Category: Garden

  • More Flowers

    I've been working in the garden again, preoccupied with boring but necessary tasks for the most part, but I did go out and buy one of those back-pack sprayers, the kind with a long, focused wand, so I can kill off some of the more persistent weeds, including those on the steep hill at the back of the yard, where I need my hands free for balance, if not actually grasping onto something to keep from falling.  I am really excited about taking it out for a first run, but so far the times I have had available have been too windy to spray without risking damage to other plants.

    After Easter1

    Most of the floral action is still in the front and sunnier portion of my garden.  You've seen most of it before, but last night I managed to get home early from an aborted meeting and decided to pull out my camera and see if I remembered anything from my earlier attempts at learning to use it.   I'm not sure I remember much, and I have no expectations of ever being a fine photographer, but I'm going to plague you with the few shots that survived the cut, of the dozens and dozens I shot. 

    After Easter4

    The top shot is of the iris and tulip bed, just to show the scale, really.  I was lying on the driveway to take the shot.  Imagine how tall daffodils normally are, and the yellow ones in the background are on the taller end of the daffodil spectrum (I don't remember their name at the moment), and then you can imagine how tiny narcissus hawera in the foreground really are.  The second shot is the best I could manage, even in a gentle breeze, for the tiny blossoms of narcissus hawera. The tulips in the midground are small tulipa bakerii 'lilac wonder'.

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    A  close-up of another one of the tiny bucharica dwarf iris.  These are mixed in with the tiny narcissi, which means they are not really distinguishable from a distance, but are more than evident when one takes a closer look. 

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    This is a tulip from the adjoining bed.

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    And finally a close-up of the pansies in the planters by the garage.  These overwintered in the pots, and it is just within the last week that they have come fully into glorious bloom.  The two snapdragons in the back were added this spring to fill in a gap.

     

    I'm not at home at the moment, and I'm typing this from the reception desk at church, where I am filling in.  Either the choir director or one of the choir members left a copy of the messiah on the reception desk, and I was happily reading it before I remembered that I needed to write a post.  I'll be happy to return to it.  I have rare opportunities to read a score (I really can't sing) but it is something I love, reading the separate lines individually, and then together, hearing the music in my head. Music being something that perhaps brings my heart even more joy than flowers.

     

     

     

  • Tiny Flowers

    More flowers are opening in the front flower beds.

    Tiny tulips

    These are tiny tulips. I am struck by the similarity of the colors to the early crocuses.  I suppose it only means I am nothing if not consistent in my choices.

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    These are all flowers I planted.  The tulips and daffodils planted when the beds were rebuilt, in the fall of 2014, have yet to show up, which is not surprising after what I still think of the mulch massacre of 2015.  The former landscaper for this community applied mulch that was too hot, and all my bulbs, tiny tulips and many daffodils shriveled and lost their leaves.  A few bravely sent up flowers, as a dying plant will in a last-ditch effort to procreate, but without leaves to collect nutrients, the bulbs died.  I am a little apprehensive, but hoping for a better outcome this year, with a new landscape company.

    Yellow iris

    We even have another tiny iris.  I don't remember the name of this one, although I am certain I chose and planted it. 

     

    There is much still to do in the gardens, perhaps some I should have done already, although it is only March.  But I probably won't get a lot done in the garden this Easter weekend.  I am busy elsewhere, and next weekend is Big Ears.  At least there is time in between.  And I am more determined than I have been in quite a long time.  That will help.  I still occasionally give in to lethargy, and there is a fine line  sometimes between intentional unhurriedness or a penchant toward quiet reflection and its darker cousin, lethargy.  In the same way there is a fine line between determination and a tendency to overdo.  I'm still working on those distinctions.  Perhaps always shall. 

     

    But in the meantime there is Easter and its symbolism of death and rebirth if one is inclined toward Christianity, or the quiet stillness and potential for birth represented by Easter Eggs and bunnies, or, new leaves and flowers breaking the surface and bravely soldiering on, determined to grow and blossom and welcome the warmth of the sun whatever vicissitudes Mother Nature, the volatility of human emotion, and life in general may throw our way. 

     

    Have a lovely weekend, whatever your beliefs, whatever your plans, whatever your rituals, whatever stumbling blocks may roll into your path. Simply know that grace abounds in this world, perhaps dormant at times, waiting for nourishment, waiting to blossom.  

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • A Rather Meandering Post on Music

    It is chilly this week in Knoxville, with early morning temperatures in the low 30's and a nip in the air, even as the daytime temperatures rise into the 50's (so far).  It is expected to be warmer later in the week, good for Easter, and good for me in a way, as I love the way the chilly temperatures remind of us of the slow expectation of spring, of the complexities of Easter celebrations, of the human condition in fact.  There is a part of me that thinks it would all just be too easy if it was always sunny and warm.

    Early Tulips

    Besides, I am a little worried that the tulips are early.  They may not be, as I don't believe I ever had smaller species tulips, or any early varieties before.  I always grew the big gaudy late tulips, which I would plant in a section of the vegetable garden planned for hot weather crops because I would cut all the blossoms and bring them into the house by the armload.  Ahh the excesses of youth.  So it is possible that the tulips are not early, and it is I who am not ready. 

     

    But I had promised that I would write about the symphony concert I attended on Friday, not about flowers and doubts and chill crisp air, even though it often seems that all these thoughts constantly run together in my mind.   Perhaps an early boyfriend was right, I do have a no-track mind.  Well, except that I know that is not true, although I can see how occasionally it may appear otherwise.

     

    I can't really write about the concert, however, without mentioning that I had also attended a luncheon with the conductor and the soloist on Thursday as that luncheon influenced my anticipation and perspectives on the performance.  Truthfully, I was a fairly quiet guest, mostly listening to conversations, adding  a word or two occasionally.  I suppose this does not make me the most scintillating or desirable guest, but it seems to be mostly my way, prefering to get to know people slowly, and I had a good time.  The conductor, Jacomo Rafael Bairos, was charming and personable, and I was thoroughly impressed with the way he spoke about both the music to be performed that weekend and the role of music in society and culture.   Elena Urioste, the guest violinist, was quieter even than I, although she grew impassioned over a conversation about books, with the result that I came home and moved Elena Ferrante's My Brilliant Friend to the top of the "to be read pile", only to have it demoted when I learned that Eric Larson would be speaking in Knoxville tonight, and I decided to try to squeeze in Dead Wake before the talk.  Just so you know, I failed miserably and am still reading Kissinger.

     

    Oh yes, the concert.  I had been eagerly looking forward to this concert before attending the luncheon, but the conductor's description of the works and his reasons for choosing them, increased that anticipation.  In fact the performance lived up to, and even exceeded expectations.  Bairos presented a program that beautifully played up the strengths of our fabulous symphony in a rather stunning concert.   He spoke well, he is persuasive and articulate, the music was gorgeous, and at times, Bairos seemed like a dancer at the podium, and the conductor and musicians part of a ballet.  This is not at all surprising considering the lush music, and the strong visually imaginative component of the music being performed.

     

    The concert opened with John Adams' The Chairman Dances from Nixon in China, although it is often performed separately, and has been used in movie soundtracks, notably I Am Love. Actually, everything on the program has been used in popular musical forms and should have been at least partially familiar to almost any audience, whatever their background, and I find this particular Adams piece to be very accessible.   It is very visual, but I could feel that way simply because I know the opera, saw it performed at Brooklyn Academy of Music in the 80s (1985 or early 1986 I think), in the last season I went to BAM before marrying George.   I love the light, crisp melody, the syncopation, the mix of American forms with a bit of Chinese pentatonics.  You can hear the hustle and bustle in the opening movements, you can almost feel the disruption as Madame Mao's presence interrupts the flow. You can feel the shift, imagine Madame Mao dancing, see Chairman Mao joining her; the music is danceable, romantic and suffused with a sense of memory and longing.   The orchestra captured that crisp rush followed by that sense of solitude, of romance, of longing.  The pianist was fabulous.  The audience was thrilled, as was I.

     

    Elena Urioste was fabulous in Samuel Barber's Concerto for Violin and Orchestra, Opus 14.  But the orchestra was fabulous as well, it was here that I first started thinking of a ballet, as listening to music and watching the performance, as observing a ballet, with everyone creating a harmony of sound and space.  But of course, the lush opening notes of the violin drew me in and the gentle conversations between the musicians, the woodwind solos, particularly the oboe solo, were breathtaking.  I had been particularly looking forward to the second movement, primarily based on the passion of Bairos' remarks on this movement at the luncheon, and it was beautiful: sad and melancholy and yet also somehow comforting, a masterful combination.  But the final movement really shone, with the perfect contrast of pacing and sound, making it a truly fitting conclusion to everything that had come before it.  In the end I think this was a greater test, and one passed with flying colors by both conductor and orchestra.  It is easy to play up the beauty and emotion of the first two movements, but actually a bit trickier to make the vigor of the finale work within the context that has been set, and the orchestra pulled it off beautifully.

     

    The final work was Mussorgsky's Pictures at an Exhibition as orchestrated by Maurice Ravel.  I love this piece, love it so much I can't even really write about it except to say that the orchestra played brilliantly and the soloists were wonderful.  But, it was not only the music, but the play of circumstances that struck me with this performance.  I had been very thirsty at intermission and had picked up a huge cup of diet coke.  Don't laugh, this is important.  This year, for the first time, one can take concessions in to the concert hall during symphony performances, and I for one think this is a great thing.  I went in to the second half, to hear the Mussorgsky, carrying a large diet coke and just the thought of it made me so happy, happy in an almost childish way, as if I was a child going to see some fabulous Disney movie, rather than a serious adult about to listen to "great" music.  Of course I was both.  As I sat, listening to lush music, holding my coke, sipping its sweetness, I considered that I had wasted too much of my youth being overly serious.  The truth was that I almost felt like I was at a movie, for what piece of music is more visual, more movie-like, than Pictures at an Exhibition?  You feel yourself walking into the exhibition, the momentousness of it, and the music takes on the images, the very life, of the paintings.  You can hear the children playing, quarrelling even;  the exuberant chirping of the ballet of the chicks; the vibrant conversations of women in the market;  the somberness of the catacombs; all of these sounds combine to paint a picture and a mood.  One is enraptured. I was enraptured. And is the soul any less enlightened if one sees pictures in music, or hears music in pictures?  The sublime will find its way in if only we keep the door open.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Looking Forward to a (Hopefully) Quiet Week

    A picture of the front yard.  I no longer have the ugliest yard in the neighborhood and it brings me joy every day, even though I haven't finished planting the flower beds along the side and back.  I know you've already seen my daffodils, but I couldn't resist.

    House

    Besides, it is late Friday night as I am writing this although I will post it in the morning.  I've just come from a fabulous symphony concert, a concert that I do want to tell you about, but I am tired.  I haven't really adapted to Daylight Savings time yet.  And I'm planning on spending Saturday out having fun with a friend, so I can't write in the morning. 

     

    In fact, part of the reason I'm having trouble adapting to the time change is probably at least partially due to the fact that I have been out gallivanting around quite a bit when I haven't been digging in the garden, trying to stick to my plan for steadily increasing my walking and exercise routines. and working on my normal volunteer activities.   In short, I haven't given myself enough of the kind of quiet reflective time I really need. In the past two weeks I've been to the FOMA concert I wrote about last week, a pops concert featuring The Fifth Dimension,  and tonight's symphony concert. I would have gone to one more concert, but I was under the weather for a couple of days..  I also saw Zootopia on opening day with my family, and The Boy and the Beast with a friend, and went to see the Blue Man Group, which I had never seen before.  There was neighborhood game night, a luncheon with this week's conductor, and a rather boring dinner with someone I met at a concert.

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    It was all wonderful, and I have no complaints (well, except for that one dinner, but that was a minor and probably necessary glitch) Now that I've written it all down however, I can see why I am tired.  Perhaps it is good that next week is Holy Week, and although there are liturgical activities specific to this time of year, it is otherwise a fairly quiet week.  I probably need the rest, mentally and physically.  Besides, the music extravaganza that is Big Ears is only two weeks away and I need to be ready.

     

     

  • In the Garden

    Spring.

      Forsythia

    I've been working in the garden.  Of course, I've been loving every moment.  Even when I am stiff and sore and tired, even when it seems like every muscle in my body is screaming out in pain, even then, I love working in the garden.  It has been a long time since I've gotten down and truly dirty in the garden.  Last year my back wasn't up to it.  This year, despite the frustrations at my lack of stamina, and constant fretting at incrementally small improvements in my ability to move, the decision to work slowly, at times painfully slowly, seems to be paying off.  I can do more.  My efforts are paying off in terms of improved ability.  My efforts are paying off in the yard as well.  The bulbs I planted last fall are coming up and blossoms are bursting forth, filling the yard with beauty and my heart with joy.

      Tikka and the Daffodils

    This spring I've been digging and planting some more, although mostly at this point my work is still preparatory.  A few spring plants have been added, but there is more work to do and I am loving every moment of it.  I wonder how I could have thought, when we left Hyde Park, that I would never want to garden again.  I know how.  I know why.  But those circumstances are in the past.  Too much energy is lost fretting about the past.

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    But there is something about the earth, about physical contact with this physical place we call home, the pure being of it, the pure life of it that is filling, and enlightening, whether one is sitting on a beach, walking in the woods or a park, just noticing the smell of the grass, of the earth, the texture of leaves and the way they change from limp unfurling to tight, springy maturity, to fragile death.  There is nothing like a day or two in the garden to put one's sense of malaise, of tension and unease to rest.

     

    This spring I've been digging.  There was one flower bed that was never completely properly dug.  I avoided it most of last year, letting the grass grow rampant because I couldn't easily uproot it from the packed clay.  It took me most of the fall just to get most of the grass out.  By then I was too exhausted to actually dig however, and perhaps not yet strong enough.  Now I am, although it took me a couple of days and it is not that big of a flower bed. 

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    The first day I dug up the back portion, just dug, no hauling away.  Digging is hard work, but not necessarily that hard on my back.  That section, probably only 9 or 10 square feet, was difficult for me.  The clay was packed hard and mixed with rocks and bits of concrete and metal and general construction detritus.  No wonder I couldn't plant anything.   My legs ached, my shoulders and arms ached. But my low back was fine.  At least it was fine until I went around to the front bed where I needed to move a small azalea that had been put in the wrong place, a spot hidden behind a bigger tree, a spot with too much sun.  Digging in that bed was easy, the soil deep and rich.  The hard part was actually lifting the shrub and getting it into its new home.  The hard part was transferring that dirt dug from one hole, now filled with a plant, to the other hole, now devoid of plant and waiting for soil.  That is the part of gardening that continues to be hard.  But still necessary and fulfilling.  One day's work done, to be followed by stretching, an extended floor workout to relieve a tense back, and a long walk.  

      Moving

    Yesterday I finished digging up that recalcitrant back bed, the one on the northwest corner.  I dug out the hellebores that had been planted there, and which were struggling.  Obviously so considering how they were impacted in hard clay and rock.  Then I dug up the rest of the bed.  About a third of it was easy soil, about a third of it had been properly dug the first time around, about half of the area around the smoke tree.  As for the rest of the bed, it seems a wall had been laid, but no digging had taken place. Until now.  I actually, was happy to dig, happy to have my hands in the dirt, happy to be out there, stubbornly, making something beautiful. There is something very satisfying about heart-pounding, muscle-screaming work, something exhilarating in the final product.

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    The digging was hard, but not hard on my back.  The part that was actually difficult for me was the hauling away of a good portion of the heavy chunks of clay and rock.   I knew I couldn't lift clay in a shovel and put it in a cart.  That would involve too much weight too far forward of the body.  But I could sit on the ground and lift chunks, scoop up piles of looser clay and gravel, crawl and carry and lift clay into my small cart.  It was not dignified but it was effective.  Too much concern about dignity is often a waste of energy that could be better used elsewhere.  I could load my cart, my small cart, half the size of a small wheelbarrow, and haul that clay off to the side and dump it down the hill into the woods, where clay had been dumped before.  A small cart meant more trips and tired legs and arms, but it was manageable.  I'm not convinced I could have handled a wheelbarrow.  In fact, at one point, I lost control of my small cart and fell down the hill, trampled by cart.  I emerged dirty and bruised but unbroken.  I am not sure that the results would have been so minor had I been run over by a larger load of heavy clay.

     

    I mostly finished that bed last night, just as darkness fell; mostly but not quite finished.  I hadn't purchased quite enough garden soil.  I'll be off to the garden center this morning.  I hope the rain holds off until all of the soil is in and blended, ready for planting.  I'd like to get those hellebores back in the ground, in somewhat more hospitable soil.  I'd like to plant, but if the rains come and help settle that soil, all the better for planting later.  Once the soil is in I will need a break.  Shoveling, raking, blending new soil with the existing soil is the hard part.  Just as planting small plants, bending, and reaching, is harder than the digging was, low-back wise.  Of course the digging was harder work overall.  I'm sure others could have finished the job more easily than I.  But my satisfaction in having done it myself is a sweet reward. Life is not a race.  The end result is worth the wait.  The goal is to take care, to help beauty flourish, to nurture this earth that nurtures us.

     

    I was wrong when I left Hyde Park and thought I'd never want to garden again.  Circumstances are different.  I love the smell of the earth, the feel of the soil against my fingers, even the feel of the clay.  Gardening clears my mind and my soul and reminds me of what is essential and important. I am grateful to have rediscovered the joy of dirt, of labor, of my own sometimes pig-headed determination, and the gentle smell of a fresh blade of grass.

     

     

     

  • Three things on a Tuesday Morning

    This will be a really brief update, as I am trying to get through a bunch of stuff I let pile up.

    Crocus

    The tiny species crocuses are up, each one about the size of a 1 1/2 teaspoon measuring spoon. The iris histroides are also continuing to pop up, and continuing to make bring a big smile to my face each time I walk by.

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    On Sunday I wore the new gray boots I bought in NYC.  Here I am propping my legs up on my still too-cluttered desk late Sunday afternoon.  We walked by the store on our way from the subway stop to the Metropolitan Museum, although we didn't stop at that time.  However the boots firmly lodged themselves in my mind, and distracted my thoughts, so I dragged Liana back with me to take a second look.    Gray is a much more versatile color in my wardrobe than black.  A pair of black boots is being culled, although they may be set aside and sold early next fall.  It really isn't boot season anymore.  The black down coat, which I did not take to New York with me, will also be sold.

    New books

    I got caught up with mail and bills and miscellaneous bits of paper yesterday, so the surface of my desk is more user-friendly. These are new books that I picked up at MacKay Used Books here in town.  I sold more books than I bought, so I am doing well on the book front as well at the moment.  I haven't started reading any of them yet; I'm still woking my way through Niall Ferguson's Kissinger biography.  Maybe soon.  Perhaps it will be warm enough this week to read Annie Dillard out in the sunshine.

     

     

     

     

     

  • Growth

    A week ago today I was home from a brief trip to New York.  It was a trip I needed.  I tend to discount how important it is to get away sometimes, thinking, erroneously, that since I am retired and live alone I have no need to get away.  Even without paid work though, it can be important to uproot settled thoughts and routine, to step away from schedules and demands. Sometimes it is good, even, to take a break from oneself, from the normalcy and creeping fustiness of one's own routines.

    Clearing

    I've been thinking, over the last week, how much a short trip cleared my thoughts, thinking how dull and clouded my countenance had become.  I've been thinking how a simple change, a simple break from routine, can allow my inner lark to soar once again.

     

    New York is different than it was.  No, that is not true, but my perceptions have changed, now that I no longer live along the fringes of the New York Metropolitan Area.  Granted I lived on the outer fringes, but there were so many things I simply took for granted out of constant exposure,  My perceptions are different now, and this is not entirely bad, although it is not entirely good either.

     

    As I was riding to Newark Airport I was struck by how sad and lonely the trees looked: bound, shackled, imprisoned.  Yes, it was winter and everything was gray.  But we are still skirting the fringes of winter here, but the grayness of the countryside is different than the grayness of industrial New Jersey. Industrial New Jersey has never, in my experience, been attractive, but this time the bleakness struck more deeply and I was troubled.  I was troubled by how much we destroy and maim and constrict in the name of progress, a progress that is shallow and ultimately rather meaningless.  As I looked at the lonely trees along the road to Newark, I thought also of the lonely trees on the upper east side of New York, much more well tended, cared for, but still isolated in boxes, solitary tokens of our admiration for the earth.

    Sprouts

    It was good to be home.  It has rained.  It has rained a lot and the ground was saturated, squishy underfoot, and the earth smelled soft and warm and full of life.  Bulbs are beginning to sprout, lifting their leaves toward the sun, and as I sank my hands in the dirt, returning a few very small, shallow bulbs that had probably been lifted in the repetitious cycles of freeze and thaw, I loved the feel of life, of home, against my skin. 

     

    Nothing much is blooming in my neighborhood yet, but my neighbor's daffodils are in bud and will open soon.  I look at them and wonder why I didn't plant any early daffodils, only late varieties, the ones that are my favorites.  But I miss those early yellows.  I must make a note for next year.  I hear that the daffodils are up in other parts of town, areas below the freeway, closer to the river, where they are probably a half zone warmer and a week ahead of me.  That doesn't surprise me.  In Dutchess County NY, where I lived before, we were a half-zone warmer along the river than those who lived a mere 5 miles inland, and my in own front yard, protected on three sides from the ravages of wind,  I successfully kept plants that were hardy only in climes a full zone south of my own. 

    Kathryn Hodgkin

    Slowly blooms appear.  Despite intermittent bursts of cold, spring will come.  Every bulb planted is a question.  Every bulb that becomes a flower is a promise fulfilled.  I love the anticipation, the thrill of seeing new growth.  Kathryn Hodgkin arrived in the middle week.  There are only two so far, but I hope for more.  She is tiny and easily missed if one is not looking.  This makes her all the more precious in my eyes.  Hopefully she is but the forerunner of a small colony of iris histroides, a tiny, early promise of spring to come.

  • Monday Morning

    Monday Morning.  A fresh pot of coffee.  Quiet anticipation of a relatively restful week. 

     

    At the moment I am actually looking forward with to not doing anything, not going anywhere.  I'm sure that will change, but after an over-scheduled week, a bit of quiet sounds nice.  I would have to say it was not deliberate, but in some part of my psyche it must have been, there must have been some evil-genie involved, the one that always pushes me to do more, to miss nothing.  She'd probably drive me to death if I let her.  But of course, I don't.  The conflicting need for quiet meditation is too strong.  I won't.

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    The flowers from last week are fading nicely.  I need to do some rearranging, to remove some spent blossoms, but the roses are drying nicely, and other nice blooms remain.  Memory and promise.

     

    Contemplating the flowers reminds me of the small bits of planting done this past week; hopefully it was not too late.  I managed to plant a couple of roses, a couple of small hydrangeas, some alstroemeria, even a few bulbs.  Planting holds such promise, such anticipation, enough to tide me over the bleakness of winter, and by the time the new growth begins I will once again be thrilled and excited, like a child gazing at the tree on Christmas morning, surrounded by gifts and promises.

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    I have to cook one side dish for Thanksgiving.  Although it feels odd not to be cooking, it is not a bad kind of odd.  It may in fact be rather nice.  I anticipate a long walk, a good book or two, some sewing, knitting, or embroidery time.  Oh yes, and some more work in the garden.  I'm not quite caught up on settling the flower beds in for the winter, and there are still some bulbs to plant.  Perhaps I overindulged, just a bit.  Promises, promises.  I hope it is not too late.

     

     

     

  • Fall days in the garden

    I spent a good bit of yesterday cleaning out garden beds, in preparation for winter.  I'm not done yet.  September and October were busy and I am seriously behind on weeding.  I am also grateful that growth has slowed enough that the weeding is actually a bit easier, in that magical time between vigorous growth and dormancy (at least magical from the perspective of the one pulling weeds). It has been unseasonably warm and not everything is dormant yet; the roses still have an occasional blossom, and surprisingly, the brugmansia as well. 

    Brugmansia

    The last couple of nights have been cool however,  with a couple of frosts, and I've had to bring it inside in the evenings and back out during the day.  I am hoping to see at least one more blossom before I have to force into dormancy and put it in the garage. I don't believe I have a sunny enough window to maintain it indoors, but it is possible I may change my mind.  Once again it bloomed heavily while I was away, and my attempt to hold on to these last blossoms my be simply an exercise in wishful thinking.  I admit that the poor plant was occasionally neglected, this past summer, and it took me some time to figure out the best spot, and the best watering schedule, but next year shall be better.

    Brugmansia blossom

    Generally, however, it has been lovely to work in the flower beds, even when that task is mostly just weeding and clearing away dead leaves and stems, cutting a few plants back, preparing for dormancy and rest, for the pulling inward into repose that we all need before bursting forth again next year.

     

    But I'm not quite ready to put everything to bed.  I belatedly ordered a few plants, and a slew of bulbs, which are yet to arrive and be planted.  I didn't want to order anything while people were still working on the landscape as there have been too many incidents where things were planted and then destroyed or lost due to simple failures, and I needed to pull back for a while, as frustration and disappointment were threatening to overwhelm the joy I felt earlier in the season.  I still have work to do in the back next year, some of it somewhat significant, and I still struggle with finding the balance between hope and disappointment,  but I am looking forward to the labor, and even the chance to do as much as possible myself.  I am far more patient with my own failures than I am when I am paying others.  We have reached the point where it is better to follow my own vision, even though the path may be slow.

     

    Garden work forces me to slow down, and to rest.  I am determined not to overdo, not to overtax lax muscles or my back, not to injury myself yet again, while at the same time pushing myself to get stronger.  When I was young I wanted to do everything despite my back.  Perhaps now I am finally learning to work with my limitations,  I am determined to push boundaries and limits, but I see there is a world of difference in attitude between "in spite of" and "working within". Perhaps it is about time. 

  • In The Garden This Week

    The first camellia blossoms have opened. 

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    And there are many more to come in this their second fall.  Far more blossoms than in their rookie season.

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    And a few other pretty fall colors as well.

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    Mostly in the planters, but there are a few bits overwhelming beauty in the flower beds as well.

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