Author: 459856pwpadmin

  • Another Catch-Up Post

    Still April.  

     

    And another blog post.  I should celebrate successes as they materialize.  I am working on a book post, but it is coming slowly.  This is primarily because I am still struggling with being over-tired, with doing too much, and learning to accept that normal, even at the still-tender age of almost 66 is not what normal was even a few years ago.

     

    That said, even though I feel overwhelmed, and like I have been frittering my time away, this is not exactly true.

     

    There has been sewing, mostly simple.

    Crosses

     

    Two cross covers, one in lenten purple, one in holy week red, for my church.  These were additions to the set of each made last year, to accommodate a new processional cross. 

     

    Red

    And one simple garment for me, this a chiffon cardigan to wear to an event.  The dress was already in my closet.  The cardigan is red silk chiffon and is a fairly simple garment to make.  I did use a pattern for this, Marfy 3303 which is one of the "free" patterns included with the purchase of the Marfy 2014/2015 annual catalog.  The pattern picture is shown below:

    Marfy 3303

    There are two pattern pieces, two front pieces and two back pieces which are seamed at the center.  You would think they are rectangles, but they are not, part of the genius of the pattern.  Tucks are made at each shoulder, and there is a side seam, but it is in the interior of the cardigan, allowing the edges to float and flutter freely, as if the cardigan were simply a shawl.  The clever cutting and seaming allows this to fit and flow on the body nicely, and also to stay in place when one is dancing.  Always an advantage in my book.

     

    Baptisms

    I also made six baptismal towels, four in March, for Easter Sunday. 

    Baptism

    And two more two weeks later.    Each towel is made by hand from ecclesiastical weight linen, with hand embroidery and hand hemmed.  The entire process takes me somewhere between 8 to 13 hours, the variation depending mostly on the baby's name.  the  shortest of these took me 8 1/2 hours, and the longest slightly over 12, or somewhat over 70 hours total for the six towels, but less than 80 hours.  I love doing this, and I am sure I could find a faster way, but at the moment this is still a labor of love.

     

    Ribbon1

     

    There has been some knitting progress, but nothing has been completed.  I am still working on the ribbon cardigan.  As much as I love both knitting and ironing, I find that this project tests my patience.  I may like to iron but ironing yards upon yards of rayon ribbon flat is tedious at best.  I have just finished ironing the third 100-yard skein of ribbon.  I need to wind it on a spindle, after which I can knit another section of the sweater.  The knitting itself is also slow, fun, but slow.  There have been evenings in the past month where one row of the twisted basketweave stitch is all I can accomplish of an evening.  Of course, the body of this cardigan is being knit in one piece, so the rows are not short.  Sometimes self-justification is all that keeps us going.  I know that I will love this cardigan.  I love the fabric that I am creating.  But it will be a long time before I take on another ribbon sweater.  I will be happy if I have finished this by fall, which is, realistically, as soon as I would wear this sweater anyway.

     

    Crows1

     

    Greater progress has been made with "Murder of Crows".  I finished the body of the sweater and have picked up the first sleeve.  This too will be a fall sweater, although there are still early mornings in the garden which would be cool enough to wear this sweater, were it finished.    I really like the way this sweater is turning out and knitting it has reminded me that, as much as I love complicated texture and color work, patterns that require thought, it is also very good to have a simple mindless project on the needles. Pardon the dark photo — an unblocked sweater on a dark background,  taken on a deeply cloudy day.

     

     

     

  • April! Already almost half gone….

    Hello.  Welcome to my monthly blog post and a brand new peony.

    Peony2

     

    This is the first bloom of a new self-starting peony which appeared in my yard a couple of years ago, slowly growing every spring, disappearing in the heat of late summer, and slowly growing.  I have a couple of peonies in places  where I never intended them, but they seem so happy in their chosen abodes that I have been loathe to move them.

     

    I think there is a lesson in that.

     

    Just as I think there is a lesson in the way this spring has worked out for me, my general sense of overwhelm, my ongoing tiredness, and ongoing struggles in terms of decisions about who it is I want to be in this moment of my life.  I know that sounds strange for a woman who is 65 going on 66, but it seems to me that life is not so much a smooth line but a series of  chasms and summits, opportunities for growth or for stasis.  I've always been a person who embraces change and yet who also struggles with that very change.  The struggle part is not unusual.  I, like most of the people I know, embrace comfort, embrace familiarity.  And yet I think that change is equally a part of what it means to be human.  I am changing.  And as I change I become more the person I have always been.

     

    I can't write about what that means yet.  I'm too much in the middle of the process.

    Iris

    I can only leave you with another flower.  The first of the irises.  More will follow.  

     

    I too will return.

     

     

     

  • Hello Spring

    I did say I would return in March although my intention had always been for early March.  Missed that internal deadline, didn't I?

    Hellebores

    It is no matter, somehow things always play out the best way they can.  Or at least that is the view I choose to take on the matter.  It is lent after all, and it always seems to me that lent ends up being a period of upheaval and resolution.  Sometimes metaphysical, sometimes physical, sometimes, surely, all in my head.  

     

    Lent is, in many ways much like spring.  Spare and bare still, but with pops of color, pops of hope.  Uncertainty abounds: cold nights, warm days, rain, sunshine, sudden frosts, and yet resurrection surrounds us.

     

    And yet it is all a part of the plan, the normal cycle of things.  It shouldn't surprise us, and yet it always does.

    TucsonScenes

    I was in Texas and Arizona.  Lovely visits, both with family.

     

    I returned to a series of unfortunate glitches:  some kind of mild allergic reaction thingy on my face, a rheumatoid fare, an encounter with gluten that lead to a celiac flare, more struggles with atrial flutter.  All basically minor.  All annoying nonetheless.  

    Camelia

    Like the garden, we muddle through, marshal our resources, cliché-filled, marching ever onward.  The camellia is sending out a few precious blooms.  It wasn't the January snow that did it in, but the single digit temps so close to its normal bloom time did set it back.  What blooms appear are late, a little war-torn, but valiant harbingers of hope.

     

    The vegetable garden continues.  A few hot days, have prompted the bok choy to bolt, but the flowers are also delicious.  Cabbage, broccoli, bitter Italian greens continue onward.  I will never keep up with them all.  Broccoli is heading.

     

    I planted fava beans and they were coming up nicely, little green leaves peaking above the soil.  The same for peas.  And like that, they were gone.  Someone ate them all last night.  The great legume massacre of 2024. Perhaps there is time to sow another crop.  Perhaps best to let it be. Another sign.  But there will just be room for other vegetables.

    Daffodil

    The first of my "late" daffodils are up.  Actually a little early.  But its the only one so far, although there are lots of buds.  There is always someone who leaps out from the crowd.

     

    Anyway, welcome spring.  It is a good spring, a good start.  Always too much too do.  As always it doesn't all get done.  And who says it should anyway?

  • Blog Break and Project Updates

    This will be my last post for February, which has been a quiet month anyway, at least in terms of finishing things. 

     

    I don't need to finish objects, there are more than enough things in my life as it is.  Nonetheless there are quite a few piles here and there, and various ideas floating about that may or may not be beginning to shape themselves into tangible form. The creative fog is itself refreshing, and not limited to any particular medium at this point. I am dreaming of gardens and food, embroidery, sewing, knitting, color, texture form.  It will all sort itself out in its own time. 

    Scarf  

    I have managed to finish one thing, a simple scarf sewn up from a navy/blue/black sweater knit.  This piece had been languishing in a stack for a long while.  I had a sweater made from this fabric when I still lived in Hyde Park, but it has long since been worn to threads.  I don't remember my original intentions for the remaining piece, but lately I keep looking at it, thinking "That will make a nice scarf someday" and then putting it aside.  Well someday arrived.  I honestly don't know why I had been putting this off, perhaps thinking I might have a more interesting idea.  But interesting is sometimes overrated. And a scarf in hand is always good.   

     

    On the knitting front I've gone from working on one project (Ausma) to having three projects on the needles.  

    Ribbon1

    One is a rayon ribbon cardigan, that I love but which is proving to be a slow project.    I had started this once before but had trouble keeping the yarn from twisting.  I felt like I was spending more time untwisting the yarn than I was knitting.    I ripped and began again after pressing all the twisted ribbon I had already knitted back into smooth silky shape.

    Ribbon2

    I figured out that a ball, even a carefully hand wound ball, didn't work for me.  Somehow, while knitting, I would twist the yarn even more.  I came up with the idea of winding the yarn on a spindle of sort, using an embroidery frame as the spindle.  This is tedious and time consuming, and each skein must be wound on the spindle painstakingly.  That means the interruptions between knitting each skein becomes tedious. More tedious in fact, because the skeins themselves are twisted and tangled. Each new skein has to be slowly unwound, ironed,  and slowly wrapped onto the spindle.  

     

    I do not believe the tangling is the manufacturer's fault.  This yarn has been packed and unpacked multiple times, and treated non-too-kindly I fear.  I take full responsibility even as I mutter under my breath while standing (not) patiently at the ironing table. Although I love the actual knitting, and the pattern is both simple and entertaining, the pressing and winding is far less exciting.  It will be some time before this sweater is done, and most of that time will not be knitting time.

    Sock1

    The ribbon project is not portable, so I needed something I could tote around with me.  Enter socks.  I'm not far along yet, but far enough that the sock is stable enough for traveling about.  The yarn is a self striping yarn from Urth Yarns called Uneek Sock and I am knitting them on size 1 needles.  The skein pictured is enough for one sock.

    Crows1

    Feeling in need of more mindless knitting time to balance both the annoyances of ribbon flattening, and the fog of creative dreaming, I also started another fairly straightforward project, an assigned-pooling sweater using BFL fingering yarn from Barker Wool.  The pattern is from Barker Wool as well and is called A Murder of Crows.  I've just started this as well, so I don't have much to report.  I am having fun with it so far.  I really need a loose comfy sweater to just throw on all the time around the house and studio and I am hoping this will be the one.  

     

    Anyway, I hope the remainder of February is kind, and I will see you in March.

  • Playing with my food

    Somehow I think I didn't cook as much in January as December.  Perhaps my memory is faulty; in retrospect I cooked a lot in early January and then I went through a lull.

     

    Let's take a look back and see. 

     

    I think January started off pretty strongly.  I had a large bag full of fennel fronds after making fennel gratins for Christmas.    I also had a new cookbook, Tenderheart, by Hetty Liu McKinnon.  I noticed that she made a pesto from fennel fronds, and she did it a little differently than my standard pesto recipe in that she used pepitas (pumpkin seeds) instead of pignoli (pine nuts).  I had some pumpkin seeds languishing away and decided to use them up.  At first I wasn't convinced, but the pesto improved with age.  I still think I prefer pine nuts.

     

    Fennel1

     

    I also thought McKinnon's proportion of garlic to fennel frond was a little high, but that could have also been a factor of my garlic and my fennel.  At first the pesto tasted strongly of garlic and made my eyes water.  But I left it to rest a few hours, which allowed the allicin in the garlic to mellow, and the balance of flavors improved immensely.    I've grown fond of the numerous variation on pesto that I've tried over hte year and tend to keep on hand now.  Some, like this one, appeal to my frugal self — "look I'm not tossing the fennel greens" — but they offer wonderful flavor profiles and easy techniques for sprucing up a plate of vegetables or a simple piece of chicken or fish.  I use them more than true basil pesto right now, but that could just be because my basil crop didn't do all that well last summer. 

     

    Fennel3

     

    That first evening I used the fennel frond pesto with pasta and seared sea scallops.  I may have added slightly too much parmesan, fearing the the pesto was still excessively garlicky, so the color suffered.  Dinner was delicious anyway.

     

    Fennel2

     

    The next morning I dabbed fennel pesto on my scrambled eggs with some grated radishes and a scattering of pickled red onions.  This was a revelation in flavors, everything harmonizing and playing off each other nicely.  I've continued eating this combination since, it makes my mornings feel like spring even though we are in the depths of winter, 

     

    ChiliOil

     

    The big hit from Tenderheart was McKinnon's recipe for Garlicky Chili Oil.  I've been slathering it on everything and am finishing up my second batch.  Perhaps I've been a little excessive, but it is that good.  She also has a recipe for Chili Crisp that sounds fabulous, but haven't made it yet, mostly because I am so besotted with all the components of this oil.

     

    CeleryLeaf

     

    I also made McKinnon's version of celery soup.  Here served with a drizzle of chili oil.  I had recently grown bored of my previous celery soup recipe and this was a welcome change, even when using pale, anemic, winter celery from the grocery store.  I think I still need to play with this recipe, or explore recipes a bit more.  Celery soup is a good basic as celery itself is something I find I need only in small quantities, and then I am trying to use up the rest of a bunch before it goes bad, although celery does make a nice stir-fry, one I loved as a child.  I wonder if my mother stir-fried celery as a way of just using it up before it went bad as well?

     

    Cauliflower

     

    Still on a Tenderheart kick, I used McKinnon's recipe for hoisin sauce and a hoisin-glazed roasted cauliflower.  Roasted cauliflower is something I do regularly in season, and I've been making my own hoisin for years, since I first learned I had celiac disease, when the only gluten-free hoisin I could find tasted nothing like the stuff I had been buying previously in my local Asian market.  I still make hoisin,  but felt my version was rather one-note and basic.   I wanted to try a new recipe and I really liked the one I found in this book.  This may well become my new base for hoisin, although I will probably tweak it a bit here and there. 

     

    OxtailBourguinon

     

    During the big snow I was craving "brown food", slow-cooked, braised, warming dishes.  I made myself a pot of chili and a big batch of chicken paprikas, which has been one of my favorite comfort foods since childhood.  I also made Nigella Lawson's Oxtail Bourguinon, from Cook, Eat, Repeat.    This made a large batch as I had 4 pounds of oxtail in the freezer. All that cooking meant that warm and comforting meals went into the freezer and I just finished off the supply this week.  Perhaps that is why I have not been cooking as much recently. Anyway, that is the oxtail pictured above, with lots of carrots and mushrooms.  It was very good, but not perhaps my favorite oxtail stew.  I'm not 100% on that, as it has been a few years since I routinely made oxtail stew or soup.  Something else that may need to change.

     

    I also harvested an armful of bok choy before the snow, not being sure how it would weather the single digit temps.  Luckily we had enough snow that it stayed under its snow blanket the entire time and survived just fine.  I am still eating winter bok choy and broccoli raab.  One of the new dishes I tried was a recipe for stir-fried bok chow with crispy tofu from Nik Sharma's new book, Veg-Table.  This was supposed to be the January book from my cookbook club, and so far it is the only recipe have tried, although there are several that look tempting.  They just haven't appealed to my winter-dining cravings for stews and long braised meats. 

    Tofu

     

    Anyway the bok choy was really simple, stir-fried with onion, garlic and a simple sauce made of soy sauce (wheat free tamari for me) and Chinese black vinegar.  I loved the flavor the black vinegar added and it reminded me I do not use black vinegar enough,   The tofu was  cut in cubes, coated with bread crumbs and sesame seeds, and fried, yielding a crispy crust and a tender middle.  The combined flavors were wonderful, with the textural differences of crisp and soft, and the bright savory flavor of the bok chow also enhancing the very mild tofu.  The tofu would also be good with a dipping sauce, but I found it a little bland on its own.  I think, once again, my seasonal tastes tend toward something more deeply savory; this might well be the kind of light meal I crave once the weather brightens.

     

     

  • Did we really think I’d stop reading? January Books

    As I was dithering, putting off writing this post, I picked up a book to begin my next read.  The Book is The Vulnerables, by Sigrid Nunez, and I found this quote on the first page:

     

    Only when I was young did I believe that it was important to remember what happened in every novel I read.  Now I know the truth:  what matters is what you experience while reading, the states of feeling that the story evokes, the questions that rise to your mind, rather than the fictional events described.   (page 3, paragraph 2, line 7)

     

    And so, in the beginning of a novel is a statement that completely encapsulates my approach to reading in general, particularly fiction, but I would argue that there is a corollary that relates to non-fiction as well.    Yes we read non-fiction for knowledge, but how we approach a chemistry text for example, should be different than how we approach history.  We are not empty pitchers waiting to be filled up only to disgorge the contents unfiltered.

     

    I read five books in January 2024:

    1.  Lord of Chaos, Robert Jordan.  Fantasy. Book 6 of the Wheel of Time series.
    2. The Fourth Turning: An American Prophesy,  William Strauss and Neil Howe.  Reread from the 1990s. American History, Sociology, Generation Theory.
    3. A Crown of Swords, Robert Jordan.  Fantasy, Book 7 of the Wheel of Time series.
    4. Generations: The History of America's Future1584-2069, William Strauss and Neil Howe.  Non-fiction. American History, Sociology, Generation Theory.
    5. The Vaster Wilds, Lauren Groff.  Literary. Themes include patriarchy, female autonomy, climate change, ecological degradation.

     

    In my mind they can be broken into two groups:  the first four, then the final one.

    JanuaryBooks

    I started both Lord of Chaos and The Fourth Turning before the close of 2023.  They were both slow reads. Oddly, or so it seemed at first, they complemented each other.  But it is not really odd.  They both revolve around a cyclical view of time.

     

    I picked up The Fourth Turning, which I had read when it first came out in the 1990s, because I read somewhere that Neil Howe had come out with a new book, The Fourth Turning is Now.  I remembered reading the first book, and the general outline of Strauss and Howe's theory, and wondered whether or not I really needed a further explication of the theory as it relates to current events, or, if would be better just to reread the previous book.  I opted to reread before making a decision. Once I started The Fourth Turning, I thought I should read Strauss and Howe's previous book, Generations, and procured a copy.

     

    Both books discuss history, specifically American History, although in the second book they have expanded their timeline backwards to the Reformation in Europe.   Their premise, that history is shaped by generations and that these generations fall into a repeating pattern of approximately a four-generation cycle of 80 to 100 years, called a saeculum, is thought provoking and worth reading.  The idea of the spaeculum is not new, it goes at least as far back as classical Greece.  Nor is the idea of differences in generations or the idea that time and history are cyclical in nature new.  These ideas have a much longer hold on human thought than the relatively new idea that history and time are linear.  

     

    In general, people do react to the ideals and actions of the generation that came before them, every era has its own events and stories that shape its particular narrative, and much as many an older generation wishes the younger generations were more like themselves, this cannot be so. We all leave our marks on the culture in which we live, and the world in which our grandchildren live is not precisely the world in which we grew up.  This was as true in the past as now, although rapidity of change is much more marked at this point in time.   There are ages of heroism, ages of rebellion, ages of calm and peace.   Unfortunately the way the previous cycles played out grows dimmer the further removed we are from any particular time.   I am not saying that time or history is strictly cyclical, not in any sense of predeterministic, but I am also not saying that history is strictly linear either.  It seems to me we see what we need to see to survive and in this we see only a fragment of what is true.

    Strauss and Howe combine a view of history with sociology in describing social movements and the way ideas shape history.  Was this new at the time? I don't know.  I think both books are good, although the latter book trends a little more toward pop sociology than appears to be the case in the first book, Generations, seems more solid to me, even if a little dry.   In both books, the authors sometimes appear to take great pains to adapt the flow of historical events to their four-generation, four-season outline, and sometimes  they leave out events that I might have thought important.  I am not a historian, but my father was, and he drummed the idea of historicity into me from an early age.  I am also aware that the way we look at the past, the way anyone looks at the past, even a historian attempting to be objective, is shaped by his/her understandings of the world in which he or she lives.  There are facts, but we see them darkly.

     

    Anyway, reading these books along with the 6th and 7th volumes of The Wheel of Time was fascinating.  In once sense, the entire series, which takes place over the course of just a few short years, very much fits into the patterns of a crisis or "turning" as Strauss and Howe use the term.  Jordan also employs the idea of time as being a wheel, not repeating exactly, but themes and cycles that recur again and again.  He artfully weaves in "legends" that refer to events of our time, although so misconstrued and misremembered that they could be missed if one was not paying attention.

     

    In retrospect I think the first few volumes of The Wheel of Time were a sort of prologue, defining the world and its boundaries.  Now, in the middle of the cycle, I find myself fascinated by the world itself, the societies, the individuals, the complexity of this world that also seems all too familiar in its humanity.  Everyone sees the world through different lenses.  Everyone believes they are right.  Everyone, absolutely everyone, is wrong.  We have a group of young adults who are changing the world, but not so much changing it because they want to, but because they see circumstances that others do not, respond in ways others do not.  They too make mistakes.  Everyone, in trying to help, in trying to guide the future, compounds the crisis. 

     

    I find this fascinating because I see it play out all around me.  In global events.  In local politics.  In petty feuds and misunderstandings, some of which drive people apart because they can't let go of their own tiny piece of the world.  I am no better.  This is part of what it is to be human, although I still believe we have the option to attempt to reach beyond this, if we can.   This is what fantasy and science fiction do so well, they explore the everyday themes of human life, society, religion, in an abstract way that allows greater depth through distance.

     

    I will continue reading The Wheel of Time but I will also probably take a break when I finish my current book.  I feel no need to read Howe's newest iteration of his theory.  Even in The Fourth Turning, I thought the book was making missteps as it tried to apply a general theory to the specifics of what is happening today.  I still find the ideas fascinating and thought provoking.  Reading the books was time well spent.  The same for Jordan.  But that is about the extent of it. I'm not sure any of us can really understand the forces that govern our life while we are in the midst of living it.    

     

    And that takes me to my last book, which is a different thing altogether.

    VasterWilds

    The Vaster Wilds, by Lauren Groff is definitely a literary novel.   The setting is roughly 1609-1610, Jamestown, but this is not specifically an historical novel even as it definitely references some of America's founding myths.  The story takes place over the course of a week or two, and revolves around the struggle of a young girl who has run away from the Jamestown settlement, who is pursued, and is sick and dying in the wilderness.  The scope is simultaneously very small and very grand.  The plot is minimal, and yet the story is compelling. I did not want to put it down.  

     

    To this reader, the novel explores many of the themes that were explored in Groff's last novel, Matrix: patriarchy, misogyny, loss of female autonomy, capitalism sometimes masquerading as evangelism, climate change, ecological degradation.  Yet where Matrix explored these issues in a very external way, through a fictionalized character  based roughly on Marie de France, in this novel the exploration is very internal, through the musings of a young unnamed girl.  Yet this story is also very internal to the experiences of a woman in any age.  That the girl has no name is important to the story, as is the fact that she is called by many names, none of which feel real even to herself.

     

    There are several things I like about the story and the structure of the story.  I like that Groff has intentionally chosen to write in a voice that is not modern, deliberately evoking the period.  And although our narrator is omniscient, and sometimes perhaps anachronistic in that between alternating sequences of dreams vs the reality of her plight, our young narrator explores issues of male sexual violence, discrimination both on the basis of sex and differences in religion/race, as well as the human need for possession and domination.  Groff bridges this gap well, with beautiful prose.  She also manages to make her protagonist not sound like a 21st century girl trapped in a 17th century setting, a problem I find rampantly annoying in many historical fictions.  In fact we don't know all that much about what 17th century women thought about all of these things, but I suspect their thoughts were not that different than ours even though their contexts and expectations would have differed wildly.

     

    I was particularly struck by the question of dominion vs domination and the way it plays out through the story. Although the author addresses this question head on in the middle of the book, as one reads, one realizes that the theme has been pervasive throughout the novel in the various relationships between the characters, both men and women, but also adults and children, englishmen (deliberately not capitalized in the novel) and native americans, humans and nature, even to some extent in the struggle between outer life and inner life, or the ego and the soul.    

     

    In this sense, I find the ending of the novel fascinating and necessary.  Our dying protagonist experiences a series of fever dreams in the moments before death in which she has survived and lived for some years, self-sufficient and yet lonely, in the wilderness. Through each iteration of her dream she makes a new realization about the meaning of life and what is truly important, another way of looking at dominion vs domination,  not just of the world, but of the way in which we are willing, or not willing, to embrace wisdom and who we truly are.  

     

    In this story of a nameless girl I found, in one sense at least, the story of humanity.  Life is filled with nameless people who lived brave, sad, honorable or terrible lives.  We do not know about most of them, but they are no less important to the world we know today just because they as individuals are forgotten.  The same is true for each of us, each of us embodies humanity.  Most of us will not be remembered a few generations from now, much less hundreds of years.  But each of our lives is valuable, each of us is valuable for the choices we make.   I may be reading a lot more into this book than the author intended but I am not sure whether or not that is the point. I continue to maintain that a book opens the opportunity to form a relationship with an idea.  Reading this book opened a conversation. Discussing this book with my book club, refined and shaped that conversation in new ways, as have my meandering thoughts since that date.  Definitely a book I will want to read again.

     

    I am going to conclude this post with a quote from near the end of the novel, during the prologue to the period of fever dreams, as much because I love the wording, as because it captures both the sweep of awareness of grace as the acceptance of peace to come. 

     

    And in the air, now, she had a single bright flare, a vision that extended her life vastly beyond this moment of her dying, both in the greater sweep and in the smaller grains.

                                                                       page 233, paragraph 5

     

     

  • Hello Ausma

    Let me introduce you to Ausma!

    Ausma

    The pattern is Ausma by Inese Sang and is knitted using A Verb For Keeping Warm's yarn, Reliquary II. The yarn is lace weight, 80% merino, 20% silk.  

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    During 2020 – 2022, and even into 2023, I belonged to several mystery yarn and knitting clubs. I joined in order to support favorite vendors during what was a difficult time.  I wanted to do my little part.  I didn't actually manage to knit everything I received during that period, but I have no regrets.  This was one of the club offerings I received from A Verb for Keeping Warm, and although I adored the pattern, I was initially less  than thrilled with the colors of the yarns.    I did not re-up my membership in the shawl club, but not because I regretted anything about the club.  In fact participation in these clubs has converted me into a knitter of shawls.  I don't think I will ever give them up, even though sweater-knitting remains my first love.  However, I prefer to have more control over what I actually acquire and make.  When I was younger I would make something just to try a technique, to learn something new.  Now I only want to make what I love.  I feel no need to be on trend. I feel no need to be the first.   I want to knit not just for the joy of knitting, but for the joy found in the finished object.

     

    Back to Ausma.

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    This is basically a warm neutral shawl.  But my coloring is basically soft and cool.  Beige has never been my color.  The base color, Santolina is a beige.  It is a fairly neutral beige, but it is not a taupe.  As I knit this I have made a valiant effort at convincing myself that I can wear this shawl with taupe, and you might think so as well from the photo below. 

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    But you would be mistaken.  In this photo, in low bedroom light, on a black background the shawl looks beautiful with my silver/taupe evening skirt.  And it would probably work in an evening situation.  But, in bright sunlight, in florescent light, or anywhere the lighting is warm or glaring, the difference in the colors becomes markedly incongruous.  The skirt looks more silver/taupe, and the shawl quite yellow in comparison.  It would not flatter the skirt; it would not flatter my skin. I do not have a photo to show you, so you will have to trust me on this.

     

    The contrast color, Paloma, is definitely warm.  The Santolina tones it down in the interior puffed rib panels, but the outer border is definitely warm soft pumpkin color.   

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    Despite this, I have no regrets.  I loved knitting the shawl.  I have already purchased more of the same yarn, Reliquary II,  in shades that will work for me with the intention of knitting another Ausma, one that will see plenty of wear.   I do not regret the purchase.  I do not regret the time spent knitting.    As I have been writing this post however, I have also realized that I feel no need to hold on to Ausma now that she has been finished.  It is time to release her into the world.    She has already been donated to a worthy cause, and hopefully she will make someone very happy.  That thought makes me very happy.

     

     

     

     

  • January in Review

    I am a little late getting to this post, but I suppose a day late is better than not at all at this point.  Yesterday was a busy morning with outside obligations, and my higher priority, even higher than writing you, was to finish knitting Ausma and get it blocked.  I succeeded in meeting that goal, but not with enough time or mental acuity to write.  

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    The biggest event of January was the Martin Luther King Day snow.  I got 12 inches in my yard, give or take a fraction, and I think the official tally finally came in at 11 3/4 inches.  The particular combination of a large snowfall, followed by a week where the temperatures did not rise above freezing was a truly rare event for this city,  but I loved being home without interruption.  There is always more than enough that I can do, more than enough than I want to do.  In fact I don't really understand how people who don't read and/or have hobbies that keep them busy with their hands and minds function.  My street was finally plowed on January 22nd, by which time the temperature had risen above freezing, and if I hadn't needed coffee, I might not have gone out on the 23rd.    Of course I did have to go out after that, normal life resumed, but if anything I am reminded that for me it is the outside world that is the distraction and, often, the intrusion.  Something worth thinking about.

     

    Bok Choy

    When the snow melted I saw that the winter garden had been perfectly comfortable under its winter blanket of snow.  The remains of the bok choy bed looked perfectly happy.  Of the two varieties of broccoli raab,  one looked a little worse for wear, but had survived, and the other appeared unscathed.  Haruki turnips, arugula, cabbage and various kales were fine.

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    I thought the purple kale and the cilantro looked perfectly lovely together.   I hadn't been certain about the parsley, but it was thriving and after 3 days had new green leaves.  Unfortunately some desperate critter dug it up after that and I salvaged the remnants.  Only the Mexican oregano died, but truthfully I had expected it to die months ago, so it was no real  loss.

     

    I also kept the path to the studio open during the bad weather, and although I did not spend that week sewing, or at least not exclusively, I am happy that I got several things finished in January.  Life is not measured by our accomplishments, and yet, I am happy with those small things I did get done: 

                two baptismal towels

                two pairs of pants

                one evening skirt

     

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    You saw the first pair of pants in my blog post of January 23rd.  I made a second pair, with minor alterations, which I like even better than the first although I am wearing both pairs regularly.  I think black will become a usefull basic, but not a dominant player in my wardrobe, even if it is filling that role now as I am rebuilding.  Surprisingly, to me at least, I am currently wearing my black not only with muted plums, but also  with taupes and muted cool browns.  In fact taupe might well have been the color of January for me (and I love taupe).

     

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    The evening skirt was a simple thing, really a first iteration of a long out-of-print pattern by Neue Mode, a now defunct (?) German company.   The fabric is a synthetic suede-cloth embossed with silver.  I intend to make another view of the same skirt in silk.  But this version itself is useful and works with a number of things in my closet, including the above cardigan, which I named "New Orleans" and knit in 2022.   The pattern is below. This skirt is view A.

     

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    I knitted steadily through January but didn't actually finish my current project, the Ausma shawl, much as I wished to.  As noted above, I have finished it now and you will be seeing that soon. 

     

    Iris histrioides

     

    As a final note, when I came home on January 31st, I saw that the first of the iris histrioides had bloomed.  It was a welcome reminder that spring is just around the corner.  The irises don't mind the chill and neither should we, they just batten down then lift their blooms up bravely.  More irises are blooming now.   Winter is always hard.  Spring always arrives….

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Favorite Books of 2023

    I want to get caught up with 2023 before January ends, which means there will be no review of the remaining books on last year's list.  Not that I am inclined toward toward such a task.   I do, however, want to think about my favorite novels, and so I shall.  

     

    I've always avoided the arbitrariness of best lists, but somehow now that is exactly what I wish to embrace.  This blog, after all, is extremely arbitrary, wrapped as it is in my choices, my thoughts, my interests.  

     

    In December a member of my book club proposed that we each think of our favorite book from the year.  It seemed that, for the most part, each of us chose a different book and I found the discussion fascinating.  My own favorite book was not the book I had initially chosen for book club discussion, so let's start this post there.

     

    Screen Shot 2024-01-30 at 8.22.03 AMSmall Things Like These, by Claire Keegan would have been on my "favorite books" list from 2022, had I made one.  But my book club read it in 2023, and it was my favorite book of our selections.   It is a book that holds up to subsequent readings, and reveals more of itself with each encounter.  But I don't think my thoughts have changed significantly since I reviewed it in 2022. (here).  I read this for both of my book clubs this year, and it would be my favorite selection from each, although since I had read it the previous year as well, I would only put it in fifth place among this year's favorites.

     

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    In position number 4 on my list would be Sheena Patel's novel I'm a Fan.  I thoroughly enjoyed reading this novel and I found it entertaining, challenging, and thought-provoking.  The story and the experiences of the protagonist are completely outside my experience, completely outside the possibility of anything I would consider.  Perhaps this is part of what elevates the novel because the protagonist is nothing like me and yet she becomes completely sympathetic and at times even understandable.  I feel like the author is helping me with insight into the inner world of a girl I would otherwise never bother to understand, who in a way lives in a world that is nothing like mine, even though it is the same world.  I would still read this again and, as I stated in my previous review, I would still love to discuss this book with someone else or perhaps even in a multi-generational small group.   I don't have much beyond that review to say, but ideas and images from that novel still arise regularly in my thoughts.

     

    Screen Shot 2024-01-29 at 4.03.00 PMNumber three on the list is completely different.  Although Patel's book is deeply artistic, intellectual, interior and polemical, Abraham Verghese's novel The Covenant of Water is a large, thoroughly enjoyable and engaging, family drama set among the Christian community in Kerala, India.   I read this twice, once in hardcover, and again listening to the audiobook on Audible, where it is narrated by the author.  Both formats are worthwhile.  This is the kind of novel that I can get lost in and am reluctant to put down, a book a friend once referred to as the kind of book you "read, read" meaning the kind of book in which she would completely lose herself in the story.  Here, this novel, yes.  

     

    All of Verghese's novels have some medical component, or at least all the novels I've read, and this no exception.  I find that the medicine is artfully woven into the warp and weft of the story, and that even the parts I don't care about, or the characters about whom I am initially doubtful, all become essential to the makeup of the fabric of the story.  This is a novel to savor.

     

    6F478D8F-F2DC-4062-B058-FE66432532B5And just like that I'm to number two, the runner up.  That would be This Other Eden by Paul Harding.  This novel was nominated for the Booker prize, and it did make the short list, but I didn't read it until after the winner was announced. (It did not win).  But I've already stated I wasn't somehow engaged in Booker-mania this year, and that is okay.  I did however thoroughly enjoy this book.  

     

    The novel is inspired by the true story of Malaga Island, which was once the home of a mixed-race fishing community, until the state of Maine evicted the residents.  But Harding has firmly held that although he was inspired by the true story, he has made no attempt to tell the specifics of that story. Instead we get a luminous story of well-drawn, all-too-human characters told in poetically mesmerizing prose.  Even though I knew how the story must end, I felt compelled to to dive further and further into this deeply haunting novel.   The story told is as much a story of a community, how they relate amongst themselves, as well as their position relative to the society as a whole.  At times allegorical, it is an exploration of humanity, wisdom, ignorance, power and loss.  The writing is fluid, imaginative, metaphorical.  Biblical references abound and this reader found them entertaining, but the author is not particularly heavy-handed about driving home lessons.  

     

    The character of Matthew Diamond, a retired schoolteacher who strives to help the residents of Apple Island,  while at the same time battling his own aversions to their mixed race heritage, is particularly compelling.  Diamond brought to mind both the work and the life of the theologian Karl Barth, even before I knew the author modeled Diamond in part on Barth.  

     

    There are also strong correlations to The Colony, by Audrey Magee, another novel about the incursion into and destruction of a unique and "lost" way of life, partially at the hands of well-meaning but misguided souls who only wish to "help".   The side story where young Ethan, sent away from the island, falls in love with Bridget, a young Irish serving girl, herself from a small isolated island community, seals both the link to Magee's novel and the universality of the themes that are playing out. This book satisfies both my love of a good story, and my intellectual leanings.  It is also a book that I am sure will reveal itself further with future readings.

     

    DE8C7278-A535-4084-8B06-69AFB23C3063Which leads me to my first choice,  The North Shore, by Ben Tufnell, a novel all about liminality and metamorphosis.  I do realize that this means it is not, perhaps, most people's cup of tea, but it is perfectly mine.    I am not certain that I have more to say about this novel above what I wrote in my previous review, here..  I found it an absolutely fascinating novel, a novel which I pick up occasionally to reread selected passages.   Just thinking about it makes me want to read it again, but I can admit that this is a novel in which I cannot separate the story from the intellectual process that it evokes.  It very much feels to me like a novel almost attempting to form its own metamorphosis, of blurring the boundaries between art, and life, word, experience, and how we know what we know.

     

     

  • Playing With My Food

    I've belonged to a cookbook club on Facebook for a few years now and I go through fits and starts concerning participating.  A friend, who also has a cookbook collection, reminded me that I could also just choose a book from my library and cook from it, and I might well do that.  But I've also learned new things from new cookbooks, even the ones that did not become permanent additions to the shelves. 

     

    In December I was mostly cooking from Cook, Eat, Repeat Nigella Lawson.  I'd owned the book for a while but hadn't gotten further than just reading it.  Lawson write well about food, and I've always been a person who can curl up with a good cookbook just as easily as I can curl up with a good novel.  Still, I found moving from imagination to reality and actually cooking. 

     

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    This dish, beet and feta spaghetti, was both beautiful and delicious.  Basically, the pasta is partially cooked in water and then finished in beet juice, which the pasta absorbs.   After cooking the noodles are tossed with feta and herbs. The texture reminds me very much of risotto and specifically of a beet risotto I made regularly from the 90's through 00's.  Same principle, in that beet juice was used as the cooking liquid.  I stopped making the risotto simply because risotto for one seems a bit much.  But I can easily see myself making this again, and enjoying it.

     

    Spaghetti with Chard

    Another pasta dish was this spaghetti with chard.  I used twice as much chard to noodle as the recipe specified, which is pretty much in character.  Since I love chard and usually either grow it or buy it every week, this could easily become a staple dish for those days when I just need to toss something together quickly.

     

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    I also cooked beef cheeks with port and chestnuts, a deeply satisfying winter dish, just the kind of thing I adore.  I was also on a bit of a freezer clean-out (still happening) and happened to have beef cheeks available.  The stew is rich and satisfying and, like most braises and stews, improves with age.  The chestnuts add a particularly nice textural dimension and flavor. Those beef cheeks had been in the freezer some time, and I was questioning whether or not they were something I would continue to want to cook.  Should I have even asked?  How silly.  All I needed to do was start cooking. Of course I want to cook beef cheeks and all manner of deeply browned braised meats.

     

    Celeriac

    Just before Christmas I made this celeriac gratin.  Celeriac is another vegetable that I adore and Lawson has a nice collection of celeriac recipes, all of which I want to try.  Unfortunately it took me until just before Christmas to find the celeriac, and truthfully I was despairing of its absence in the markets.  Even though I have been in Tennessee over ten years, occasionally, something like this happens, some vegetable I thought of as a common staple becomes hard to find and I despair.  Once I found celeriac however, my heart was filled with gladness. I tried this dish.  Much like a potato gratin, it is just as rich but somehow also lighter, perfect for a holiday meal.

     

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    Lawson opens the book with a great section on anchovies, and I could have spent the entire month just immersed in the ideas I found there, were they something simple, like marinated white anchovies on a biscuit with butter, or  anchovies scattered over eggs and a bowl of greens with a harissa dressing.  Spinach was suggested for the latter;  I used spigiarello, which has been abundant in my winter garden.  Now that the spigirarello has emerged from under the snow, I might be treating myself to this again tomorrow.

     

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    I also tried two new recipes from previous cookbooks:

     

    Coconut Creame Corn

    This recipe for corn creamed in coconut milk is from Andy Baraghani's book, The Cook You Want to Be, and I had wanted to make it since the book came up, but I was traveling a lot.  I made it with frozen corn, and I keep canned coconut milk in my pantry so this was pretty much a pantry side for me.  I might have said I was on the fence regarding this book, but of the four recipes I have cooked so far, three have been repeats that I thoroughly enjoy eating, so perhaps a success after all.

     

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    I also made this orange and radish salad from Paula Wolfert's book, The Food of Morocco, a book I've had a long time, and cooked from pretty regularly, but I had never made this particular salad before. I made it with those little oranges called "cuties" in the grocery store, and, since I've pretty much had a bag of them in my refrigerator all winter, as well as a steady supply of radishes, this salad has become a constant winter treat.