Category: tools

  • Farewell to a project

    Where does the time go?  I would have said that I did not knit for a few days but in retrospect it was probably more likely a couple of weeks.  My fingers got more tingly and painful not less.  I suppose that was to be expected with the last chemo, cumulative misery and all that.  At least I am getting better now, and there is knitting in my hands.

     

    So, as you can surmise, there is not yet much to report.  Not even one sleeve has yet been finished for the Raspberry Confection cardigan, although I had such great hopes.

    Tool Bag

    Let me then distract you with other things.  On the good news front, I have a new bag for my knitting tools.  It is a little bigger than the bag I was using before, which will prove useful.  I love it in all its felted sheepy goodness.

     

    And then there is a disappointment; that is perhaps the bigger news.

    Dissapointing Sunset

    Say farewell to the summer sunset sweater.   I finished this last December.  It was never really worn.  Don't ask me why I didn't wear it in the spring, I have no answer.  I only know that I attempted to wear it last week and my efforts were met with disappointment

     

    In retrospect looking at the finished measurements of the sweater, I probably should have made the smallest size, (I made the medium) but I doubt it would have made much difference in terms of my disappointment level, it still would have been far too large, the small would have 10 inches of positive ease.    At that time I knit this, I was 30 pounds heavier than I am now, and even though the medium was oversized, it did not have 10" of positive ease, even though there is more than that now.  Currently I feel like a child playing dress up in her mother's closet.

     

    I do realize that in the small photo inset, I am wearing the top with wide cropped chinos, which may not be the best look.  I thought of trying it with narrow pants and a turtleneck, in hopes for future wear, but the results were no more promising. 

     

    I realize however now, that although I do not mind sweaters with positive ease, and like a long skimming columnar look; I am not fond of sweaters that are boxy and oversized through the shoulders.  This project was probably doomed to failure from the beginning.  I would have been happier with a sweater in a slightly different shape, perhaps fitted through the shoulders, with a short sleeve. It could be boxy below the armscye.  But somehow my understanding of this aspect of my sense of style, of what I am comfortable wearing, did not click until recently. I struggled with why some sweaters got constant wear and others languished.  Although some part of me knew the problem, it still didn't really click in my head.  There is something about the purging of the chaff of life that brings clarity.

     

    The question now is whether I am going to simply give this sweater away as is or unravel it.  I thoroughly enjoyed knitting it, and have no regrets on that front.  I will not reknit this sweater in a smaller size, but I could use the yarn for another project.  Or will I?  Perhaps it is sometimes best to let the adventures of the past remain there, in the past and move on.  

    Back to The Future 3

    I am somewhat concerned that some more recently finished sweaters will also be too big.   I am 20 pounds lighter than I was when I finished the Back to the Future cardigan in June.  Abigail, shown above however, is closer to my current weight and the cardigan is looser on her than it was on me. My weight has been stable the last three weeks, neither up nor down, but I am still in treatment, and I would like to lose another 5 pounds, maybe 15, but only at whatever rate I can manage in order to keep it off.  I will also be happy to stay where I am now, which still may require more re-knitting than I am prepared to accept today.  In a month or more the idea may well have settled in. Although every old and beloved sweater in my closet will not be ripped, I will rip out that lovely cashmere and reknit Back to the Future. I want to wear this cardigan, and I suppose it is a good thing that I have given myself time to accommodate myself to that particular future development.

  • Three

    I am knitting away on my cardigan, but 'tis rapidly coming into the season where temptation looms.  Fall knitting books and magazines are starting to appear, along with knit-alongs, and dreams of cooler fall weather.  Admittedly that last bit is wishful thinking; I live in a place where the reality of autumnal chill seems far far away.  Or maybe it is just as simple as the idea that the fact of knitting begets dreams of more knitting.

     

    First Up: I have finished the back of the Sweet Confection cardigan, which I have named Raspberry Confection on Ravelry.  Does. the name matter?  I don't know.  Years ago, I used to create individual categories for each project but years ago I either knit more or wrote more about what I was knitting.  Anyway, it is something I am thinking about.  

     

     

    SweetConfection1

     

    I have finished the back and blocked it.  Not surprisingly, as I was a bit worried about gauge due to the changing levels of pain and neuropathy in my hands. As I knit,  I noticed that as my neuropathy lessened and my fingers became looser, the feel of the yarn on the needles felt less tight.  As my fingers became looser so did my knitting.  My stitch gauge remained mostly on point but my row gauge reverted to my normal form, meaning my stitches grew longer.  Hence the body of the sweater is about 2 inches longer than I had planned for it to be.  

     

    As I approached the shaping for the armscye however, my fingers were becoming increasingly painful and knitting became slower, with fewer rows knit at any one time. My knitting was tightening up again as well, and much of the area above the armscye shaping, is knit more tightly, on average closer to the anticipated gauge determined during swatching.  This is good, because I do not like deep armholes in my sweater unless the sweater as a whole is meant to be oversized; nor do I really want to rip it all back.

     

    I am still thinking what this means for knitting the fronts.  At the moment my fingers are a bit looser, and this should continue until a day or two after my last chemo infusion next week.  I am inclined to think I should knit the two front pieces simultaneously to insure that the gauge matches on each piece, and work from there.  I. will have to be cognizant of how the yarn feels on the needles, and there may well be some adjusting on the fly. I will let you know how it goes.

     

    Multi-Hook

     

    Secondly: a handy little gift has earned permanent place in my knitting tool kit.  The boye crochet multi-hook arrived with a package of knitting yarn and pattern swatches.  Four sizes of hook are included, and although it would not be useful for extensive crochet, it is useful for picking up the occasional dropped stitch, or small bits of crochet here and there.  I seem to have an extensive collection of crochet hooks, which is surprising for a woman who intensely dislikes crocheting. Whenever I find myself needing a crochet hook however,  I never have the correct size in my knitting bag.  This should solve that problem. I don't know that this handy little tool will do anything in terms of allowing me to reduce my hook inventory, as it is awkward for all but the simplest of repairs, but it is bound to see lots of use.

     

    PomPomRoots

     

    And last, but far from least, a couple of knitting magazines have crossed my door.  The Autumn 2021 Pom Pom Quarterly actually came a few weeks ago now. It may well have been the prompt that kicked off my autumnal knitting dreams.   In fact the entire magazine acted much the way the Sears Christmas catalog did when I was a child — sparking fantasies of brisk autumnal days, walks in the woods, cozy sweaters.  In short it is more a book of dreams than anything practical for my local climate.  It had me reminiscing about my former home, about warm fires and all the good things about winter, especially thick cozy sweaters.

     

    POMPOM

     

    There is some part of me wanted to knit every sweater, wanted to live somewhere cool and crisp, cold even.  But I realize this was as much about summer heat, about feeling miserable, about the way chemotherapy has knocked me further down than I had hoped, and how summer without the pleasure of summer activities can become unbearable.  I don't actually know if I was yearning for a return to cool summers and cold winters, or just struggling with ennui.  I suspect the latter.  But I enjoyed reading the magazine anyway, and I enjoyed dreaming about a fantasy life where I could wear all these sweaters.

     

    Silvatica

     

    It is possible that I could knit some of the hats shown in the collage above, but I already have more hat patterns than I could ever need, and in Tennessee even my need of warm wooly hats is somewhat limited.  There are two patterns I might knit.  The most likely of these is this intarsia shawl, Silvatica, shown above.  This would be both fun to wear and fun to knit (once my neuropathy wears off).  

     

    Saknes

     

    The other potential knit, although actually somewhat less likely, is this cardigan, named Saknes.  It is knit in worsted weight wool, which I would not have considered particularly heavy in New York, and which I thought of as really pushing the limits much of my life in Tennessee.  But I wore more sweaters last year.  This may be because I live in an older house, which can be slightly drafty. It could be because I refuse to turn on the heat unless the house is downright cold, and my standard definition of cold seems to be lower than that of many of my Tennessee compatriots. Perhaps I am adapting slightly; perhaps I am just aging.  I've been through chemo and lost a good bit of weight, which was necessary by the way, and I have no idea how that will affect my sensitivity to the cold.  I still have worsted weight wool in the stash, so this remains a possibility.

     

     

     

     

     

  • Progress

    More coherent progress on the knitting front was made this week.  The back of the purple cardigan is done.   

    Purple Futures Back

     

    Once I finished the scrolled diamond stitch pattern at the bottom, the rest of the piece moved quickly.  That doesn't mean that I did not make errors.  In fact I grow annoyed myself over that very issue.  At one point I accidentally picked up two stitches in the middle of the back, from wraps that I did not completely transfer, creating two holes.  I am not beating myself up about that as I had a pretty bad sinus headache that day and was barely able to move.  I kept dozing off, even while knitting, and I eventually figured out I should not be knitting at all.  Alas I didn't figure that out until after I was a few rows beyond the mistake.  In my pain-induced fog, I told myself it didn't matter, and did not rip.

     

    The next day I picked up the sweater and just blithely started knitting without even looking at my progress from the day before.  I was almost finished with the back, about 6 inches above the armhole shaping, when I noticed the holes and had to rip back a good 5 inches of knitting.  I am not annoyed with myself for the mistake.  We are all human and all humans make mistakes after all.  I am annoyed with myself for lying to myself about not caring, for that is exactly what denial is, self-deceit. I do care, and the mistake was both preventable and fixable.  I can forgive myself for mistakes, but I can also learn from them, fix them whenever possible, and move on.  

     

    So often I fail;  the point however is not about success or failure, rather it is about the journey itself.  In the end however, it was only the ripping I resented.  The knitting itself was, as always, soothing and calming.  More time knitting is more time self-soothing.  Much as I love pattern work and intarsia, I have to admit that there is something almost spiritually present about knitting stockinette, at least for me.  Knitting is about living in the moment; yes it is creative and making something is a creative act, but it is also about being present in the process, present in the physical act, physical with the state of the body in space, as well as with the spirit, the urge to create.  My mistake was a mistake brought on by denying that I did not feel well and was ignoring my physical presence, but not acknowledging the mistake was also a sign of disharmony.  The pain is not in the ripping or reknitting but in the fragmentation.

     

    I have also acquired a couple of small improvements to my knitting arsenal.

    MeasuringBracelet

    This little knitting tape bracelet arrived in my life in mid February, shortly after I started the purple cardigan.  I have been wearing it consistently while knitting since its arrival.  It is such a simple thing and it brings me so much joy.  I usually have a ruler and/or a measuring tape around, but it often feels like I spend more time searching for either one than I spend actually measuring.  This makes life so much easier, and it feels both handsome and functional.

     

    The bracelet was part of my first box of goodies in a mystery-box knit-along.  I intended to blog about the box contents at the time, but that was the week I felt overwhelmed, the week Poncho was ill, and so never got to it.  I haven't started anything from that box yet, entranced as I have been with the purple cardigan.  Perhaps I will post about both boxes when the second one arrives.  In the meantime, I love the bracelet, and am more than likely to forget to take it off.

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    Finally, with this project I have started using the Knit Companion app and I love it so far.  As I discovered and purchased the app, I also signed up for a zoom class offered by A Good Yarn in Sarasota, Florida, on using its various features.  The class and the cardigan started simultaneously, and after the first week I was forging ahead, using the app to set up counters, highlight the appropriate counts and rows for my size, and adding notes and revisions to the pattern.  I did jump ahead and figure some things out long before we covered them in the class, and the website has great support features, but I learned a great deal as well.    As a person who tends to revise patterns to suit me, and often rewrites and reorders parts of patterns simply to make them easier for my brain to follow, I do think I will be getting a lot of use out of this app.  The modifications needed for this pattern were small, but I see potential.  I love the setting-up stage of a project anyway.  Putting time into planning usually means less time making mistakes, at least planning mistakes.  There is no accounting for, or apparently any way around, those pesky mistakes due to absentmindedness.