement is filled with a sense of loss and longing.  By the end I felt drained and spent, but of course you are not left there dangling,  This is part of the genius of Rachmaninoff: following the cacophony of the first movement, through the emotional depths of the second movement,  everything is pulled together in the finale. Through longing, comes  peace, hope, thundering power and the majesty of something I can only liken to faith.  It ended up being a perfect piece of music for me to be lost in on that particular day, probably on any day.

     

    But this was only the first half of the concert.  Through the intermission the beautiful cry of the oboe in the Rachmaninoff echoed in my thoughts, and of course it would soon be followed even more thrillingly in the second half of the concert, in the Brahms Symphony #1, with a shimmeringly beautiful oboe solo, and stunning solos on horns and violin, and its own unique way of combining disparate themes and ideas into a harmonious and satisfying whole.  It was, I think, a happy pairing, the Rachmaninoff and the Brahms, both works brilliant in their respective ways.

     

    I came late to an appreciation of Brahms, and I continue to grow in that regard.  I heard a lot of Brahms growing up, along with Beethoven and Bach.  Yes, my dad was a "three Bs" listener, but it was Beethoven that I most absorbed as a child, and Brahms with which I struggled the most.  That could have simply been youth, but I think it was also the emphasis I absorbed, and which I think was played up in my father's recordings, that Brahms was the "new" Beethoven, the successor to Beethoven, and I am happy that orchestras and musicians have gotten away from that narrow view, if it was ever a trend.  I don't know if that was a widely held view or just something I picked up, partially informed, from my small pool of understanding.  I don't really see Brahms that way today.  Of course there are moments that sound a little like Beethoven in some of the music, even in the first symphony, but in music, as in life, the past is inescapable, part and parcel of who we are.  We can become a slave to it or move forward.  Brahms moved forward. 

     

    Certainly the opening movement of Brahm's Symphony No, 1 feels like it owes little to Beethoven except, perhaps, in its use of texture rather than a consistent melody.  I have to thank Aram Demirjian for reminding me of that as I was struggling with how to link my chicken scratches about the performance.   I think of Beethoven as liking clearly defined themes, linked together in discrete packages, but that is not what you find in the first movement of Brahm's First.   To this listener the Brahms opened with a polyphony of overlapping themes and ideas, a rich and complex counterpoint that felt far more closely related to Bach, and perhaps older forms as well, than anything that I associate with Beethoven.  From the opening lines the rising notes of the violins and cellos form a contrast with the descending notes of the violas and clarinets — joy contrasted with lament.  It is almost exactly this contrast and overlapping of themes, melding into a harmonious whole, not particularly melodic but very moving and both intellectually and emotionally rich that brings the symphony into satisfying territory.  Again, this movement seems to stand more on the shoulders of Bach than Beethoven, but truly it is neither.  Brahms is reimagining the symphony: it is as if he is trying to merge the tight multi-dimensional complexity of a small scale work like a fugue with the grandeur and enveloping scale of an orchestral work. As the first movement continues to unfold the contrasting rising and falling lines seem to do battle, thrillingly but also harmoniously, locked together arm in arm, a yin and yang, although Brahms would not have known those terms.

     

    Of course that high-wire balancing act cannot continue, and the first movement folds into the gentle lyricism of the second, a soothing place created by the music, like being caressed by silk, which slips into the allegretto e grazioso.  Here we have a gentle dance, a melody on a gentle breeze, a symphony that has begun in a worldly cacophony of voices and then turned inward, self-soothing, seeking quiet joys.

     

    And then, out of the calm, all hell breaks loose.  That is really the only way I can describe the shock of the opening notes of the final movement. We have been lulled into near complacency and are jolted rudely awake.  Eventually a sense of clarity begins to open, a spark of light, signaled by a resplendent horn call in C major.  The big dramatic melody follows, the part people compare to Beethoven, a look to the past, but also surging into a new future, signaled once again by the horn call, harmonized by a bit of dissonance but breaking through into meltingly beautiful music.  It is a symphony that feels somehow public and private, individual and universal, a multidimensional road map.  To where?  I leave that up to you.

     

     

     

     

     

  • Five, mostly revolving around a recurring theme.

    Thursday

    The view of clouds coming out of my apartment Thursday evening on the way to a party.

    Candide

    A second trip to see Candide.  I was very tired the first time I went and although I thought, and still think, the production was fabulous, I appreciated the second act more the second time around.  The first time it just confounded me, but as I said I was tired.  The first act remains my favorite, probably because it is closest to the actual work.  The second half cherry-picks episodes and tells a completely different story than the last two-thirds of the book and although I appreciate the musical as entertainment, I think temperamentally, I much prefer Candide as Voltaire wrote it. I continue to be a person who does not want to be spoon-fed easy answers, even as entertainment.  I also confirmed that I still don't love the score.  I appreciate it more having seen the production, but it is not something I would sit and listen to.  Again, this is me, and I am aware that my opinions are in opposition to the mainstream. I have no regrets, and am happy that I made the effort to see the production again because I was able to relax and let go of my annoyance with the score and enjoy the performance itself.  This second viewing allowed me to concentrate more fully on the musicians themselves, the acting, the timing, the sets, all the things that made the performance magical.

    Front Hall

    New floor tiles for the front hall.  

     

    Ijams

    I went to a fund raiser for Ijams nature center last weekend.  The event is usually outdoors on the lawn but due to the threat of rain it was held in a series of connected tents, which proved wise.  I thought that the darkness in the tent and the lighting around the symphony was beautiful, as was the performance.  I've been to many symphonic performances in tents and the sound is often awful.  This was not.  When I could hear, the sound carried quite clearly.  Notice the word "when".  I could not hear the music initially, and in fact the orchestra was well into the first piece before I could tell they were playing. It rapidly became clear however that the issue was not the fault of the organizers, but with the audience itself.  Very few people in the second tent stopped talking throughout the first portion of the program, which focused on the classical repertoire:  Rossini, Beethoven, Haydn, and Copeland.  However, the instant that RB Morris began to sing all sound stopped.  You could have heard a pin drop.  Morris was excellent, and the sound of the orchestra in the final third of the concert, revolving mostly around popular show tunes, was beautifully done.  Yes, I sat peacefully and calmly through the overture to Candide.  Would that my fellow attendees had had the courtesy to do so during the initial portion of the program.

    Voltaire

    When I came home from my second performance of Candide, I picked up my (new) copy of the novel.  My older copy fell apart earlier this month.  I still have it in French as well, but my ability to read French has atrophied over the decades.  Enraptured, I stayed up far too late reading. The excesses of Candide are indeed ludicrous, but there is humanity in the story, and a wisdom about human nature, suffering,  and what is important in life that I felt was more of a gloss in the play.  

     

    And now I must go tend to my own garden.

     

     

     

  • Traversing the Slough

    I spent a bit of time in the slough of despond this week.  In many ways there was no reason for it, I was coming off a fabulous weekend, although perhaps an excess of happiness and the remnant trails of exhaustion exacerbated my state.  Who really knows, I am not here to explore the roads to the slough, or even the process of extraction, although I am on the other side.  I am simply admitting that sometimes life grows difficult, our hearts and feet heavy and we trudge onward, hoping not to be pulled down into our own darker thoughts.

      Lacecap

    As stated above, it had been a fabulous weekend.  Friday night I went to the symphony, the last concert of the season, and a lovely concert it was.  I went despite the fact that I was exhausted.  I went despite the fact that the program's theme was Rhapsody in Blue, a piece of music I have never really liked although I have admittedly never really spent time sussing out what it is about the piece that I don't like.  I didn't like it when my piano teacher insisted I play it, even though I tend to like the piano composition far more than the orchestration.  It all seems jangly and jumpy and although I know that is the jazz influence, I'd often rather just hear jazz.  

     

    But I went to the concert to hear the second half, Aaron Copeland's Symphony #3, "Quiet City", a beloved work, despite its inconsistencies.  This is, in a way, and odd statement to make because I didn't even stay for the second half.  I was so tired that I feared my ability to drive safely home, and although I could have ubered home and come back in the morning for my car, I probably would have slept through the Copeland anyway, no matter how beautifully performed.  Surprisingly, I Ioved the Gershwin.  Pianist Michelle Cann's performance was brilliantly exuberant, with a controlled rhythm and an elegance that I don't often hear in that piece.  Still the rhythm was there and it made me want to dance.  In fact the entire piece, piano and orchestra was alive, except instead of all jangly and jumpy it felt more to me like silk and chiffon moving and swirling in the winds of the music. Perhaps this interpretation of the Gershwin was shaped by the Florence Price work played earlier in the concert Concerto in One Movement for Piano and Orchestra, which I admittedly knew nothing about but which seemed to be a rather gracious melding of old-world European traditions with the roots of ragtime. 

     

    Saturday was puttering day, and catch-up on sleep day, which is why there was no blog post.  I had been sleeping badly for a week, for no discernible reason. Mentally and emotionally I did not feel stressed, but my body did; perhaps this too was a precursor to this weeks trudge through the tar-like slough, some previously hidden imp of a thought working its way out of my psyche.  Perhaps my body occasionally tells tries to clue me in to things my mind is refusing to acknowledge. But Saturday was mostly a grocery shopping and cooking day.  I was cooking both for myself and for another family, which offered a double joy in a way, as I got to play in the kitchen and feed people, two activities that are always dear to my heart.  At the end of the day I was tired, happy-tired, but tired nonetheless. 

     

    Sunday I went on a bike ride with a friend.  It was my first excursion outside my immediate neighborhood, my first ride of over 2 miles,  and I was a bit nervous to start, still wobbly, still occasionally getting my gear-shifts confused, but excited as well.  We met at the EarthFare parking lot and rode to the UT Gardens and back, a ride that was, to my best guess, nearly 7 miles round trip.  It is a good beginner trail and not nearly as hilly as my neighborhood, which was helpful.  It was perhaps a mile too far, as I was struggling to get myself up that last slight hill returning to my car, but I made it, and it was my own fault anyway as I was the one who insisted I could make it to the gardens. and back.  I've always had a tendency to overdo.

     

    Sunday afternoon I made chocolate bark, and toasted and soaked Mexican Chiles to make a couple of kinds of Chile paste just to restock my pantry and for some upcoming menus.  Then had a lovely dinner with friends.  My Vitamix crashed on Sunday, well the canister did, and a replacement canister is on the way. Monday I crashed. No replacement self alas, but although perhaps more volatile, I am less brittle than plastic, and can be restored.  

     

    Wisely I didn't stop doing things during the week.  Although my accomplishments slowed considerably.  I am working on yet another round of sorting and putting away.  I walked but I did not ride the bike, which may have been a mistake, as the feel of the air against my skin might have perked me up considerably.  There were days when Tikka, reading my reluctant mood, did manage to convince me not to walk, whereas usually I drag her along, or she drags me along, and we support each other.  Perhaps we were both simply experiencing an early summer miasma.

     

    And here we are again, another weekend.  It is an active weekend, but perhaps with a better balance between my social and solitary selves. This may be a good thing.  It is human to want to find reasons, preferably problems we can fix, but I am not sure that is the answer.  There are always hills.  There is always mud.  Perhaps, because I was tired, certain barriers were down and I was more open to vulnerability. But relationships also require a willingness to enter into vulnerability on occasion, even if that means occasionally traipsing through the mud.  The trick seems to be in both allowing oneself to wallow when needed, but also being willing and able to both enter, and to see oneself to the other side.

     

    Have a wonderful weekend.