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  • Did we really think I’d stop reading? January Books

    As I was dithering, putting off writing this post, I picked up a book to begin my next read.  The Book is The Vulnerables, by Sigrid Nunez, and I found this quote on the first page:

     

    Only when I was young did I believe that it was important to remember what happened in every novel I read.  Now I know the truth:  what matters is what you experience while reading, the states of feeling that the story evokes, the questions that rise to your mind, rather than the fictional events described.   (page 3, paragraph 2, line 7)

     

    And so, in the beginning of a novel is a statement that completely encapsulates my approach to reading in general, particularly fiction, but I would argue that there is a corollary that relates to non-fiction as well.    Yes we read non-fiction for knowledge, but how we approach a chemistry text for example, should be different than how we approach history.  We are not empty pitchers waiting to be filled up only to disgorge the contents unfiltered.

     

    I read five books in January 2024:

    1.  Lord of Chaos, Robert Jordan.  Fantasy. Book 6 of the Wheel of Time series.
    2. The Fourth Turning: An American Prophesy,  William Strauss and Neil Howe.  Reread from the 1990s. American History, Sociology, Generation Theory.
    3. A Crown of Swords, Robert Jordan.  Fantasy, Book 7 of the Wheel of Time series.
    4. Generations: The History of America's Future1584-2069, William Strauss and Neil Howe.  Non-fiction. American History, Sociology, Generation Theory.
    5. The Vaster Wilds, Lauren Groff.  Literary. Themes include patriarchy, female autonomy, climate change, ecological degradation.

     

    In my mind they can be broken into two groups:  the first four, then the final one.

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    I started both Lord of Chaos and The Fourth Turning before the close of 2023.  They were both slow reads. Oddly, or so it seemed at first, they complemented each other.  But it is not really odd.  They both revolve around a cyclical view of time.

     

    I picked up The Fourth Turning, which I had read when it first came out in the 1990s, because I read somewhere that Neil Howe had come out with a new book, The Fourth Turning is Now.  I remembered reading the first book, and the general outline of Strauss and Howe's theory, and wondered whether or not I really needed a further explication of the theory as it relates to current events, or, if would be better just to reread the previous book.  I opted to reread before making a decision. Once I started The Fourth Turning, I thought I should read Strauss and Howe's previous book, Generations, and procured a copy.

     

    Both books discuss history, specifically American History, although in the second book they have expanded their timeline backwards to the Reformation in Europe.   Their premise, that history is shaped by generations and that these generations fall into a repeating pattern of approximately a four-generation cycle of 80 to 100 years, called a saeculum, is thought provoking and worth reading.  The idea of the spaeculum is not new, it goes at least as far back as classical Greece.  Nor is the idea of differences in generations or the idea that time and history are cyclical in nature new.  These ideas have a much longer hold on human thought than the relatively new idea that history and time are linear.  

     

    In general, people do react to the ideals and actions of the generation that came before them, every era has its own events and stories that shape its particular narrative, and much as many an older generation wishes the younger generations were more like themselves, this cannot be so. We all leave our marks on the culture in which we live, and the world in which our grandchildren live is not precisely the world in which we grew up.  This was as true in the past as now, although rapidity of change is much more marked at this point in time.   There are ages of heroism, ages of rebellion, ages of calm and peace.   Unfortunately the way the previous cycles played out grows dimmer the further removed we are from any particular time.   I am not saying that time or history is strictly cyclical, not in any sense of predeterministic, but I am also not saying that history is strictly linear either.  It seems to me we see what we need to see to survive and in this we see only a fragment of what is true.

    Strauss and Howe combine a view of history with sociology in describing social movements and the way ideas shape history.  Was this new at the time? I don't know.  I think both books are good, although the latter book trends a little more toward pop sociology than appears to be the case in the first book, Generations, seems more solid to me, even if a little dry.   In both books, the authors sometimes appear to take great pains to adapt the flow of historical events to their four-generation, four-season outline, and sometimes  they leave out events that I might have thought important.  I am not a historian, but my father was, and he drummed the idea of historicity into me from an early age.  I am also aware that the way we look at the past, the way anyone looks at the past, even a historian attempting to be objective, is shaped by his/her understandings of the world in which he or she lives.  There are facts, but we see them darkly.

     

    Anyway, reading these books along with the 6th and 7th volumes of The Wheel of Time was fascinating.  In once sense, the entire series, which takes place over the course of just a few short years, very much fits into the patterns of a crisis or "turning" as Strauss and Howe use the term.  Jordan also employs the idea of time as being a wheel, not repeating exactly, but themes and cycles that recur again and again.  He artfully weaves in "legends" that refer to events of our time, although so misconstrued and misremembered that they could be missed if one was not paying attention.

     

    In retrospect I think the first few volumes of The Wheel of Time were a sort of prologue, defining the world and its boundaries.  Now, in the middle of the cycle, I find myself fascinated by the world itself, the societies, the individuals, the complexity of this world that also seems all too familiar in its humanity.  Everyone sees the world through different lenses.  Everyone believes they are right.  Everyone, absolutely everyone, is wrong.  We have a group of young adults who are changing the world, but not so much changing it because they want to, but because they see circumstances that others do not, respond in ways others do not.  They too make mistakes.  Everyone, in trying to help, in trying to guide the future, compounds the crisis. 

     

    I find this fascinating because I see it play out all around me.  In global events.  In local politics.  In petty feuds and misunderstandings, some of which drive people apart because they can't let go of their own tiny piece of the world.  I am no better.  This is part of what it is to be human, although I still believe we have the option to attempt to reach beyond this, if we can.   This is what fantasy and science fiction do so well, they explore the everyday themes of human life, society, religion, in an abstract way that allows greater depth through distance.

     

    I will continue reading The Wheel of Time but I will also probably take a break when I finish my current book.  I feel no need to read Howe's newest iteration of his theory.  Even in The Fourth Turning, I thought the book was making missteps as it tried to apply a general theory to the specifics of what is happening today.  I still find the ideas fascinating and thought provoking.  Reading the books was time well spent.  The same for Jordan.  But that is about the extent of it. I'm not sure any of us can really understand the forces that govern our life while we are in the midst of living it.    

     

    And that takes me to my last book, which is a different thing altogether.

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    The Vaster Wilds, by Lauren Groff is definitely a literary novel.   The setting is roughly 1609-1610, Jamestown, but this is not specifically an historical novel even as it definitely references some of America's founding myths.  The story takes place over the course of a week or two, and revolves around the struggle of a young girl who has run away from the Jamestown settlement, who is pursued, and is sick and dying in the wilderness.  The scope is simultaneously very small and very grand.  The plot is minimal, and yet the story is compelling. I did not want to put it down.  

     

    To this reader, the novel explores many of the themes that were explored in Groff's last novel, Matrix: patriarchy, misogyny, loss of female autonomy, capitalism sometimes masquerading as evangelism, climate change, ecological degradation.  Yet where Matrix explored these issues in a very external way, through a fictionalized character  based roughly on Marie de France, in this novel the exploration is very internal, through the musings of a young unnamed girl.  Yet this story is also very internal to the experiences of a woman in any age.  That the girl has no name is important to the story, as is the fact that she is called by many names, none of which feel real even to herself.

     

    There are several things I like about the story and the structure of the story.  I like that Groff has intentionally chosen to write in a voice that is not modern, deliberately evoking the period.  And although our narrator is omniscient, and sometimes perhaps anachronistic in that between alternating sequences of dreams vs the reality of her plight, our young narrator explores issues of male sexual violence, discrimination both on the basis of sex and differences in religion/race, as well as the human need for possession and domination.  Groff bridges this gap well, with beautiful prose.  She also manages to make her protagonist not sound like a 21st century girl trapped in a 17th century setting, a problem I find rampantly annoying in many historical fictions.  In fact we don't know all that much about what 17th century women thought about all of these things, but I suspect their thoughts were not that different than ours even though their contexts and expectations would have differed wildly.

     

    I was particularly struck by the question of dominion vs domination and the way it plays out through the story. Although the author addresses this question head on in the middle of the book, as one reads, one realizes that the theme has been pervasive throughout the novel in the various relationships between the characters, both men and women, but also adults and children, englishmen (deliberately not capitalized in the novel) and native americans, humans and nature, even to some extent in the struggle between outer life and inner life, or the ego and the soul.    

     

    In this sense, I find the ending of the novel fascinating and necessary.  Our dying protagonist experiences a series of fever dreams in the moments before death in which she has survived and lived for some years, self-sufficient and yet lonely, in the wilderness. Through each iteration of her dream she makes a new realization about the meaning of life and what is truly important, another way of looking at dominion vs domination,  not just of the world, but of the way in which we are willing, or not willing, to embrace wisdom and who we truly are.  

     

    In this story of a nameless girl I found, in one sense at least, the story of humanity.  Life is filled with nameless people who lived brave, sad, honorable or terrible lives.  We do not know about most of them, but they are no less important to the world we know today just because they as individuals are forgotten.  The same is true for each of us, each of us embodies humanity.  Most of us will not be remembered a few generations from now, much less hundreds of years.  But each of our lives is valuable, each of us is valuable for the choices we make.   I may be reading a lot more into this book than the author intended but I am not sure whether or not that is the point. I continue to maintain that a book opens the opportunity to form a relationship with an idea.  Reading this book opened a conversation. Discussing this book with my book club, refined and shaped that conversation in new ways, as have my meandering thoughts since that date.  Definitely a book I will want to read again.

     

    I am going to conclude this post with a quote from near the end of the novel, during the prologue to the period of fever dreams, as much because I love the wording, as because it captures both the sweep of awareness of grace as the acceptance of peace to come. 

     

    And in the air, now, she had a single bright flare, a vision that extended her life vastly beyond this moment of her dying, both in the greater sweep and in the smaller grains.

                                                                       page 233, paragraph 5

     

     

  • Hello Ausma

    Let me introduce you to Ausma!

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    The pattern is Ausma by Inese Sang and is knitted using A Verb For Keeping Warm's yarn, Reliquary II. The yarn is lace weight, 80% merino, 20% silk.  

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    During 2020 – 2022, and even into 2023, I belonged to several mystery yarn and knitting clubs. I joined in order to support favorite vendors during what was a difficult time.  I wanted to do my little part.  I didn't actually manage to knit everything I received during that period, but I have no regrets.  This was one of the club offerings I received from A Verb for Keeping Warm, and although I adored the pattern, I was initially less  than thrilled with the colors of the yarns.    I did not re-up my membership in the shawl club, but not because I regretted anything about the club.  In fact participation in these clubs has converted me into a knitter of shawls.  I don't think I will ever give them up, even though sweater-knitting remains my first love.  However, I prefer to have more control over what I actually acquire and make.  When I was younger I would make something just to try a technique, to learn something new.  Now I only want to make what I love.  I feel no need to be on trend. I feel no need to be the first.   I want to knit not just for the joy of knitting, but for the joy found in the finished object.

     

    Back to Ausma.

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    This is basically a warm neutral shawl.  But my coloring is basically soft and cool.  Beige has never been my color.  The base color, Santolina is a beige.  It is a fairly neutral beige, but it is not a taupe.  As I knit this I have made a valiant effort at convincing myself that I can wear this shawl with taupe, and you might think so as well from the photo below. 

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    But you would be mistaken.  In this photo, in low bedroom light, on a black background the shawl looks beautiful with my silver/taupe evening skirt.  And it would probably work in an evening situation.  But, in bright sunlight, in florescent light, or anywhere the lighting is warm or glaring, the difference in the colors becomes markedly incongruous.  The skirt looks more silver/taupe, and the shawl quite yellow in comparison.  It would not flatter the skirt; it would not flatter my skin. I do not have a photo to show you, so you will have to trust me on this.

     

    The contrast color, Paloma, is definitely warm.  The Santolina tones it down in the interior puffed rib panels, but the outer border is definitely warm soft pumpkin color.   

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    Despite this, I have no regrets.  I loved knitting the shawl.  I have already purchased more of the same yarn, Reliquary II,  in shades that will work for me with the intention of knitting another Ausma, one that will see plenty of wear.   I do not regret the purchase.  I do not regret the time spent knitting.    As I have been writing this post however, I have also realized that I feel no need to hold on to Ausma now that she has been finished.  It is time to release her into the world.    She has already been donated to a worthy cause, and hopefully she will make someone very happy.  That thought makes me very happy.

     

     

     

     

  • January in Review

    I am a little late getting to this post, but I suppose a day late is better than not at all at this point.  Yesterday was a busy morning with outside obligations, and my higher priority, even higher than writing you, was to finish knitting Ausma and get it blocked.  I succeeded in meeting that goal, but not with enough time or mental acuity to write.  

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    The biggest event of January was the Martin Luther King Day snow.  I got 12 inches in my yard, give or take a fraction, and I think the official tally finally came in at 11 3/4 inches.  The particular combination of a large snowfall, followed by a week where the temperatures did not rise above freezing was a truly rare event for this city,  but I loved being home without interruption.  There is always more than enough that I can do, more than enough than I want to do.  In fact I don't really understand how people who don't read and/or have hobbies that keep them busy with their hands and minds function.  My street was finally plowed on January 22nd, by which time the temperature had risen above freezing, and if I hadn't needed coffee, I might not have gone out on the 23rd.    Of course I did have to go out after that, normal life resumed, but if anything I am reminded that for me it is the outside world that is the distraction and, often, the intrusion.  Something worth thinking about.

     

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    When the snow melted I saw that the winter garden had been perfectly comfortable under its winter blanket of snow.  The remains of the bok choy bed looked perfectly happy.  Of the two varieties of broccoli raab,  one looked a little worse for wear, but had survived, and the other appeared unscathed.  Haruki turnips, arugula, cabbage and various kales were fine.

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    I thought the purple kale and the cilantro looked perfectly lovely together.   I hadn't been certain about the parsley, but it was thriving and after 3 days had new green leaves.  Unfortunately some desperate critter dug it up after that and I salvaged the remnants.  Only the Mexican oregano died, but truthfully I had expected it to die months ago, so it was no real  loss.

     

    I also kept the path to the studio open during the bad weather, and although I did not spend that week sewing, or at least not exclusively, I am happy that I got several things finished in January.  Life is not measured by our accomplishments, and yet, I am happy with those small things I did get done: 

                two baptismal towels

                two pairs of pants

                one evening skirt

     

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    You saw the first pair of pants in my blog post of January 23rd.  I made a second pair, with minor alterations, which I like even better than the first although I am wearing both pairs regularly.  I think black will become a usefull basic, but not a dominant player in my wardrobe, even if it is filling that role now as I am rebuilding.  Surprisingly, to me at least, I am currently wearing my black not only with muted plums, but also  with taupes and muted cool browns.  In fact taupe might well have been the color of January for me (and I love taupe).

     

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    The evening skirt was a simple thing, really a first iteration of a long out-of-print pattern by Neue Mode, a now defunct (?) German company.   The fabric is a synthetic suede-cloth embossed with silver.  I intend to make another view of the same skirt in silk.  But this version itself is useful and works with a number of things in my closet, including the above cardigan, which I named "New Orleans" and knit in 2022.   The pattern is below. This skirt is view A.

     

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    I knitted steadily through January but didn't actually finish my current project, the Ausma shawl, much as I wished to.  As noted above, I have finished it now and you will be seeing that soon. 

     

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    As a final note, when I came home on January 31st, I saw that the first of the iris histrioides had bloomed.  It was a welcome reminder that spring is just around the corner.  The irises don't mind the chill and neither should we, they just batten down then lift their blooms up bravely.  More irises are blooming now.   Winter is always hard.  Spring always arrives….

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Favorite Books of 2023

    I want to get caught up with 2023 before January ends, which means there will be no review of the remaining books on last year's list.  Not that I am inclined toward toward such a task.   I do, however, want to think about my favorite novels, and so I shall.  

     

    I've always avoided the arbitrariness of best lists, but somehow now that is exactly what I wish to embrace.  This blog, after all, is extremely arbitrary, wrapped as it is in my choices, my thoughts, my interests.  

     

    In December a member of my book club proposed that we each think of our favorite book from the year.  It seemed that, for the most part, each of us chose a different book and I found the discussion fascinating.  My own favorite book was not the book I had initially chosen for book club discussion, so let's start this post there.

     

    Screen Shot 2024-01-30 at 8.22.03 AMSmall Things Like These, by Claire Keegan would have been on my "favorite books" list from 2022, had I made one.  But my book club read it in 2023, and it was my favorite book of our selections.   It is a book that holds up to subsequent readings, and reveals more of itself with each encounter.  But I don't think my thoughts have changed significantly since I reviewed it in 2022. (here).  I read this for both of my book clubs this year, and it would be my favorite selection from each, although since I had read it the previous year as well, I would only put it in fifth place among this year's favorites.

     

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    In position number 4 on my list would be Sheena Patel's novel I'm a Fan.  I thoroughly enjoyed reading this novel and I found it entertaining, challenging, and thought-provoking.  The story and the experiences of the protagonist are completely outside my experience, completely outside the possibility of anything I would consider.  Perhaps this is part of what elevates the novel because the protagonist is nothing like me and yet she becomes completely sympathetic and at times even understandable.  I feel like the author is helping me with insight into the inner world of a girl I would otherwise never bother to understand, who in a way lives in a world that is nothing like mine, even though it is the same world.  I would still read this again and, as I stated in my previous review, I would still love to discuss this book with someone else or perhaps even in a multi-generational small group.   I don't have much beyond that review to say, but ideas and images from that novel still arise regularly in my thoughts.

     

    Screen Shot 2024-01-29 at 4.03.00 PMNumber three on the list is completely different.  Although Patel's book is deeply artistic, intellectual, interior and polemical, Abraham Verghese's novel The Covenant of Water is a large, thoroughly enjoyable and engaging, family drama set among the Christian community in Kerala, India.   I read this twice, once in hardcover, and again listening to the audiobook on Audible, where it is narrated by the author.  Both formats are worthwhile.  This is the kind of novel that I can get lost in and am reluctant to put down, a book a friend once referred to as the kind of book you "read, read" meaning the kind of book in which she would completely lose herself in the story.  Here, this novel, yes.  

     

    All of Verghese's novels have some medical component, or at least all the novels I've read, and this no exception.  I find that the medicine is artfully woven into the warp and weft of the story, and that even the parts I don't care about, or the characters about whom I am initially doubtful, all become essential to the makeup of the fabric of the story.  This is a novel to savor.

     

    6F478D8F-F2DC-4062-B058-FE66432532B5And just like that I'm to number two, the runner up.  That would be This Other Eden by Paul Harding.  This novel was nominated for the Booker prize, and it did make the short list, but I didn't read it until after the winner was announced. (It did not win).  But I've already stated I wasn't somehow engaged in Booker-mania this year, and that is okay.  I did however thoroughly enjoy this book.  

     

    The novel is inspired by the true story of Malaga Island, which was once the home of a mixed-race fishing community, until the state of Maine evicted the residents.  But Harding has firmly held that although he was inspired by the true story, he has made no attempt to tell the specifics of that story. Instead we get a luminous story of well-drawn, all-too-human characters told in poetically mesmerizing prose.  Even though I knew how the story must end, I felt compelled to to dive further and further into this deeply haunting novel.   The story told is as much a story of a community, how they relate amongst themselves, as well as their position relative to the society as a whole.  At times allegorical, it is an exploration of humanity, wisdom, ignorance, power and loss.  The writing is fluid, imaginative, metaphorical.  Biblical references abound and this reader found them entertaining, but the author is not particularly heavy-handed about driving home lessons.  

     

    The character of Matthew Diamond, a retired schoolteacher who strives to help the residents of Apple Island,  while at the same time battling his own aversions to their mixed race heritage, is particularly compelling.  Diamond brought to mind both the work and the life of the theologian Karl Barth, even before I knew the author modeled Diamond in part on Barth.  

     

    There are also strong correlations to The Colony, by Audrey Magee, another novel about the incursion into and destruction of a unique and "lost" way of life, partially at the hands of well-meaning but misguided souls who only wish to "help".   The side story where young Ethan, sent away from the island, falls in love with Bridget, a young Irish serving girl, herself from a small isolated island community, seals both the link to Magee's novel and the universality of the themes that are playing out. This book satisfies both my love of a good story, and my intellectual leanings.  It is also a book that I am sure will reveal itself further with future readings.

     

    DE8C7278-A535-4084-8B06-69AFB23C3063Which leads me to my first choice,  The North Shore, by Ben Tufnell, a novel all about liminality and metamorphosis.  I do realize that this means it is not, perhaps, most people's cup of tea, but it is perfectly mine.    I am not certain that I have more to say about this novel above what I wrote in my previous review, here..  I found it an absolutely fascinating novel, a novel which I pick up occasionally to reread selected passages.   Just thinking about it makes me want to read it again, but I can admit that this is a novel in which I cannot separate the story from the intellectual process that it evokes.  It very much feels to me like a novel almost attempting to form its own metamorphosis, of blurring the boundaries between art, and life, word, experience, and how we know what we know.

     

     

  • Playing With My Food

    I've belonged to a cookbook club on Facebook for a few years now and I go through fits and starts concerning participating.  A friend, who also has a cookbook collection, reminded me that I could also just choose a book from my library and cook from it, and I might well do that.  But I've also learned new things from new cookbooks, even the ones that did not become permanent additions to the shelves. 

     

    In December I was mostly cooking from Cook, Eat, Repeat Nigella Lawson.  I'd owned the book for a while but hadn't gotten further than just reading it.  Lawson write well about food, and I've always been a person who can curl up with a good cookbook just as easily as I can curl up with a good novel.  Still, I found moving from imagination to reality and actually cooking. 

     

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    This dish, beet and feta spaghetti, was both beautiful and delicious.  Basically, the pasta is partially cooked in water and then finished in beet juice, which the pasta absorbs.   After cooking the noodles are tossed with feta and herbs. The texture reminds me very much of risotto and specifically of a beet risotto I made regularly from the 90's through 00's.  Same principle, in that beet juice was used as the cooking liquid.  I stopped making the risotto simply because risotto for one seems a bit much.  But I can easily see myself making this again, and enjoying it.

     

    Spaghetti with Chard

    Another pasta dish was this spaghetti with chard.  I used twice as much chard to noodle as the recipe specified, which is pretty much in character.  Since I love chard and usually either grow it or buy it every week, this could easily become a staple dish for those days when I just need to toss something together quickly.

     

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    I also cooked beef cheeks with port and chestnuts, a deeply satisfying winter dish, just the kind of thing I adore.  I was also on a bit of a freezer clean-out (still happening) and happened to have beef cheeks available.  The stew is rich and satisfying and, like most braises and stews, improves with age.  The chestnuts add a particularly nice textural dimension and flavor. Those beef cheeks had been in the freezer some time, and I was questioning whether or not they were something I would continue to want to cook.  Should I have even asked?  How silly.  All I needed to do was start cooking. Of course I want to cook beef cheeks and all manner of deeply browned braised meats.

     

    Celeriac

    Just before Christmas I made this celeriac gratin.  Celeriac is another vegetable that I adore and Lawson has a nice collection of celeriac recipes, all of which I want to try.  Unfortunately it took me until just before Christmas to find the celeriac, and truthfully I was despairing of its absence in the markets.  Even though I have been in Tennessee over ten years, occasionally, something like this happens, some vegetable I thought of as a common staple becomes hard to find and I despair.  Once I found celeriac however, my heart was filled with gladness. I tried this dish.  Much like a potato gratin, it is just as rich but somehow also lighter, perfect for a holiday meal.

     

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    Lawson opens the book with a great section on anchovies, and I could have spent the entire month just immersed in the ideas I found there, were they something simple, like marinated white anchovies on a biscuit with butter, or  anchovies scattered over eggs and a bowl of greens with a harissa dressing.  Spinach was suggested for the latter;  I used spigiarello, which has been abundant in my winter garden.  Now that the spigirarello has emerged from under the snow, I might be treating myself to this again tomorrow.

     

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    I also tried two new recipes from previous cookbooks:

     

    Coconut Creame Corn

    This recipe for corn creamed in coconut milk is from Andy Baraghani's book, The Cook You Want to Be, and I had wanted to make it since the book came up, but I was traveling a lot.  I made it with frozen corn, and I keep canned coconut milk in my pantry so this was pretty much a pantry side for me.  I might have said I was on the fence regarding this book, but of the four recipes I have cooked so far, three have been repeats that I thoroughly enjoy eating, so perhaps a success after all.

     

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    I also made this orange and radish salad from Paula Wolfert's book, The Food of Morocco, a book I've had a long time, and cooked from pretty regularly, but I had never made this particular salad before. I made it with those little oranges called "cuties" in the grocery store, and, since I've pretty much had a bag of them in my refrigerator all winter, as well as a steady supply of radishes, this salad has become a constant winter treat. 

     

     

     

  • No Orphans

    Despite my intention of making no resolutions or posting goals for 2024, a theme has evolved.  How it plays out is yet to be determined, but I am fine with themes.  Last year's theme was nesting, and the process of nesting yielded many discoveries and a growing sense of comfort within the always evolving themes of where I am in this particular stage of my life.

     

    These year's theme seems to be revolving around the idea of "no orphans".  It started as an impromptu idea that I simply didn't want to make things that had no place in my wardrobe, that were orphans.  That means no sweaters that don't really go with anything or have a place in my wardrobe, no clothes I would never wear.  it also apparently means that I need to assess the items I currently own, locate garments that have fallen out of favor, and perhaps find new partners for them.  

     

    This is all started with those black pants that I posted about a little over a week ago now.  As I hemmed those pants, and later, the first time I wore them, I reflected on where they fit in my closet and from there to what I things I needed in my closet anyway.

     

    Before making the black pants my winter basics included a couple of skirts for dressing up, two pairs of jeans, and a variety of cardigans and jackets that went with none of the above.  In short the black pants were well needed.

     

    Black Tops

     I have a small collection of black tops to wear with them, black tops that give me a basic column to wear under sweaters and jackets of various colors.  What you see in the picture, from left to right, are two black tees, one black turtleneck, a silky black tank/shell, and a silk blouse with ruffled collar.  Between them I am probably set for most of my needs.  I could perhaps use a long sleeve black tee or sweater, preferably in a merino wool or cashmere, but I am not likely to knit that, and it will not get as much wear as the other, so it can wait until the perfect something turns up.    

     

    The second tee, a. Uniqlo crewneck, is a couple of years old and obviously faded.  it needs to be replaced.  I don't have appropriate black fabric in my stash for a lightweight tee and I like the first tee very much, as it is lightweight, cool in the summer and works as a base layer under winter sweaters.  At roughly $14 from Amazon, it makes more sense just to buy a another copy of that tee.    

     

    The silky tank was my mom's, purchased at a time when she had dropped some weight, and later passed to me.  It fits, and fills a hole, but it is polyester, which means it is hot in the summer and cold in the winter.  I need to replace it with silk, something I can do, and would prefer to do.  I do miss the little silk tees and tanks I used to knock out by the dozen.

     

    I could probably use a black skirt.  I used to have one, and it was endlessly useful, so that gets added to the list. 

     

    What I do not have are any black third layers:  a jacket or a cardigan, and these might also be worthwhile additions to my wardrobe.  Black is still not my best color, but psychologically I have never been able to wean myself away.  There are times I just feel comfortable in black.  A black jacket would allow me to wear colored tees, tops, or sweaters under a jacket, still creating a unified column.  I will likely not knit a fine gauge black cardigan , so that is something else to be on the lookout for.  And since I think a black jacket would be useful, but I am not as interested in putting time into making a beautifully tailored jacket in black, or investing in a beautifully made specimen, I would look for something simpler, and perhaps more causal. I could make something like either of the patterns show below out of black ponte, of which I currently have a good supply in stash as I bought it on sale for pattern testing.

    905 fitted jacket

    Metra

     

     

    I made the CJ patterns jacket years ago (decades?) out of cotton/lycra and wore it out.  It was a great travel jacket that saw heavy wear.  

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    I recently purchased the second jacket pattern, Metra Jacket from Love Notions, forgetting I had the CJ patterns jacket, thinking it would be a good project to make with my ponte, and would be a great wardrobe basic to upgrade a casual "at home" outfit to something more polished for running errands etc.

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Whatever I decide, the black pants are already proving useful, useful enough that I am going to make a second  pair.  This will give me one "core basic set" that I can fall back on while I  work my way through my closet and making other garments.  Although I might be tempted by other things, I need to focus on basics for a bit before branching out to the fun stuff.

     

    Black1

    In the meantime however, in the spirit of no orphans, let me show you how the black core is already working with this year's theme.  Here I am wearing the black pants with the black turtleneck and an alpaca shrug I knitted in 2007 and have kept.  I actually haven't worn the shrug in a few years as the garments that worked with it previously are no longer in my closet.  I find that,  to be comfortable, I need a belt at the waist to balance the shrug.  These high waisted pants give me the opportunity of belting, something I have not had for a few years, and which I miss.  A simple dress with a belt or waist detail would also work.    The shrug doesn't get a lot of wear, but there are days each winter where it is appropriate.  I expect to be wearing it more.

    DebbieBlissNoro

    Another "oldie but goodie" that has popped out of the closet is this thick cabled sweater knit in 2001 from a Debbie Bliss pattern using Noro Kureyon.  I've kept the sweater even though there are some winters in Knoxville where it hasn't been worn.  Mostly I've worn it with jeans, but this winter I don't like the look of this sweater with the cut of my current jeans.  The black pants however, work and the combination makes me happy.  This past week, when Knoxville has been covered in snow and beset with freezing weather, I have felt very cozy and warm in this sweater. Below is a not very good picture of me in the sweater, unmade bed and all.  Mastering the art of the self may not be high on my goal list.

    BlackNoro

    So where does that leave me now?

    Basic black pants and black tops are ready to wear with a variety of sweaters and jackets .

    Two previously orphaned sweaters have found new companions.

    Needs:

    • 1 new short sleeve tee:  32 degrees cool, ordered from Amazon
    • Another pair of black ponte pants, cut high in the waist.
    • A black ponte skirt
    • A black ponte jacket, particular style still to be determined.
    • Replace black polyester tank with silk tank and/or silk tee for warmer weather.
    • A black winter-weight cardigan, possibly cashmere, probably to be purchased, but this might change.
    • A black summer-weight linen cardigan.  Again probably not hand knit but you never know.  I long ago learned never to say never. I do have a black and brown marled wool and linen cardigan in my closet that might serve here.  To be determined.
    • If I stick with the idea of a black core, a black summer skirt, and summer pants would also be useful.
    • A black summer dress has long been on the list for the inevitable summer funerals.

    It looks like a plan.

     

    This is not the only plan.  I am also currently planning and working on an evening capsule.  More on that later.

  • Yes There are Still Book Posts

    There are so many things I want to write about, and yet there are also things that I fell behind on during my sabbatical.  I know I should just let them go, but I can't quite do that.  I hope to continue to write at least one, and hopefully two posts most weeks, but I also worry that if I keep writing catch-up posts, I will remain constantly behind.  Perhaps I will throw in an extra post or two, perhaps not.  I haven't gotten that far yet.  I can admit that I harbor a certain fear that if I write extra posts now, I might run out of things to say later.  

     

    OutliveIt just so happened that I was at lunch with some friends last weekend when the conversation drifted into a discussion of a recent popular health book, a book that I had read at the beginning of September.  The Book is Outlive by Peter Attia and it was a good discussion, a discussion that helped to clarify my thoughts on the book, which is good because they have been decidedly mixed.

     

    First of all, I am a subscriber to Peter Attia's podcast, The Drive and it is probably the most worthwhile podcast I listen to regularly.   I love the depth of information and I am one of those subscribers who will follow up on the links to research, who loves delving into the science.    Attia notes in the acknowledgements section of the book that  "my then publisher said my draft was too technical and lacked any sense of me as a person" leading him to revise and expand his initial draft.  I am a person who would probably have loved that first, too technical, version.  I don't find a great deal in this book that is new to anyone who keeps up with the research, or listens to and follows up on the information available on The Drive.  I also find the lack of foot notes annoying.  There are notes in the back of the book, and they are well worth following up on, but they are not specifically referenced in the text.  Perhaps this too was a "publishing decision".  I don't know.

     

    Despite these quibbles, and they are quibbles, I am glad I read this book and I think more people should read it.  There is a lot of valuable material here and it is presented in a clear and relatable manner.  I am sure there are people whose reactions run the gamut of extremes concerning this book; any book that promotes thinking in new ways invites those responses..  I think the author did an admirable job and I appreciate the effort involved, especially in terms of telling his personal story.  On that note I wish the mental health story had come earlier in the book, if only because the discussion on mindset, of being fixed in one place versus being open to new ideas, is critical to the book as a whole and I am not convinced all readers will get there.

     

    Basically Attia is writing about health span, the  years we live doing the things that we want to do, versus lifespan, the actual years of our life.  It is an important discussion, as is the author's breakdown of the development of the history of healthcare and his advocating for something called "Healthcare 3.0".  I do believe this is a great idea, and although Attia makes a noble effort, I don't think he fully escapes from a lifetime of being trained in Healthcare 2.0.  But he does make us think and that is the true importance of this book.  Recommended. I'm glad I read it, but I don't think it earned a permanent space on my shelves.  I will however keep subscribing to Attia's podcast.

     

    Since I've started with non-fiction, let's keep this post in that arena.

     

    ScarcityIn October I read Michael Easter's Scarcity Brain.  This book, in many ways, was more thought-provoking for me, although I can't say that the information it contained was specifically new.  Easter made me think about things I knew, on the periphery at least, in new ways and discussed cultural trends that I actually hadn't spent enough time thinking about.  Easter is basically writing about addictive behaviors, how we develop them and how to overcome them.  In the process he also talks about how we have built a society that revolves around scarcity and accumulation and and uses research into brain neuroscience to drive us to want more.  I found it fascinating but not profoundly life changing.  The cover of the book appears to make this seem like a self-help book and I'm not convinced it actually works on that level. Nonetheless, I found the book interesting and entertaining, and I have been more overtly aware of the way everything, from news cycles to grocery store layouts, is designed to feed a scarcity impulse and to consider my behavior accordingly.

     

    BoatPerhaps my favorite non-fiction book of the fall was Jonathan Gornall's memoir How to Build a Boat.  It is not a perfect book by any means, and there can be many given parts of it that are too much for any one reader, but I found it insightful and charming.  Basically Mr. Gornall is writing about how, upon becoming a father again at 59, he decided to build a clinker-style dinghy for his newborn daughter.  There is a great deal about boat building, a great deal about sailing, and an exploration of Gornall's own troubled family history both in terms of his childhood but also his previous foray into parenthood.   Embarking on a parenthood he desperately wanted, filled with fears of not leaving this child the legacy of his upbringing, he embarks on a job far outside his skill set.  Being a writer and a person who thinks far too much about things in general, he goes on and on about his process, about his doubts, about his fears.  This is something that endears him to me.  Is this not how most of us end up embarking on all the journeys that prove to be the most important to us?  I found this book charming and completely satisfying.  On top of all that,  it has a happy ending.

     

    Two other books:

    John Phillip Newell's Sacred Earth, Sacred Soul  was a book I wanted to love but ultimately didn't.  There were a lot of things that appeal to me and can't really explain it.  I very much agree with Newell's thesis about caring for the earth and the soul. Also much as I may agree with his thesis, I found his interpretation and research somewhat faulty.  I was cheering when Newell brought up the disagreements that have occurred throughout Christian thought, and the decisions that have been made that have steered the faith in a particular direction and yet at the same time I felt the book lacked a certain historicity that I felt oversimplified many ideas.  I can't say that it is just because I disagreed with the ideas in the book, because there are many books I love even if I disagree highly with the ideas, but those books all lead me to think about issues more deeply or look at ideas in new ways and this somehow did not.   In fact I think that was what I struggled with here.  I did not find new insights and I felt the information was overly simplified.  I did attend a talk with the author, and I do think he would be a fascinating person to talk with, even if the book did not delight me.

     

    And last, but not at all least, I raced through  The Courage to Face Covid-19, John Leake's book about Dr. Peter McCullough, a doctor I greatly admire for standing up for his beliefs.  The book is infuriating and incredibly sad; it reads like a thriller, which is not surprising as Leake is a true-crime reporter.  The book is about how a staid, mainstream, highly regarded and well-respected researcher and physician found himself on the wrong side of a wall, becomingo a renegade against the establishment, his career practically destroyed.   All this because he was trying to help patients that wanted his help.    I don't really care where you stand in the politics of Covid, since most of what we are all told is politics and has nothing to do with science, this is a gripping book and there is a lot here that should make everyone uncomfortable. When did we become a world where politics and money is more important that human lives, and human choice?  No matter what side of any argument you find yourself on, the one thing I do know is that no one is 100% right or 100% wrong.   When we allow ourselves to forget human lives and human dignity, when we sacrifice people over principles or politics, we have lost our humanity.

     

     

     

     

  • 2023 Projects in Review (picture heavy post)

    I am happy with my sewing and knitting progress throughout 2023.  I finished 11 knitted garments, I embroidered quite a few baptismal towels although I don't remember the exact count.  Perhaps I should keep track of that.  And I sewed three garments that I have kept and wear, one garment that I wore a few times and donated, and a few things I just trashed.  I don't regret that.  In retrospect I realize that my heart wasn't really in it at the time.  Chalk failures up to learning experiences and move on.

     

    Many of these garments were posted to the blog, but not all of them.  Besides, I like having them all combined in one place. 

    BlueDress

    In January I finished a wrap dress that was supposed to be finished in December.  I wore it three times but never felt quite like myself in it.  

     

    I was happy with the construction of the dress, especially the way I had matched the small print at the back of the neckband, perfectly centered and then curving away symmetrically, a detail no one would ever notice but me.  I was less happy with the fit in that the front bodice was slightly shorter than I was actually comfortable wearing.  This had been a design decision, deciding that raising the waist was a more flattering silhouette, but in terms of comfort, we raised it too high.  I had enough fabric remaining to recut the bodice, and I considering doing just that, but a wise friend reminded me that although recutting the bodice would fix the fit, it would not affect the style disconnect I felt wearing the dress. The dress was donated.  

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    Aside from a couple of baptismal towels, there was a bit of a lull, in terms of completions, until the daily temperature blanket I had been knitting for 2023 was finally completed on March 1.   I almost immediately started a baby blanket for my first great-grand-neice even though I was pretty darn close to being "blanketed out" by that point.  But still, babies….

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    April brought more baptismal towels, and several works in progress,  

     

    MayAside from the baby blanket, above, three other, fairly quick, projects were finished in May.  Two were accessories.  The socks were knit from yarn I received as a Christmas gift, and the brioche headband was a beginner brioche project begun at a knitting retreat.

     

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    I also finished the first of several tees or tops. This one, Anise, was knit from a cotton/rayon/silk blend yarn from Noro.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    At this point I started another long project, a simple but large rectangular shawl in a lace weight silk.  That was finished in early July.  

     

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    Faster projects followed;

    CapeManzamo2

    Another Noro tee was finished in August.

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    The tee was followed by an airy little linen cardigan in early September, 

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    and another tee by the end of the month.

    Sandstone2

    Another tee was finished in October.  This yarn came from deep stash, purchased at a store that has long since closed.  The colors make this suitable for wear throughout the fall, and into spring.  

    Vilora

    October saw me reentering the sewing room for more than baptismal towels (although I did make three of those in October and early November.)   I finished this skirt, out of a stretch faux suede, which I have since worn several times and somehow always failed to take a picture.  The pattern is by VikiSews.

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    And by the very end of November, I finished my last knitted object of 2023, another cotton shell/vest.  This was a Rowan Pattern and I assembled it, and wore it the first time while traveling in Texas over Thanksgiving weekend.  The photo above was taken on Christmas Eve.

    ApricotSleeve

     

    In early December I finished a dress I had started in November, before my travels, and finished later.  (Posted to the blog in December as well.). I also made a simple scarf/shawl, made from putting two pieces of chiffon together, one a peach that was somewhat too orange, and the other a pink that leaned a little to close to bubble-gum in hue.  I like the combination of the two colors and together they make something wearable for me.  Besides, pink and orange has always been one of my favorite color combinations.

     

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  • Here a tweak, there a tweak

    I've been sewing.    

     

    I need clothes.  I can buy clothes.  But somehow last year I didn't want to buy clothes.  Yet I've been more successful in making summer clothes and remiss about winter clothes.  I also have a fair number of dressy casual to dressy specialty pieces, and am short on basics.  Something had to change.

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    I realized that in terms of every day wear that could be dressed up or down, I was wearing one of two pairs of jeans, or a pair dark gray ponte pants that are probably at least 6 or 7 years old.  I like the lines of the pants and they mostly work if I wear a long top over them, as seen here.  The fitting issues are mostly above the legs.  They bag a bit in the seat, the front crotch is too long, and too deep; the back crotch seam is too short.  They pants are meant to be just below the waist and they are faced, without a waistband.  I do not like the way the facing is sewn in, and the pants do skew as I wear them (torso portion only) but that is not unusual for me in pants.  You would not know any of this to look at me.

     

    The plan was to make one or two pairs of black pants, then to take these pants apart and add length to the center back, using the facing piece then applying a new facing using the black ponte.  The pants originally had a side zipper, but that was removed when the pants were cut down in size two years ago.   I never used the zipper anyway as the pants are stretchy enough to pull on and off, and I do not like really tight clothes.

     

    First up:  Pattern.   I have patterns for darted faced pants much like these, but they are all cut for non-stretch woven fabrics, with wider legs.  I have a muslin I fitted with friends 4 years ago (?) which is now too big but is a good starting point.  That was traced from a pair of Nick and Zoe pants I loved, but which had the same issue with being cut too long in front and too short in back.  And I found these two patterns in my stash, both of which are similar cuts to the Nick and Zoe pants (which I no longer own).

     

    Beth

    Style Arc Beth, which I purchased not that long ago because I had forgotten that I had also purchased Style Arc Sage (below).   Looking at both patterns now, I think that Beth may be a better option for me because of the waistband.  But I may experiment with both patterns as I move into making spring pants simply because I like pattern play.

    Sage

     

    I pulled out both patterns and compared them to my fitted muslin, ultimately deciding to put them aside for now as I really wanted something simpler with straight lines, a high waist and a waist band.  Enter this pattern from Simplicity, which I bought on a whim a couple of years ago while I was flipping through patter catalogs at Joann while my mom shopped.  I thought it would make a perfect, simple wardrobe for working at home and dog walking but nice enough to go out.  I still think that.

     

    Simplicity

    I next compared my fitted muslin (from a few years ago, but which I knew fit through the crotch curve) to the tracing of the gray ponte pants and the simplicity pattern.    They gray ponte pants were very close to the simplicity pattern, the main difference being that the legs were straighter and hence slightly wider at the hem than the gray pants.  I decided to go with the simplicity pattern.  

     

    Pantpattern

    I traced the simplicity/gray ponte pattern on to paper (green) and then traced the pant muslin pattern from a couple of years ago over the top of it to compare (pink).  This is one of the back pieces.  On the fitted muslin, the right and left pieces are different.  The simplicity is symmetrical and I simply flipped the pattern.

     

    From all this, I cut a new pattern.  Is it sewing yet?  Well, yes, it is part of the process, and I've learned I love the math and the pattern process as much as the actual construction.

     

    At this point everything went together well and I tried on my first pair of pants.  They fit mostly well through the hips, but the legs biased.  This is not unusual.  I rarely get much visible bias on new RTW pants, meaning the legs hang straight, but the torso part of the pant strains and biases around my body.  It has always been this way, and I admit that when I was young I didn't know any better.  I do miss loosely cut wide pleated pants from the 80s and 90s because they hung from the waistband, and there was often enough fabric that the biasing effect was not as evident.  There is a lesson for me in that.

    Skew

    I marked, very roughly with chalk, where the side seams on the legs "should" have been. Not an easy task while wearing the pants, and then cut those pieces off, moved the seams to the appropriate locations and cut a new pair of pants.  This is not quite as straightforward as it sounds because the basic geometry of pants still applies.  The waistband has to be parallel to the floor.  The hems as well, and the side seams running perpendicular to the floor, visually.  But the legs of the pants are now skewed in relationship to the torso, or is it the other way around.  This was more noticeable on the front pattern pieces than the back, which is not surprising from what I know of my own scoliosis and body torsion.  This meant that I needed to redraw the grainlines, and I took my time with this to be sure I did it correctly.  This also explains why I almost always need more fabric to cut pants than is recommended in the pattern guidelines.

     

    Success!  The next pair of pants worked.  Center front, back and side seams were all in their proper places.  The pants hung straight without skewing.  I was really tired the next day (Thursday) however and did not finish the pants. 

     

    Yesterday I was determined to attach the waistband, hem the pants and cut and sew a second pair.  I didn't.   But I don't consider that a failure.  Once I put the waistband on the pants, I noticed a few small fitting glitches that I thought could be tweaked for better fit.  Once accomplished, those changes could be transferred to the pattern for the next pair of pants.  But it was dinner time, and I know that I do not need to be cutting, sewing, or serging in the evening, especially working in tight spaces of partially constructed garments.  I decided I would finish the pants this morning, and did so.

     

    I still have to hem the pants, but I am very happy with them.  They are not perfect, but I don't need perfect.  They are better than what I have been wearing.  I also learned a lot about fit and geometry and comfort.  

     

    I think I will cut the next pair narrower through the leg, more like the cut on the gray pants.  The second pair will be much faster to construct because most of the pattern work is done, but there may still be small tweaks simply because I am using different fabric.  

     

    Pant sewing is not likely to happen today (except for those hems).  I have a baptismal towel to embroider and hem. But I think I gained far more than just a pair of pants in this process.   I'm sure there will be ups and downs over the course of the year and I hope to share them all with you.   Mostly, today, I am just happy and excited for future projects.

  • A Quick Jaunt to New York, Part Two

    Apologies up front for the delay in this post.

     

    And now onto the actual reason for my trip.

     

    I met a friend, and we went to hear this concert.  I was looking forward to hearing the pianist, who plays beautifully, and I am fairly familiar with the Glass Piano Quintet, which I have heard live a few Times now, as well as on its recorded version with Brooklyn Rider.  I was not familiar with the other two works, although I am aware that there is a recent recording of Paul Barnes performing the Victoria Bond work, Illuminations on Byzantine chant.  I did not research or listen to the two works I did not know.  I kind of like to go in to concerts blind and see how I react to the music.  Perhaps not sophisticated, or educated, but this is how it is.

     

    Barnes

     

    The concert was held at St Nicholas Greek Orthodox Church and shrine, at the World Trade Center, which I would have assumed was glass, but actually it is marble.  As with the music, I didn't read about the church before going either.   Perhaps I should have, perhaps not.  I am often torn when traveling about the need to do research and learn what I "should" see, hear, think or do, and my own contrarian nature, my determination to be guided loosely, but to see what I see and learn what I learn.  I am certain there are gains and losses involved in both approaches.  Anyway, below is my photograph of the church as we arrived for the concert.  I thought it was an interestingly beautiful structure, both sublime and yet also, in certain lights, or in its absence, quiet and almost strict and subdued. I am sure there is more to think on there.

     

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    The space was small, and there were many chairs.  This photograph is of the piano, and the interior of the church from my seat on the front row. 

     

    Piano

     

    As you might surmise, we were very close to the music.  This was an excellent position for the two solo piano pieces. Paul Barnes, plays beautifully and is one of my favorite pianists.  Watching and listening to him is a feast, both aurally and visually.  I swear even his hands, his fingers, express emotion as they play.  The experience is mesmerizing and entrancing.  

     

    Of the two piano pieces, the work by J.A.C. Redford was the one that moved me the most, filled with a deep emotionality that felt simultaneously both calming and uplifting. This listener felt enveloped in a sense of a deep slowing breath, with momentary bursts of awe.  

     

    This is where you are lucky.  When I first started writing this post, I wished I could hear it again,  wished I could tell you more about the work itself, but it remained elusive.  However, during the time this post was delayed due to my post-holiday bout with illness, Paul Barnes released a video of  the performance of this work, a performance I can link to here. (below).

     

     

     

    I still enjoy listening to this piece. I don't know that I was familiar at all with Redford, except that when I looked him up following the concert I learned that I am in fact familiar with a surprising amount of his music, although not enough.  I will need to seek his work out.

     

    Now, because I am being fair, I will also include a link to a video of a portion of the Victoria Bond.  This was also a lovely work, and I do recall thinking how well Bond writes for the piano, how much I wanted to play part of the work, to feel the music beneath my fingers, even though I have not played for decades and do not play well.  I found the work intellectually interesting, and at times even exciting. For this listener however, the Bond piece satisfied intellectually, but resonated less deeply on an emotional level.  Still, it was a satisfying pairing,  two pieces of music, both addressing issues of faith, that appealed to very different parts of what it means to be human.

     

     

     

    For the Phillip Glass Annunciation Quintet, the string quartet was sandwiched between the piano and the first row of chairs.   I was sitting in almost knee to knee in proximity to violinist Pauline Kim and it was a marvelous experience.  Being this close to the musicians did not offer the best position for hearing the work itself as a whole, as much of the sound essentially lifted above us, but the structure of the entire piece was present and it gave a detailed experience of one part of the conversation that made up the music.  I could read both violinist's music, I could hear both violinists clearly and relate what I saw of their music to their technique and the sound as a part of the whole.  It was like being contained in a bubble inside the work itself. The performance was fascinating and engrossing and intimate in a way I hadn't yet experienced in a concert, and quartet music is, by its very nature, intimate.  This was very different from my previous experience of the Glass Quintet.  I was blown away, fascinated and enchanted by the performance, the playing of the group as a whole yes, but particularly the violinist as I felt encased in a subset of the world being created musically.  I've always felt that the best chamber music is always a closely held conversation.  This felt much like being caught in the midst of the music itself.  

     

    Admittedly it took me a good while just to integrate my experience of the concert with some kind of return to "real life".  I was kind of lost in a kind of interspace for the rest of the evening.  We attended a lovely dinner with the artists.  I'm never the most social with people I have just met, really preferring to listen and I loved listening to everyone around me.  But I was also still in my musical cloud as well.    Not that I see any loss in that.  The entire evening was a fabulous experience.