Category: Hunting and Gathering

  • Old Wool

    I bought a carpet for the sun room.  I am still entranced at how such a simple addition changes and enhances the room.  It seems simultaneously larger and cozier, and a bit brighter as well.   I keep wandering by, stopping, and sitting down for a bit just to experience the space.

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    It is a new carpet but it is made from old wool.  Apparently the person who manufactures these carpets buys up the stock from old factories and uses it to make new rugs.  So the wool is old wool, dyed using antiquated techniques.  This changes the color.  For the better to my mind.  Apparently the wool for this carpet was dyed in the 1920's in all likelihood.  That makes me smile, as in my dream vision I would live in a 1920s or 1930s house, not my contemporary new construction house.  So I have a bit of the 20's in my room in spirit anyway.  It makes me happy, as does the thought of making something new from something old and salvaging something that would otherwise have gone to waste. 

     

    Here's to new rugs from old wool.

     

    Here's what I see in this picture.  I am sitting on a large sectional unit which occupies two walls of the room.  I love the carpet and the colors, which look different here than they did in the photograph I saw originally, and in the decorator's showroom, where I first saw the rug in person.  I loved it, although perhaps in slightly different ways in each setting, which I suppose means I will love it anew in any new settings it might find itself in my life.  I am looking at the Wassily chair that George bought me for one of my birthdays, I forget which one.  I had admired a Wassily chair somewhere, one that was in the more commonly seen black leather, but had said I did not want black leather.  George ordered the chair, took a day off work, drove to Long island to pick it up, and kept it hidden in his big suburban, the one with the plow attached, so that he could sneak it upstairs on the morning of my birthday. This leather shows the stains of time, but although they may be imperfections, they are also the signs of a life well-lived.  There are drink rings on the arms, remnants of many cocktail parties and Christmas Eve dinners, and untold other celebrations.  There is the stain on the back of the chair where George would come in still wet from the pool, or more likely hot and sweaty from mowing the lawn and sit, drink in hand.  In his later, dementia addled years, he would curse the person who sat bare-backed in "his" chair and ruined it, and I couldn't tell him that he had done it himself.  Now I look at it and see George.  Someday I  may change the leather, when there are future stories to be built, but not yet.  It is too alive with history and history is what is to be savored.

     

    I also look at the lamp and the cockeyed lampshade and think that is something I need to address soon.  I didn't realize it bothered me so much until I looked at this photo.  Those lamps were one of my early purchases from a craft fair.  The original shades were broader, but were badly damaged when we had a leak through the roof our old house.  The current shades were purchased here and they do not fit well.  I need to change them.  I have an idea in my head of something I want to create.  It may or may not work, but the process is important; perhaps it is not more important than the final result, but it is at least equally important.  I don't yet know how it will evolve.  But that is the key:  past, present, future.

     

     

  • Cheery New Coat

    Last winter was cold in Knoxville, certainly the coldest winter we've had since I moved here.  Well, technically the previous January may have reached a single lower temperature, but the overall trend was colder on average last year than the previous couple of years.  I still have a couple of New York coats, so I didn't freeze.  Nonetheless I wasn't happy. The styles, the colors, nothing seemed right for the life I have now.

     

    Tres Parka OxbloodThis fall, I decided I needed to find a new coat, a real coat, not just vests and light jackets, which actually get me through most of my running around town on the average Knoxville winter day, but a coat that could adapt to weather, that would be suitable for both running around and walking the dog.  A coat that would make me smile.  And I found one, this one, from Patagonia.  Technically, I guess it is three coats, as I can wear the components separately.  

     

    So far I've mostly just worn the outer shell, although I wore the lining once, on a cold night, when I needed something slightly dressier.  Both components make me happy.  The color makes me happy.  The lining alone is perhaps a little bright, but that makes it more festive, and I adore the rich but muted color of the outer shell.  Perhaps, since I've had a cold or bronchitis most of December, it plays up the flush in my cheeks and redness of my nose, but this too shall pass.

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    The coat perhaps looks more sleek in the photo than on me, but I've come to accept that I'll never quite manage to pull off elegant sleek sophistication.  I am more comfortable being a little mussed, a little bit not-quite-pulled-together.  Perhaps that was part of the problem with my old coats. The were more aspirational than I could ever quite pull off. I wore the black Moncler down coat, shown below, for a few years, but it always felt like it was wearing me more than anything else.  Aside from the fact that it is black, perhaps it just had more polish than I can ever quite manage. 

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     We'll see,  I'm considering wearing it to New York later in the winter, if warranted.  Is there still a remnant of my old New York self hidden deep inside?  Or is she in the wind?  I suspect it will be our last trip together, black coat and I.  Time for new adventures.

     

     

     

     

     

  • September Issue

    One of the things I love about late August, and the beginning of the sense of fall, is reading the September Fashion magazines.  I always buy them all, and I love looking through them.  This year, I am busy enough that it will probably be well into September before I get through them all, but that is ok.  It simply prolongs the enjoyment, and its not like actual autumnal temperatures are about to hit my immediate environs anytime soon.

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    There are a couple of things I've noticed though.  I don't really like Vogue.  I've subscribed for years, decades really, but it is time to stop.  I do believe I used to like it, used to read it, used to pore over it.  But I don't even really save inspiration photos from Vogue much anymore, either the editorials or the ads.  The articles don't bore me, at least not entirely, but the attitude does. The question is if one or two articles is enough to justify the poundage of waste. This makes me wonder if I ever really liked Vogue, or I just thought I should like it.

    I think I was always more interested in the details of the clothes than any editorializing or fantasy.  Or maybe I'm just older and wiser and not interested in the elitism of high fashion an.ymore.  No that's not true, I love looking at fabulous clothes, even fabulously extravagant clothes, even though I would probably never wear them.  I used to really love were those French and Italian magazines, like Collezioni Donna and Show Details that published runway photos of all the collections. I can get runway photos online, and the magazines are frightfully expensive, but I like the glossy photos. I want to look at photos of the clothes themselves, that is what inspires me, not the editorial pages, which are too stylized, too disconnected from any reality I understand, and really do nothing to satisfy my primary impulse in buying these magazines.

     

    But although I look at the magazines for inspiration, I am also looking for perspective on the  market, on trends and what is modern, even though I may just decide to wear what I want regardless. The standard US magazines have ads from manufacturer's who may not be high fashion, but which still inspire, and are far more directly related to what people actually wear.  I can still be inspired by them, and this is perhaps what I look for in the September magazines.

     

    I'll definitely have a small collection of inspiration pics. Thousands of pages will be reduced to a handful.  What will I learn in the process?  Perhaps I need to seek out a copy of Collezioni Donna or Show Details.  They were easy to come by in New York, not so much now.  But I've more than paid for one issue of Collezioni Donna already for a 25 pounds of magazines that will probably mostly just end up in the recycling bin. Perhaps one subscription to a runway collection and a couple of issues of In Style or Lucky, or Elle will meet my needs.  I'll be interested to see what my perusal of the fall fashion magazines actually yields, whether anything will inspire me, and where that inspiration may be found. There is no rush, I want to enjoy the process and I am busy enough with other things that this will occupy my playtime well into September. 

     

    I'm taking an end of summer vacation for the rest of this week.  I will be back after Labor Day. Enjoy summer's last hurrah.

  • Market Saturday

    Saturday, I went downtown to the Farmer's Market. 

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    It seems I had forgotten how much I enjoyed doing this:  going without a firm plan and letting the market itself guide my choices.  Yes, I did have a list, but I decided not to be completely wedded to it.

     

    At some point, as I wandered, I remembered how much I used to enjoy this — the going to the market, looking, selecting, planning as I went.  Going to the Rhinebeck farmer's market had been one of the high points of our week, as was bringing home our produce, spreading it out on the kitchen island, prepping and planning menus before going off to the standard grocery store to fill in any gaps.  We did that when we first arrived here as well. George and I and Tammy, his favorite aide and best friend that last year and a half of his life.  That first summer in Knoxville, we spent our Saturday mornings at the market. Since then, however I had gradually pulled back without even realizing it, without even realizing what I had lost.

     

    In fact, it started with the celery.  I had just been bemoaning the loss of celery leaves a day or two before and there they were.  I miss the plethora of greens I found in Rhinebeck, but I am in a different place now, a different climate.  I can adjust.  But I loved seeing the celery and I intentionally bought two bunches so that I could freeze the tougher stalks, as well as the wonderfully flavorful leaves, in small batches to be used in soups throughout the year.  Yes, I also made soup. And next time I see celery, I will buy more.

     

    In fact, I spent much of Saturday playing in the kitchen, prepping vegetables, cooking a few larger dishes so that I could have something delicious to come home to on those rushed days when I might not feel like cooking something just for myself. I had let the obligation of eating rob me of the joy of cooking.  Saturday, I let the joy of Earth's bounty guide me and refresh me.  Even though I was tired at the end of the day, and I was no slave to the kitchen, it was a good kind of tired, an expansive kind of tired, full of promise.

     

     

     

  • Acquisition Week?

    New sun hat for working in the garden.

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    It is actually the same as the previous sun-hat, which I had for over 10 years, before it got so disreputable I really couldn't wear it.  I love the blue under-brim, which enhances that feeling of carrying my shade around with me.

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    Because I am the kind of person who got a sunburn when I was out watering the garden between 4:30 and 4:45 PM (no I wasn't wearing sunscreen), I also got a couple of loose shirts out of the same Solumbra fabric.  I've worn these before as well, and they are exactly the kind of loose airy clothes that don't creep up when I'm crawling around that I prefer for working in the garden.

     

    Geesh, it seems like all acquisitions all the time around here, which really isn't the case.  I'm just too tired to write anything else this morning, and I do love my hat, perhaps unreasonably so for such a simple thing.

  • Bright and Shiny Things

    Last week I bought a pair of Birkenstocks.  Nothing remarkable at all. Or is it? Remarkable that is?

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    I had purchased some Birks years ago and hated them.  They made my feet hurt.  Worse, they made my back hurt, hurt for days after I wore them.  I assumed it was just me, just my back, and I abandoned all hope of wearing them despite having many friends who swear by their comfort, support, and all-around practicality.

     

    Ends up it was my back, it was the growing herniated disk in my low back that I (successfully?) managed to ignore for years, until it plastered me flat on my back for two months before my back surgery last year.  It seems there were many things that were due to my back, but not in the way I initially believed.  There also may have been some internal struggle between my comfortable, baggy-jeans-at-home, self and my urban, designer-clad, insecurity-driven self reflected in that initial rejection of Birkenstocks, but then it is amazing what a couple of months of immobility followed by a new chance at life will resolve.

     

    I first saw these bright shiny reflective Birkenstocks in Dillards when my mom was here and I looked at them and dismissed them.  My thoughts went something along the lines of:

     Oooh, Pretty…..

    Can't wear them, remember my back hurt?

    But, pretty….

    Too bright, too shiny……

    But pretty……

    Reflective too, way too much happening on those shoes…..

    Leave now…

    Sigh, so pretty…..

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    I was back in Dillards last week, refreshing a few supplies from the cosmetics department, when I happened to walk past those same shiny shoes.  I remembered that there are quite a few things I used to not be able to do that I can now, now that my back is better, and I thought it couldn't hurt to try them on. So I did, and they were phenomenally comfortable in the store, and pretty, and very very shiny. Not surprisingly, they came home with me.

     

    I wore them most of the day yesterday, and I loved wearing them.  Their shiny pinkness made me smile. They are far and away the brightest, shiniest things I own, and yet that doesn't matter. Shiny Pink Birkies. Who knew? 

  • More Acquisitions from Portland and a Knitting Update

    When I went to Portland earlier this month, I told myself I was not going to buy fabric or yarn.  I bought both.  You saw the green knit when I posted it, shortly following my trip, but truthfully there was more.  I had packages shipped home from two stores, a few items that I believed would not have fit in my tiny roll-aboard suitcase, but in fact they probably would have fit, and I could have saved myself the shipping expense.  I would have had to check the bags, as it would have been unlikely I could lift them, but since I checked the bag coming home anyway, would not have been a problem.

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    But of course, then I would have not experienced the joy of opening the packages.  I failed to anticipate that sense of excitement, the thrill of opening, even knowing the contents. I had simply put both packages aside, apparently patiently awaiting just the right moment.  I opened the smaller package yesterday, a package from Knit Purl containing some lovely Habu yarns, and even knowing all this, my pleasure in the unwrapping was palpable: the promise, the anticipation.  Would I still love the yarn?  Would the getting actually be as exciting as the anticipation had been? Yes, and Yes. Even more so, in fact because of the promise of creation that lies ahead.

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    The four cones at the bottom contain yarn for a simple summer top, probably something that is fairly open, knit on big needles, and meant for layering.  There is an image in my mind, but the details have not yet been confirmed.  The two yarns at the top left will be for a lightweight scarf or shawl.

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    Neither project will be started right away.  I have two projects on the needles, the zebra mitts, and a second project, a shawl using some Jaeger Sienna in a pale pale lilac which I have decided I shall never wear. The mitts will be finished first, the shawl is too small even to photograph well, only 5 repeats, out of 75 for the main pattern, have been completed.

  • Summer: gardens, greens, and blues.

    When I left Knoxville to spend a weekend in Portland it was cool and damp.  When I returned it was hot and dry.  Although I had only been gone 4 days, it seemed as if I could have been gone an eternity, as if I had missed some massive shift in the seasons. 

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    I had planned on having the sprinkler system up before I left, but there had been a leak, and the new installation date is scheduled for next week.  So I seem to spend a lot of time out watering the flower beds, or moving a sprinkler, or both, although admittedly my landscape angels have messed with the sprinkler more than I have, except to unhook it.  Tikka is my garden companion, watching over me as I weed and water and plant. 

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    Sometimes we just sit together in the grass for a bit of a rest.  Here I am admiring my new shoes, ported home from Portland, shoes I really had no intention of buying.  I really wasn't looking, just enjoying time with friends on Sunday, and sat down while Liana and Jan perused Ross Dress for Less.  I'd been standing far more than I am used to over the weekend, and my back was sore and tired; standing is far harder than walking you know.  Alas I sat next to these cute little slip on sneakers with a bit of shimmer, and so they came home with me.  Although I didn't really need anything, they look to be a useful addition to my summer wardrobe.

    But what else came home in my suitcase?  Shams and Margy mentioned a necklace, indeed you can see it on the counter just before I purchased it in one of Margy's photographs.  It is a necklace that includes all of my perfect blues and went with everything I brought to wear over the course of the weekend, often to better effect than the jewelry I had brought with me.

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    My new necklace is shown above on a piece of green lightweight rayon knit, that also came home in my suitcase.  I was not looking for fabric.  In fact I was happily trailing Liana around Mill End fabrics, facilitating her choices, when I ran smack-dab into this green knit.  It is a perfect shade of summer green for me.  Doesn't it remind you of the greens in the top garden photograph?   It will work well with things in my closet; in fact it goes beautifully with a cardigan I wore the very next day.  I bought what was left on the bolt, 2 1/2 yards, and I have a couple of ideas, further impetus for actually getting a sewing machine set up and running and sorting out my various notions and tools. 

    And I swore I wouldn't buy fabric.  Never say Never (more about that later).

     

     

     

     

  • Whole Foods

    Whole foods opened in Knoxville last week.  Although I had every intention of braving the crowds that first day, there was little point.   It was one of those busy weeks, where I was mostly out of the house, aside for breakfast and two other meals, which I already had covered.

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    Still, I was excited.  Although I've never lived in a town with a Whole Foods, I've been a fan since the mid 80's, when Whole Foods began their expansion across my native state of Texas.  There were many years I purchased items at Whole Foods to carry back to New York in my suitcase. I was thrilled when they opened a small store (much like the Knoxville store) in White Plains, and George and I would stop at the Columbus Circle Whole Foods for sustenance and snacks for the train ride home when we went to concerts at Lincoln Center.

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    And so, I knew I would be happy when I walked through Whole Foods on Monday.  I was not disappointed. The produce I saw on that first visit would be enough of a reason for me to shop at there, as I have truly despaired of the quality of produce found in the stores in this town, especially the vegetables, and I eat a lot of vegetables, especially of the leafy green variety.  Initial impressions are good, but only time will tell how the produce department holds up.  Many times I have been momentarily thrilled only to be disappointed over the long haul.   Of course, I have been spoiled by many years of buying produce from local farms; and grocery stores, unless they make an effort to source locally, cannot compete. Come May, I will be once again probably buying most of my produce from local farmers. 

    They had samples of melons the day I went, but they weren't particularly ripe.  Aside from berries, I don't buy that much fruit, except for berries and perhaps green papayas and avocados.  Otherwise, I think of fruit as a dessert. If you eat a lot of what I think of as standard fruits: grapes and apples and bananas, I would agree that one is better off elsewhere.  But I think of grapes and bananas as sugar balls or sugar on a stick, and they are rare treats for me. And grocery stores aren't usually the best source for really fresh seasonal fruits anyway, although Whole Foods may be better than most. I suppose this is another side effect of buying from farmers:  I want my fruit to taste and smell like it is fully ripe, like it is supposed to taste and smell.  If fruit is a seasonal indulgence, I can live with that.

    As to the "Whole Paycheck" reputation of the store, that has never really bothered me.  I've never been one that will sacrifice quality to save money and am pretty immune to the cost of food if the quality lives up to expected standards.  I agree that high cost does not guarantee quality, but I increasingly believe that we have gotten so used to cheap that we have forgotten about the quality of what we use to nourish our bodies, and this has taken a toll on our health. That doesn't mean I don't have a budget.  I do and I stick to it, but nothing upsets me more than throwing out food, be it food that I bought too much of and didn't eat, or produce that looked good and spoiled more quickly than it should of.  If I want chicken it will be organic and free range; if I want beef or fish, they will be of similar suitable quality; if I want parmesan, it will be aged parmigiano reggiano or I simply will adapt my menus to do without.  That doesn't mean I buy only expensive items, but it means that I buy with care, only what I truly like, and only what I will truly use.  I cook rather than depend on packaged foods. Studies show that cooking only actually takes a few minutes longer than preparing meals with packaged foods, and is healthier to boot.  Cooking does however, require time in thought and planning, at least until one gets a few basics under one's belt.  But basics are not complicated and can lead to an infinite array of options.

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    George and I would have made short work of one of those Spanish mackerels, but alas they were slightly too large for one,  There is a very good fish market in Knoxville, and a good butcher as well, and I will continue to support them, but the fish market and the meat market both look good, and expanded options never hurt.  And although I like to buy local organic free-range chickens, doing so requires some planning and there are times when I just want chicken now and appreciate the option of being able to buy it without driving clear across town.  The local Earth Fare carries organic chicken, but the supply at the Bearden branch is slim, and driving across town to Farragut makes for very expensive chicken.  If Whole Foods maintains their selection of meats and poultry I will be a customer.

    And yes, even though I don't' buy a lot of packaged foods, I do buy some things and I did wander the aisles.  There are some things here, and especially gluten-free choices, corralled in one place, that I would usually have to go to three or four stores to acquire, stores that are on opposite ends of town.  Even if the prices are slightly higher, and I didn't check,  buying them at Whole Foods is still cheaper than the vehicular cost (both in gas and maintenance) of driving around town,  Yes I am a nerd that way. That is not even considering the things now available in Knoxville that I previously had to acquire through the internet. So perhaps, from my perspective, this makes Knoxville even more livable. It won't be my only store, but then I have never found one store, anywhere, that could be my only store. It certainly expands the options.

  • Little Bits of Color to Brighten the Winter Doldrums

    This past week was not my best, and I really have no explanation for it other than I was just in a bit of a slump, a slump without reason.  Yes, the weather was cold and rather dreary.  Yes, life was also rather busy and although there is nothing planned that was not anticipated, for a few days there I felt overwhelmed.  Perhaps that was because I seemed to be in the throws of yet another sinus/congestion/allergy headache that just seemed to slow down my thinking and leave me drearily befuddled.  It ended up not being allergies but one or the myriad viral things that get grouped together under the heading of having a "cold", and I am now well on my way to recovery. Pehaps it is just my clearer head, or yesterday's burst of sunshine, but things look brighter today.

     

    I'll be busy for a few months though, and posting may continue to be erratic as I am working on several big projects that aren't really blog fodder at the moment.  I am taking time however for handwork, for solitude, for savoring this earth and this life, and not being constantly driven to do.  How that will play out in my posts is yet to be determined, but I will be here, and will post, hopefully not too erratically. 

     

    In the meantime, I have to small things to share.  They are not significant, but each of them, in their own way brightens my days not because of what they are per se, but because they simply make me stop and smile.

     

    Winter berries

    Tikka and I walk by this stand of grass, and the tree with the lovely red berries every day on our walk.  It is one of Tikka's favorite stopping places, and one of mine as well.  There is not a lot of nature to be seen on our winter walk in my small housing development, and although planned rather than random, this little vignette offers a cheerful resting place before we tackle the last steep hill on the way home.  The red berries offer a rare bit of color, and a promise that life is merely resting, that noursihment and rebirth will come.  Every day I look at the same grass and the same berries, and every day my cold hands seem a little warmer and my spirits a little lighter, reminding me that is not the grand miracles that keep us going but the small moments of joy.

    Poppy bag

    Although I can't really take those red berries with me everywhere, I can take this bright floral Vera Bradley tote andit has replaced my more practical, and boring neutral totes whenever I need books, laptop, and/or writing materials.  Even when not in use, hanging on the closet door as shown here it brightens my office with its cheerful pink and red flowers, flowers that don't wilt, flowers that Sam won't eat.  I am rediscovering the joys of pretty tote bags. It is true that my large leather tote is more versatile; it is also true that the row of functional LL bean totes in the closet holding various seasonal items may be more practical; but practical can be overrated.  This makes me smile.