Otherwise the beginnings of 2009 have been devoted to getting back on a schedule.  I like being able to be open to inspiration, but I also like a plan and a schedule and am much happier when things run in a particular order.  There is a certain amount of security and satisfaction in knowing "if it is Monday I should be doing X".  I can always throw the schedule out the window for a treat, but at least I know everything is getting done and I rest a little more easily in that knowledge.  Of course, when DH was not well, the schedule was abandoned and everything revolved around him and I was always fretting that there was something I wasn't getting to.   By putting the controllable part of life on a schedule I am much freer to enjoy the unexpected upsets and fully follow creative inspirations in my free time without some little nagging voice grumbling in the back of my brain.

This week's free time has so far been devoted to re-acquainting myself with my closet and it has been a glorious time indeed.  Suddenly I have been able to see the potential in things that I have fretted over for years.  Combinations seem to be cropping up willy nilly and I am thrilled to discover them.  There are also clothes that fit and even look good, but don't somehow look like "me".    I am just amazed that my long absence has resulted in this kind of focus on what works and what does not.

One advantage to not sorting through the closet and only having a few clothes available during the fall was that I have learned that a few perfect things are far better than a closet full of  things that are lovely but not quite right.   My goal is no longer to have lots and lots of clothes but to have those things that work and I love wearing.  I am sure, if I keep sewing, the lots and lots thing will occur anyway.  In the meantime I want to think about what I make and what I  buy and be certain that it works.

That sounds far grander than the reality, I am sure.