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  • A new use for a favorite vase perhaps?

    What is this?

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    Knitting?  Is it finished?

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    What is it?  A shawl with armholes?

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    Ah yes, a vest.

    The pattern is  Weekend Wrap by Julie Weisenberger.

    I knit it using 1 strand each of Ritratto by Stacy Charles and Kid Seta by Trendsetter.  The yarn was purchased in Boulder in June, with plans to knit something else entirely.  Then I saw this pattern and knew exactly how I wanted to make it.  Voila.  Love.  I'm sure the remaining Ritratto and Kid Seta will become part of something else equally fabulous. In the meantime, I am eagerly awaiting weather cool enough to actually wear my new vest.

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    In fact, now I want to knit the same pattern in something less fuzzy, like a crunchy habu silk or perhaps linen.

     

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  • 3 books

    Since my early summer escapist reading binge, I really have not been reading much but I did manage to read a couple of really good new novels. Make that three good novels, but only two of them could be considered new. Oddly enough they share a common thread, although was not intentional in my selection of them; it was just the way things worked out

     

    Back in July I read The Time it Takes to Fall by Margaret Lazarus Dean after reading a profile of the author in a local paper. Truthfully, had I come at the novel from any other approach, I might have passed it by. I was rather bored with coming of age novels and the challenger disaster itself, although I can see how it may have been a seminal event for a generation younger than myself, would not necessarily have attracted me as an interesting subject. But Ms. Dean makes it work, mixing snippets of fact with the story in a way that highlights tthe personality and struggles of this girl as she makes her way from the innocent hopefullness of childhood to the more murky waters of adulthood. In the end, the author managed to use the space program and the Challenger explosion as a framework around which to build a story, an event which was simultaneously incidental in that the story was really about a girl growing up and learning her own path, and central in the way that the space program in general and the Challenger explosion in particular, provided a framework on which to build one's growing perceptions of the world outside one's own narrow sphere.

     

    Then, last week, I got a note from the local library that The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker was finally mine to read and I plowed through it the afternoon that I picked it up from the library. Like Dean's novel, it uses a seminal event to provide the underlying structure of the story, but in this case the seminal event is not something that has actually happened but a hypothetical future event. Also, this novel is smaller in scope even though the actual event is much greater in consequence. I think this smaller tighter frame of reference makes the book easier in some ways, and it is consistently engaging.  The book is narrated, at some time in the future by Julia, who is looking back on the year she turned 11, the "year of the slowing" the year, the year the earth's diurnal cycle changed and slowed.  That she is narrating the story tells us that the world did not end, and it also tells us that the focus of the story is not really this, the slowing of the earth, but the story of Julia trying to understand who that 11 year old girl was, and how this change in everything affected who she would become.  In that sense it is not a fully realized coming of age story, but a story of someone looking back, trying to find some lost key that connects what was to what becomes. In that sense the story is slow and small in scope. It is not a story of what is happening to the earth, it is the story of what is happening to Julia. It is the story of how an 11 year old girl faces the unravelling of the world around her as if in slow motion.  It is the story of memory, told not truly from the perspective of the girl, but not truly from the perspective of her adult self either, more from the perspective of the adult self reflecting back upon her memories of that time.  I believe that the narrow focus is the strength of this novel, a reminder that although life and history can be shaped by grand events and themes that are beyond the control of the individual, it is lived in the smaller field of the immediate and the personal.

     

    My favorite book of the three however was The Time In Between by Maria Dueñas. I loved this book.  It is a wonderful story, well told, with of course special interest for anyone who is interested in clothes and fabric and sewing.  It is  a gripping story set in a time a place and time defined by turmoil, but it is also a story of growth and finding one's own strength and purpose in life. Dueñas masterfully blends historical reality with the completely fictional story of Sira and ties it all together seamlessly in a rather gripping read. 

     It is not a coming of age story. The protagonist, Sira, is physically an adult, although her potential remains unrealized. And yet it is a story of a young woman growing and learning to take responsibility and control of her own fate.    In the beginning of the novel Sira seems to be particularly vapid, self-absorbed, shallow and uninteresting, someone whom one could easily dismiss. The young Sira makes terrible mistakes, mistakes that seem obvious to the reader, and make Sira seem oblivious and unsympathetic. One realizes, however, if one perseveres, that Sira herself, through the circumstances of her upbringing and the characters of the particular people who surround her in her youth, has just drifted through youth, unchallenged and untutored.  I ended up forgiving her her mistakes, realizing that she truly was naive in the truest sense, existing in the world but really with no cognizance of it, and her parents, although probably doing the best they are capable of, do nothing to help or guide her, sending her on her way with vague admonitions as if sense and caution are innate and not learned, assuming that docility and good behavior imply understanding, or perhaps not even recognizing that Sira herself is capable of making leaps unrecognized by her parents. Sira does learn to rely on herself.  She finds she is strong and resourceful, and eventually she learns confidence in her own strength, her own judgement, and she takes control of her life on her own terms.  Oddly enough, or really not so oddly when you think of it, others initially see her as having more control than she herself feels, and she lets them use her until she realizes that she is stronger and more competent than she has realized.  Sira eventually recognizes her own strength and realizes that she must seize control of her own fate, or forever let others control her.  

     

    I felt the conclusion of The Time In Between was completely satisfying although in terms of the historical story it could have gone on for a while longer. But this wasn't really the story of Spain, the Civil War, and World War II; it was the story of Siri Quiroga  and the time in between the innocence of youth and the adult realization that, no matter how little we control the events of the world, we control our own role in that world. I could read it again.

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Fly Away

    A sweater was knitted.

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    It was barely finished before it flew the nest.

     

    I purchased the yarn in Chicago in May, luscious silk and mohair by Shibui.  I had a vision of a sweater in my head, a vision that did not quite materialize.  The error was completely mine, a miscalculation compounded by a refusal to acknowledge my own growing dissatisfaction as I continued to knit.

     

    The resulting sweater however is quite lovely in and of itself even if it was not what I wanted.

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    Luckily, I've never not found a home for a handknit sweater, and this one found a lovely recipient as I was tidying up the edges one day, a young womon whom it suits far better than I .

     

    I know what I did wrong.  I know how to make the sweater I want.  I found the same yarns in a different color.  Perhaps even a better color. Perhaps it was meant to be.   The new version will come along after a few other projects are cleared out of the wings.

     

  • Well Hello There

    Hello blog.  I haven't forgotten you.  I have thought about you.  But alas I seem to have a problem making that transition from intention to execution.  I hereby announce that I intend to work on this very problem, even I just type drivel until I get my blogging legs back.

     

    So here I am.

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    In between writing my last two posts I was working on redoing two closets in the new house, transforming them from the standard single pole, single shelf  basic builder's closet into something more useful.  I redid the guest closet and got piles of boxes off the guest room closet floor, and turning the guest room into a comforting and welcome place just a day before my step son and his wife arrived for a week.  Don't worry the guest room is still nice.  I am intentionally not turning it into a storage center but keeping it as a guest room.  We will have house guests again in a little over a week, and I look forward to many more visits from family and, hopefully, friends in the future.  

     

    The closet shown above is actually in my office, which can also double as an extra guest room should the need arise, although it has less available space for the guests to actually unpack.  You can see my new purple purse on the shelf a little to the left of the basket drawers.

     

    It tickled my fancy that I happened to be installing the closets just as I was reading Eric Abrahamson's book, A Perfect Mess.  Truthfully I had already ordered the closet materials when I picked up the book, and although I am a firm believer in organization, I am not one who thinks that everything should be neat and tidy.  Well, truthfully sometimes I walk a fine line.  I do like things put away neatly.  And I admit that all my spices are in identical jars, neatly labeled, although I don't particularly worry about the labels being neatly lined up.  I like spontenaity.  I've learned that a bit of mess is more productive than a sterile environment but at the same time, I tend to think that if the underlying architecture of a system, whatever it is, has some structure to it, some organization, then everything can go crazy for a while without the whole system falling apart.  I've also learned that worrying about doing everything and organizing everything and scheduling everything is just another face of fear, a way to close a door, a way to justify not tackling some particular challenge for fear of losing or getting hurt, a way of building walls.

     

    Or that is what I tell myself.  I am sure this is just another one of my personal myths,  the stories that we as humans tell ourselves to get through our days.  But I'm not quite ready to give up my personal myths yet.  

     

    Anyway the book is good.  It is interesting.  It is not going to tell you how to organize your life.  Nor is it going to tell you that total disorganization is the greatest things since sliced bread.  Abrahamson might say that disorganization may be more efficient than hyperorganization, but then again it may not.  Either way it is an interesting read and lead this reader to think about when organization has worked and when it has failed, sometimes in interesting and spectacular ways.

     

    Otherwise, since all that building and fretting I wrote about before I have been busy entertaining, and recovering from sinuses or a cold or a whatever-it-may-be-dragginess-congestion-and-intermittent-fever thing.   I would sit down with G to watch the Olympics only to wake him from a deep slumber and bring his caregiver running in from the next room when I would fall asleep and my head would fall back against the wall with a resounding thud. 

     

    I am better now.  And I am more determined to try to pick up the little threads of my interests and activites and knit them into something more coherent.

  • Happiness is a Purple Tote

    The coach bag arrived and I have kept it.

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    Honestly, my initial reactions were mixed.  I adore the color.  It is the perfect size: big enough to carry everything that I might need, especially when I am running around with G, but not so large that I feel like I am leaving for the weekend.  On the downside, I am not thrilled with the chains on the handle or the metallic logo.  My red Coach bag was more subtle.  But they aren't that bad, and the chain straps will wear better than the straps on my old red bag which started to crack and fray almost immediately.

     

    This tote is not as elegant as the Akris Ai bag I posted last week, which I still love for its sleek elegance. But that bag speaks to some inner fantasy me, the one who carries sleek bags and dresses in Akris and Chado Ralph Rucci with a few  pieces by Dries thrown in for fun.  That me doesn't really exist and I am not sure she ever would really exist, she is just a piece of the puzzle that is me.  Besides, that bag doesn't really fit my actual life, whereas this new Coach bag does.  It can easily go everywhere I might go.

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    Besides the color is perfect.  It works well with the marjority of my Soft Summer palette.  And I have been steadily building my wardrobe in my colors.  Not every piece I buy or wear is actually in my palette, but it all works with my palette, it blends or coordinates in a way I find harmonious. I have found that this feeling of harmony makes me happy.  I am no longer fighting with my various images of myself, they can all fit in one package.  Apparently part of the trick is finding the right package, even if that means abandoning a few of those shiboleths that were drummed into my psyche from an early age.  You know the ones I mean, the things your parents and grandparents told you, either in words or actions and reactions.  Among mine were: "Our kind of people don't….wear polka dots, or purple, or drive yellow cars".  I'm sure yours were totally different.  But in the end what does it matter? We each have to live with our own truth and inhabit our own lives.  My truth apparently includes pretty colors and purple handbags.

     

  • Paradigm Shift

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    Sometimes something happens, nothing really, just a small thing, but your world seems different. If you are lucky your world seems brighter.  More likely it feels like everything is crashing down around you.  You are upset.  You may put on a brave face.  But then, unexpectedly, when you find yourself alone, you cry. 

     

    Somewhere in there you see that nothing has really changed.  The world goes on just as it did before.  Dinner still needs to be made.  Dishes need to be washed.  Teeth must be brushed.  Pretty toenails still make you smile. All that has changed is your perception.  Maybe there were just some things you didn't want to see.  We all live with our illusions.  We all live with expectation.  It is easy to think that if we do all the right things it will all work out in the end. Our expectations and illusions are like a mirror, showing us the world only as it reflects our own thoughts and assumptions.  Sometimes the mirror needs to be shattered.

     

    Last week was not such a good week.  I'm not ready to discuss it, but it is there, that paradigm shift. Truthfully nothing is new, I was just forced to look at things differently.  I did not take it particularly well. We humans are fallible that way sometimes. And yet it is possible that being forced to see things differently is actually good. Perhaps seeing how things are rather than how you want them to be is also good.  

     

    Objectively I would have to say that things are better this week than they were last week, and the changes made were all for the good.  That doesn't belittle the process, make it less painful, or make it easier to accept.  Finding the path to acceptance seems to be one of the harder lessons of life.

     

    I'm still working on that one.  

     

     

  • It Started with a Purple Purse, or Inspiration Tuesday

    The Coach bag has been ordered, but it has not yet arrived.  Before I found that bag, I saw this one, which, aside from being outside of my budget, was either too large or too small.

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    However, it lead me to the Akris website, where I saw many interesting things, most specifically this coat in double faced cashmere.  I adore it.  I also recognize that it is probably much too bright.

     

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    A few days later, after I ordered the Coach bag, I went back to look at the Akris website.  Somehow, I hadn't looked at the fall collections in February, perhaps because I was moving in to my new house at that time.  I was perfectly happy to retreat indoors, avoiding the 100 degree plus heat, and dream of cool weather and cashmere.  

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    I am particularly taken with the use of color and texture in this collection, sometimes subtle, sometimes not, but really quite sophisticated in its colors and materials, including double faced cashmere, silk, horsehair, and leather.

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    I adore this dress.

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    I assume the dress shown under this short coat is similar to the green one.  This is a much better shade of purple for me to wear, not that I will be ordering any Akris this fall.

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    The colors are used with subtlety and restraint.  The materials also enhance the design.  This is definitely sophisticated color-blocking for grown-ups.

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    I'll share a couple of more photos.

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    The critics were not happy with the fit of the pants.

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    The critics may be correct about the fit, I was not at the shows, but there is something elegant about the ease.  The remind me of the feel of luxury and movement that I saw in the Yves Saint Laurent exhibit, and yet they are thoroughly modern. 

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    All other photos from the Akris website.

  • Yves Saint Laurent: A highly personal review

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    It has been exactly two weeks since I saw the Yves Saint Laurent Retrospective at the Denver Art Museum and I am still trying to assimilate it all in my mind.  When I walked out of the exhibit, over 2 1/2 hours after walking in, I was completely overwhelmed.  When asked about my five favorite garments my mind went blank.  I couldn't imagine any garments at that point, just details and fabrics, beading, seaming, incredible workmanship. I felt like I had been cramming for an exam, trying to fit a lifetime's worth of inspiration into a short intense period of time.  I wanted to remember everything, and although I did want to remember the garments themselves, those are available as photographs in the book.  It was the details I wanted to absorb, the things that made the garments special, the things you can never quite tell from a photograph: the weight, hand and crispness of the fabric, the details of the workmanship.  All I can say is that this exhibit was completely awe-inspiring to the point of being overwhelming.

     

    I am still working on the remembering.  Luckily I took notes and bought the catalog.  Both are necessary because the catalog, although fabulous, does not necessarily highlight the things I wished to remember, but it is chock full of information.

     

    I did have a few complaints.  The lighting could have been better arranged. I do appreciate the difficulty of preserving fabric, but there were garments that simply were not visible do to the dim-almost-unto-blackness lighting.  The wall devoted "le smoking" suffered the same fate as well, and although many people seeing the show at the same time as I loved it, I found it disappointing.  But perhaps I was looking for more detail, and a bit more discussion of the development of the idea.  I was looking at the exhibit through the eyes of a person who sews and is interested in the details of fashion and clothing, and for the most part, this is not the intended audience for this show.  There were also some issues with fabric terminology, but then again, I quibble, and they did not diminish the overwhelming joy I experienced at seeing this show.

     

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    And the show was very good.  There were over 200 garments in the show and one was able to get very close to a large number of them, close enough to inspect and admire, close enough to see seams and actual stitches.  Close enough to be inspired.

     

    There were many details I wish I could share but I cannot adequate photos to post here: 

    A blouse with lovely trim that looked for all the world like a suede fringe dipping below the jacket until you looked closely and saw that it was loops of silk, hand overcast along the edges.  

    Spectacular and meticulous matching of plaids on stripes, with every single seam looking perfectly planned and executed while still being fitted and flattering to a female form.  

    A simple tunic with a yoke and cut-on sleeves, cut just so that the grainline ran down the sleeve and created a slight bias at the yoke, gently pulling open the neckline slit just enough to show a hint of the collarbone and caress the shoulders.

     

    There were many pants that were soft and feminine, cut with generous pleats and soft gathers over the curves of the hips.  They were not tight and the pants were loose, in lightweight materials that flowed, but they were not wide by today's standards for wide pants.  The pleats almost always faced inwards, and were quite generous, laying flat at the waist, and yet allowing room for movement without accentuating curves.  I think sometimes we forget how flattering fabric can be when allowed to drape and flow. 

     

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    The show reminded me how much of what we as women take for granted in our clothing today, we actually owe to Yves Saint Laurent.  And it reminded me of the perfection of simplicity, quality, and attention to detail.  Many of the clothes were apparently simple but actually only masterfully conceived to appear simple, to flatter, and not necessarily to draw attention to themselves, although some most certainly did.

     

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    The use of unusual materials in simple shapes

     

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    Blending materials traditionally used for day and evening, or using materials out of their traditional context. 

     

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    Even simple and icon dresses, such as this Mondrian dress have much to say.  The dress is pieced, and although it was widely photographed and instantly recognizable, the book states that it was the "least worn".  What I find remarkable is how simple and chic it is, and how well it fits.  I am sure that some of those apparently vertical lines hide shaping and darts, as the dress flatters the figure and the geometry is an illusion.  Today Ralph Rucci is the master of hiding shaping in decorative seaming, granted to a much more subtle effect than this particular dress.  But the Mondrian dress itself still as much to say, much to teach us about art and illusion, fit and flattery, if we are willing to listen.

     

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    These dresses all took my breath away.  Yes some of them are more wearable than others.  All of them are filled with imagination, and beautifully executed.  The piecing of the fabric is done with skill so that it does not destroy the hand of the fabric. But it is the next to the last skirt that haunts my mind.  Yes, we've seen the image before, the leaves inspired by Matisse's cut outs.  Many have copied this idea.  I've even seen knitted sweaters with this pattern, although I think it is a les effective interpretation than in this silk tafetta skirt shown here.  Yves Saint Laurent wrote of the movement of the skirt giving the effect of fluttering leaves moving around the wearer.  I can imagine that, along with the scroop of the silk echoing the rustle of falling leaves as one walks in the woods on an autumn day.  

     

    The idea of rustling, floating leaves still haunts my dreams.  I wonder where my imaginations will lead.

     

     

    evening dresses courtesy of fashionista.com

    tuxedos courtesy of fashionista.com

    three dresses courtesy of fashionista.com

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    beaded cardigan, chiffon blouse, flannel pants, photo scanned from YSL, the book

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    evening dresses courtesy of fashionista.com

     

  • Hello 54

    Today is my birthday and this is what 54 looks like.

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    Even though there are those who fear we have sacrificed interpersonal relationships for an impersonal wireless connectivity, I have to admit that the happy little gurgles and chirps of my phone as friends and acquaintances near and far send birthday wishes brings a smile to my face and makes my feet skip with joy.  Thank you all.

     

    IMG_7377I am wearing my favorite tunic top, purchased this summer even though it is too bright and not really my colors. It is, however, happy and summery and wearing it makes me smile.  It also goes with my old red espadrilles, which are also not the right shade of red, IMG_7468and my red patent Coach tote which must be at least 8 years old by now. It too is the wrong shade of red and it doesn't really go with anything else unless I wear black, which isn't my best color either.  

     

    The red bag does "pop" against some of the dusty lavenders in my wardrobe, and although I take consolation in that fact, I find that I am increasingly interested avoiding sharp contrast.  Well, perhaps with the exception of today's outfit. 

     

    Screen Shot 2012-07-05 at 3.02.03 PMI recently stumbled across this newer version of the Coach tote however and am now considering replacing the red bag with this new one. The color looks good on my monitor, but it may be something completely different in person.  Hoping to see the actual bag, I called a local store that sells Coach, and after a difficult conversation concerning the model and the color   (Madison in aubergine), I was told "no purple purse".  

     

    At first I quibbled, telling myself I don't really need a new purse and that the red isn't really that bad.  But I managed to convince myself only until I took the photo shown above.  As so often happens with me, I can see in a photograph what I cannot see in real life, namely the thing stripped of my personal associations and baggage.  It really is the wrong shade of red.  I might be buying a new purple handbag after all.

     

    I hope the rest of your day is as lovely as mine!

     

    purple Coach handbag at coach.com.

  • Happy 4th of July

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    I love the 4th of July.  I love the parades and the fireworks, the campfires, fired up grills, and the happy spirit of people gathered in town squares and lawns.  Fourth of July always makes me think of what brought this country together and what makes us great.  

     

    On the Fourth of July it seems that all our bickering should be put aside and we should just celebrate how lucky we are, or at least have a piece of pie, some icecream, or a snow cone.

     

    I'm off to see the bicycle parade.

     

    Hope you have a lovely 4th!

     

    illustration courtesy of the City of Knoxville