Author: 459856pwpadmin

  • A Dash of DAring

    A_dash_of_daring A Dash of Daring was a fun, entertaining read about a very interesting woman.  Not many remember Carmel Snow, she was a star before fashion editors and magazine editors were stars.  Still, reading her biography one can easily see how much of the fashion publishing business, the role played by editors and the fashion industry was created in large part by her influence.

    It is a fascinating read, and lots of fun too, there is enough juicy gossip mixed with the fact and the photographs to keep one wildly entertained.  Although it is not a particularly serious book, and the writing is not stellar, it IS a lot of fun.

    If you are interrested in fashion, or fashion magazines, this book is highly recommended.

  • Operator Error

    I have a system for storing fabric.  Well actually I have systems for storing most things.  Occasionally those systems fail, not so much because there is a problem with the system, but because of operator error.  In short, lazy creature that I am, I don’t always do what I am supposed to do. Now if I never did what I was supposed to do I would obviously have a bad system, but this is not the case.

    Therefore there was no excuse for today.

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    There was a box of fabric in my closet.  Fabric is not supposed to be in my closet.  I originally put it there thinking I would move it there temporarily as I planned on using the fabric right away.  4 years later is not right away.  In the meantime I had emptied out part of the box, and I had added more fabrics at various intermittent times when I was to lazy to index new purchases and incorporate them into the proper storage area.

    Most of these fabrics were indexed with the exception of a couple that were large remnants from other projects.  (maroon linen in the upper right corner and the gray wool below it). I suppose I thought that since I already had a garment, I did not need to re-index the remnant. Short-sighted don’t you think?

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    Other fabrics had never been indexed at all, although I do remember buying them, I would have been hard pressed to find them using the "system".   There was more fabric than I had anitcipated because I had forgotten that I had sureptituously added pieces here and there.  There were fabrics that don’t belong in the fabric collection at all.  There were several pieces of bemberg rayon lining, and a few lightweight silks that were meant to be linings.  They should have been stored separately.

    Fabriccloset5 There were UFO’s hidden in the box, where there should have been no UFO’s.  Obviously I was trying to take "out of sight out of mind" to new levels, hiding the UFO’s outside of the UFO storage area.

    The beige texture knit is stable and not too stretchy.  It has been cut; the pattern pieces are still attached.  I had planned to make the Sewing Workshop’s San Diego Jacket.  I cut a size extra-small?  I recall it is fairly oversized.  Is it so oversized it will still fit? 

    The green silk matka was supposed to be a suit.  The pants have been cut.  Again the pattern pieces are still attached (along with a sizable portion of my pin collection — I wondered what had happened to all my pins.).  These I know are too small, I haven’t work the previous pair of pants made from that pattern for over 3 years.    But I love the fabric and still  have enough to cut a jacket, or another pair of pants. 

    What to do?  What to do?

    I think I am going to cheat a little on the UFO front.  The San Diego Jacket may fit.  I know I have some navy wool suiting cut out for a jacket that may or may not fit.  I will check and put the fabrics that are cut but two small in a rubbermade bin and set it aside for a few months, until May or June.  If they don’t fit by then, out they go.  If they do fit, they get made.  No more excuses.

    And I think I better pull those pattern envelopes and put them with the respective UFO’s, or remove the pattern tissue from the fabric and file the pieces.

    Fabriccloset4_1And I found this lovely piece of linen which I had completely forgotten.  Well, I recalled purchasing it when I saw it, but prior to that, I had no memory of it at all.  Isn’t that terrible?  I usually have pretty good recall about what fabrics are in the stash; I might need to look up precisely where they are stored or how much I have, but I remember what is there.

    It is definitely time to sew more.  And this piece should go on the list for spring.

  • The Demon Under the Microscope

    I finished reading Thomas Hager’s The Demon Under the Microscope two days ago, but have not really had a chance to put my thoughts together.

    Demonundermicroscope It was a fun book to read and interesting because although I knew a little bit about the discovery of penicillin and its role in shaping modern medicine, I knew very little about sulfa drugs, their discovery, and the major role they played up until penicillin came to the fore.  It is a fascinating story and because it is told in story form more than as a scholarly tract, it really made me think about how this discovery affected life and the practice medicine.  It certainly gives one pause to think about the changes in the knowledge and practice of medicine in the last 70 years, one lifetime really.  Oh I knew this intellectually.  But what we know in our heads doesn’t always make us think about what how we perceive our lives on a daily basis.

    That said the book is a very easy and entertaining read, and in some ways is more gripping and suspenseful than some novels I have read.  It is obviously written for a lay audience, and a broad-based one at that.  The language and the story line reminds me, in attitude at least, to some of those biographies and histories I read when I was young, the ones aimed at the "young adult" market.  I would plow right through them, reading them like I was eating candy, learning something on the way that often led me to pursue subjects further, in much more scholarly works.  This book is like that: fast, readable, not too difficult but full of information.  It seems to be well researched and well thought out.  The lack of footnotes were frustrating at first, when I wanted to find a reference for something, but soon I just sat back and enjoyed the story. Generally I did not look up the notes at all while reading, just enjoyed the act of reading, eager to find out what would happen next, although the end result was obvious all along.  In the end, when I had questions about this or that, the notes turned out to be handy.

    The book has its biases.  At times Hager does not sound at all happy with the modern world of scientific drug research and physicians who hand out prescriptions right and left.  He seems to prefer his noble researchers and their "selfless" pursuits.  I would accuse him of romanticizing the past somewhat.  And I am not saying that modern medicines and drugs are perfect.  We have solved so many things, but we do get carried away with new inventions, using them far more heavily and more things that perhaps we should.  It is good to be cautious.  To a certain extent we are a population of guinea pigs (Hager does NOT say this) growing up using and be surrounded by things that were unknown to generations upon generations of human beings.  There are bound to be side affects and effects of things that only turn up after 30 or 40 or 50 years or more.  But at the same time these inventions have also done so much good.  We take so much for granted today, we forget that a simple infection, the flu, pneumonia, could kill not all that very long ago. Reading Hager’s account reminded me of how truly far we have come, and how easy it is to become excessive in our enthusiasms for new things.

  • Vogue Patterns is here!

    The new Vogue Patterns magazine arrived yesterday and it was a welcome treat after a couple of long days with no further opportunity to work in the sewing room.

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      I have to admit that I was thrilled from the moment I saw the magazine and it took some discipline to put it aside and wait until I had finished with the day’s tasks before losing myself in its pages.

    I am afraid it was rather late by the time I got to the magazine, after 10:30.  Although I had taken a break to eat dinner, I wanted to finish my various accounting tasks before the weekend officially began and I still had a few bills to pay.  Friday had been supposed to be my day to close out the 2006 office accounts and finish up the payroll and payroll forms for the year, and it was estimated tax day at home as well so I was busy just doing general end-of year accounting as I went along.

    But the daytime hours ended up being occupied with a plethora of conversations with carpenters, contractors, and the engineer, as I learned that a few things hadn’t been communicated to other parties involved. we were behind on an inspection, the blueprints hadn’t been updated to show the new changes even though the contractor had told the carpenter to go ahead with them, and the engineer did not approve the plan. Something that had been in the plans didn’t work with the aluminum substructure for around the pool, in another area the deck was going to end up being 1 inch higher than the door into the house because we had to raise one side of the pool to level it. It all seems to be standard little problems that no one thinks about until it bites them, and then no one is responsible and no one is at fault. Meanwhile it was getting on toward late afternoon and I needed a new set of blueprints that matched the actual job before the building inspector comes on Tuesday or Wednesday, and it was looking like there would be less and less chance of an agreement and time to draw up new blueprints over a long weekend.

    What a headache.  Even paying taxes felt like a relief after the afternoon’s negotiations. I was very happy to curl up with my magazine and a glass of white wine for a bit before rolling off to bed.

    And the verdict is……I love the magazine.  Oh I have subscribed for years, although for a while there the magazine had gotten pretty boring.  I would look at the patterns decide which ones to buy and toss the magazine.  But recently the articles have been more interesting and more informative.  And the styles and patterns pictured look very intriguing as well.

    First off, there is that blouse on the cover.  I have been thinking about a ruffle front blouse, somewhere on one of the smaller back burners, for some time now, but I haven’t found quite the pattern I wanted.  I am behind enough that I didn’t want to draft my own either.  Voila!  Pattern found! Just in time for spring as well.

    Then there are several intriguing looking new patterns coming out; a couple of them already have me reassessing a few fabrics in my stash that might be slated for spring sewing.  I will have to wait for the patterns to be posted on Vogue’s website, then I can let you know what interests me, but at the moment I am still in the "everything" stage.  I like everything, I want everything.  I want it all.

  • Siimplicity4047 – Jacket

    The black and white jacket is done (finally).

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    The pattern is a reprint of a vintage style swing jacket with cut-on kimono sleeves.

    The pattern seems to be well drafted and went together well.  The only tricky part is the way the neckline is designed,  where the collar is cut in one with the front, involving a right angle pivot.  I found one of the illustrations confusing here, although the directions were perfectly clear.  For me it was just easier to look at the garment and the pattern and it made sense.

    The jacket turned out nicely, I like it, and I will wear it. 

    Here are a couple of detail photos of the back:

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    I originally planned to use the same black and white trim I used above the peplum between the facing and the lining of the jacket, but when I started to put it in I felt it was too busy with the checked jacket fabric and the print of the lining.  In the end I left that transition unadorned:

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    Although I love the jacket, and am happy to be done with it, there are a few things I think I might do differently if I were to make it again.

    To begin with, I have two basic fit issues:

    First:  after making the muslin in San Francisco we decided that I needed to lengthen the peplum by 2" but not the bodice of the jacket.  Now it looks OK as is; it fits correctly and I tend to be short from shoulder to bust-point, so even though I am tall I don’t usually have to lengthen patterns in that area, but the seam might look better a little lower.  I think a lower seam would reduce the appearance of length in the lower torso, especially when wearing pants.  After making another muslin, I would check the final length as I might lengthen the peplum as well.  I am not yet convinced this is the best length on me.

    Secondly I added shoulder pads to the jacket even though they were not called for in the pattern.  This was another design decision based on the muslin.   My shoulders roll forward, one more so than the other.  On the muslin I had deep creases running from the shoulder line of the jacket.  I originally thought I could recut the bodice, redrawing and reshaping the darts to accommodate my personal fit anomalies.  Sandra had the brilliant idea that I could probably use the pattern as is and use shoulder pads to even out the inconsistencies in my own frame.  This does work well and the jacket looks good.  I used almost twice as much shoulder pad on the right as on the left, and it was a little tricky getting it positioned just right, but it makes a big difference.

    BUT I am still not perfectly happy with how the shoulder hangs.  The collar does not lie symmetrically (because I am not symmetrical, and one side of the jacket is too big.  If I make this again I would cut a smaller size on the right front and have to do some finagling to get the sizes to match and reposition the darts.

    The last problem I had with the garment is with the collar.  Oh it works well and was easy enough, I just have a design issue, which is of course compounded by the unevenness of the fit on me as discussed above.

    In the pattern photograph shown above you see how nicely the jacket is shown with the collar turned up partially.  I had a good bit of trouble getting my collar to achieve this effect and lie smoothly.  I don’t know if anyone else has had this problem, or if it was created merely by the addition of shoulder pads and my own asymmetrically, but I don’t think this is the case.

    Look at the line drawings:

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    Notice that in the sketch, the collar lies flat and is spread rather widely.  My jacket did that quite well:

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    But I didn’t like the way it looked on me.  I liked the way it looked much better when I tried to flip the collar up more, but when I did so , the collar and front facing piece buckled and left rather unsightly wrinkles and bumps, quite visible to anyone standing within about 5 feet.  This was not acceptable. 

    I checked reviews on pattern review  and noticed that there are a couple of reviews by more accomplished seamstresses than I, neither of whom mentioned having any problem with the collar.  But then, when I looked at their photos, I see that they both showed the garments with the collar down flat, as shown in the line drawing.

    Either I messed up the construction, my fabric was not particularly suitable to the jacket, or there is a problem with the way the collar and facing go together if one wants the collar to stand up more.

    Luckily the wool was pretty amenable to shaping with steam and although I did not get the collar I wanted, I got a pretty acceptable alternative.  I spent a lot of time at my ironing board with the jacket on Matilda, a roll of wool, a pressing roll and my handy silicone Orka oven glove, steaming and shaping the collar.  I eliminated most of the wrinkles and got the collar to stand, forming more of a roll than a jaunty angle, but it was enough.

    Despite this, and despite the fact that I spent a lot more time on this than I originally planned, I am pretty excited about the jacket.  It was supposed to be a quick jacket to wear while I lost weight.  It still is; it is not perfect but it is good enough.  Someday I will learn that I am really happiest when I spend the time to make separate pattern pieces for left and right side, and spend more time altering and perfecting patterns.  But I, like most of us I suspect, sometimes just want to sew and not have to fret with pattern making.    The problem with coming back to sewing is that I have to make a whole new set of base patterns and that is a lot of work, work I usually, but not always, enjoy. 

    Finally, here is a picture of me in the jacket.  I am not sure it is the most flattering thing I have ever made, but I love it anyway as does G, and in the end, I suppose we are the only ones whose opinions matter:

    Simplicity40471One of the good things about going to sewing camp is I learn lots of new ways to "get by" and pull a project out of the fire without going through extensive machinations.  And the results are often good.  If I hadn’t started this under Sandra’s watchful eye, I would have struggled much more with the fit, and I am not sure I would have been happier with the final result. 

    A success!

  • April in January

    Record high today, 70 degrees in Poughkeepsie, although I recorded 72 here.

    It was a wonderful day to work in the yard. I caught up with some clean-up I had missed during those hectic autumn months when life seemed out of control. 

    But this winter is strange.  It is too warm.  The plants seem to think it is April or May.  I am not complaining that the pansies and snapdragons keep coming back into bloom, both were filled with new buds today, if the weather doesn’t get too cold I will have flowers again next week. The blossoms are a treat in January.

    But other things worry me.  The irises are sending out new growth.  The tulips and daffodils are peeking above the soil line.  The hyacinths are even further along:

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    The poppies are getting huge.  The asters and sedum are sending up new growth as well:

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    What will this mean?  Tulip season is in May here not
    February (like in Houston).  Will all 360 tulips I planted in a fit of
    greed and tulip-lust in October be for naught?  Will they bloom in
    February while I am away in Arizona and southern California? That can’t
    be possible.  Will the snow and ice finally come and slaughter all the
    young plants before they have even had a chance to grow?  The weather people tell me the strange weather is caused by el nino and we are in for several more months of this strangeness so all might be well.  We might have a bilzzard in May.  They might be wrong and we might have mass tulip infanticide next week.

    I suppose there is nothing to do but enjoy it and hope for the best.  I can certainly enjoy the mild weather.  If this keeps up, think of all the work I can get done in the yard. Perhaps then, when the dog days of summer finally hit, I won’t feel guilty about not slaving away in the heat.  Instead I will sit on the new deck by the pool and lounge, margarita in hand.

  • Book Update

    I finished "The Beautiful Fall" and I have to admit that I grew bored before I finished the book.  It was interesting enough, I certainly have heard of many of the names involved, and being an avid reader of fashion magazines, I had vague inklings of some of the personalities, but otherwise it is a world completely beyond my ken — beyond my comprehension even.  Perhaps it is true, I am too serious and too boring.  That kind of life never appealed to me (although the clothes and jewels and pretty objects certainly do).  Too bad that they so often seem to go hand in hand, the beautiful objects and the wild lifestyle.

    It wasn’t really that the book was badly written, although I did think it took itself too seriously at times, and could have used a lighter hand, but that in the end I found the characters to grow tedious and I lost interest in them.  A shame really.

    However, in another take on the "fashion scene" I am now reading Penelope Rowland’s "A Dash of Daring" which is about Carmel Snow.  This book is much more entertaining, certainly far better than the novel "The Devil Wore Prada" which was rather whiney.  Carmel Snow is interesting and there are certain parallels between her career and personality and Miranda in the novel/movie.  The book is also written in an entertaining, sometimes gossipy, style.  I have trouble putting it down; it appeals to my sense of fashion, gossip, and has just enough snark to keep it entertaining, although the author does have a habit of interjecting parenthetical asides, which although sometimes useful, are used far too frequently.  I keep sneaking moments with the book whenever I walk through the family room.  A terrible temptation and distraction.

  • Oil Spill

    The sewing room in 2007 is a pile of UFO’s and mending — all things I have no real incentive to start except that they are hanging around my neck like a pile of bricks. All of the UFO’s are things I want to have, but the excitement with which I began has faded as interruptions have placed them further and further from memory.  If I start something new, I fear that I will be ultimately only adding more to the UFO pile and the burden of their presence will become oppressive.

    So I have vowed to work through my past projects, although I may give myself little breaks; sewing  rewards I might say.  If I complete a certain number of things I can make something new.  Hopefully the successful elimation of old projects,  the addition of new items to my wardrobe, and the occasional new project will keep me going.

    With all of this in mind I was ready to dive in.  I wanted to finish the Simplicity jacket first, but G ripped the lining out of his favorite pair of windpants and I naively agreed to fix them first.  As usually happens when I really want to be doing something else, the job was not as simple as I originally thought.  The windpants ripped because the lining fabric at the bottom of the leg was shredding.  The knit lining from the knee up was fine.   I found some lining in my stash that is a little heavier than the average bemberg, and although it was not white like the original lining, it was a perfect color to coordinate with the outer shell of the pants.  So I washed the bemberg and removed the old lining pieces from the pants, using them to make a pattern for the new pieces.

    It was when I began to sew that the trouble began, turning what should have been a half-hour’s project into a prolonged siege:

    I decided to use the Elna simply because I was too lazy to unthread the Bernina, which was still threaded for the Simplicity Jacket.  I hadn’t used the Elna since I brought it home from the shop in November so I set it up, and ran a short seam on some scrap fabric.  All looked good.  I put the lining in the machine, and started sewing.  As I moved down the seam I saw a large puddle of oil growing next to my fabric.  Then I noticed oil running down the needle.  To say that I was annoyed is putting my reaction very mildly.  There was a big oil stain on my lining fabric right at the seam line and oil  all over my machine.   Obviously the person who repaired the machine over-oiled it.  So I got out more scrap fabric and started seaming randomly.  I got nice even stitches and lovely oil lines all over my fabric.  It got better, the oil seemed to stop, I stitched faster, more oil poured out, it splattered like a spray gun on me and all around my sewing table.  This was not fun!  Eventually however the oil supply seemed to have been exhausted and I was able to sew, half an hour later.

    I began stitching the lining to the wind pants.  The machine jammed.  I fixed it and started again.  About a foot of seam later the machine jammed again, the thread popped out of the upper tension device and made a big tangle.  I had trouble resetting the tension.  This was the same problem for which I had originally taken the machine in for repair.  Three more times I dismantled the machine, cleaned it out, reassembled it, and started over. 

    Eventually I had to give up.  I unthreaded the Bernina, transferred the bobbin thread from the Elna bobbin to the Bernina bobbin, and finished the job.  The pants look beautiful.  G is probably the only man at the gym whose wind pants are lined with Ermengilda Zegna lining fabric.

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    I wonder if anything had been done to my machine or if the shop
    had simply poured oil in it and charged me $50 for the privelege.
    Admittedly I had had second thoughts.  When I took the machine in, at
    the recommendation of the  closed Elna dealer who used to repair my
    machine, the repair person said they didn’t sell or usually work with
    Elna’s and they were just taking them as a favor.  She did not sound
    encouraging.  Naively, I gave her my machine anyway.  Now I regret
    having done so.

    The top piece of the upper tension device on the Elna definitely looks broken.  I went to the Elna website and found that the closest dealers are all in NYC since my local dealer closed last summer.  Crown Machine on upper Broadway still sells and services Elnas.  I used to take my machine there before I had a local dealer.   I see an excuse for a trip into NYC in my future.

    G tells me it is silly to go in to NYC just to take a machine to the shop, we should go earlier on a day we have a concert and drop it off.  (I will still have to go back and pick it up eventually).  If I go in by myself I see this as an opportunity to get into all kinds of trouble in NYC.  Besides, Crown machine used to fix the machine the same day, I could drop it, wander around, and come back at the end of the day to take it home with me.  It could take longer if they needed to order more obscure parts, but most of the time it was a one day job.  I wonder if they still do that.  It seems worth a try.  A day of fun and getting to take my baby home the same day sounds soo much better than dropping it off late in the afternoon and having to go back to pick it up another day. I know G will never go in early in the morning on a concert day, just to drop off a machine; he probably also thinks I can wait a month and pick it up the next time we go to a concert.  Ha!

  • Fractured

    I had hoped, when my nose started running and I started sneezing last night, that it was because I was sitting on the sofa next to about 200 mass-market paperback sized books that I tossed down from their storage place on top of one of the ceiling beams.  They didn’t look dusty, or feel dusty but it seemed like the most hopeful answer to the cause of my sneezing fit.

    I was wrong.

    I am still dripping and sneezing, tired, red-eyed and red-nosed, pale of cheek.  It appears that I have finally gotten my annual cold.  Does this mean that, since it has come so early in the year, I will be safe until 2008?  Probably not.  I have probably caught 2006’s cold.

    But what was I doing with the books?  My passion to simplify and declutter has (finally) made it to the bookshelves.  I managed to separate them into two stacks, about 110 tossers and 92 keepers.  I was being fairly ruthless, although there are some who would probably say that I am still too soft when it comes to pruning possessions. Now I have to find a home for the tossers and a new storage place for the keepers.

    The books had been stored one of of the ceiling beams, much like these:

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    Unfortunately the beam in question is indisposed:

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    And now you know the true reason I was sorting through books last night, instead of knitting or sewing.

    I suppose G and I aren’t the only ones feeling the aches and pains of age around here. I noticed the crack yesterday afternoon while dusting the ceilings and behind the furniture.  It was not there when we left for Christmas.

    The cracked beam spans the family room.  The crack is directly above my chair.  G thinks I should move the chair forward until it is repaired, and it will be as the carpenters are going to bring a support beam to put there until they can order a new one and replace the existing beam.  The beam is 20 feet long and spans the family room with one support about 6 feet from one side of the room.  I have been told that the support should be more in the center, and the original beam is too narrow to act as a support for that size of span.  Well it has held for 40 years.  Of course we built peaked roofs on the house some time ago so although it still supports the weight of the ceiling, which was the old roof, it does not support the new roof or any snow load.  The crack is dead center in  the beam, where the support post will be moved.  We may have to get a bigger beam, as this extends through the walls out to the edge of the roof, about 18 inches beyond the house; I know from experience that most of the lumber in the house is the old dimensional standard and is bigger than the new dimensional standard.  So a new 4×8 is smaller than the one in my family room. If the beam is too small, all the supporting structures which depend on it will be too small as well.

    What size beam, where the supports will be placed, and how they will be built is all to be worked.  Why it happened? That we may never know.  I suspect it was already stressed, was stressed further when the sill beam on the foundation had to be replaced about 10 feet away) and it only just now gave out. 

    One thing leads to another.

  • Reading About Saint Laurent

    I have been reading The Beautiful Fall by Alicia
    Drake and it even thought it is not about the clothes as such, but about the
    life of the designers and the lives of the “beautiful people” in the 1970s, it
    has still fed my fashion obsession because I remember some of the collections
    so vividly.

    Although I am enjoying the book, I alternate between being
    fascinated and appalled.  I am familiar with the designers and the
    personalities discussed from reading fashion magazines over the years. I remember many of Saint Laurent’s collections but I was
    basically only marginally aware of Karl Lagerfeld before he became the designer
    for Chanel. The personalities and
    lifestyle are not something I ever found appealing and I don’t believe I would
    like either designer, but that doesn’t really change my opinion of their
    talents as designers. I have never
    really confused a person’s creativity with their personality and I have never
    been one to be disillusioned or disappointed when a favorite philosopher,
    writer, or designer turns out to be truly dislikeable person.

    What I am enjoying is the general descriptions of the mood
    and the time and place evoked by the story. I am mostly attracted to the aspects of the story dealing with Saint Laurent; simply because I have always been attracted to
    Saint Laurent’s
    clothes. They are definitely clothes
    that define a persona, but it is one I always found appealing and one that
    attracted me long after Saint Laurent stopped designing new and groundbreaking collections. I liked the combination of sensuality and untouchability
    combined in the clothes, be they the day suits or the wildly impractical
    collections such as the Opera collection.

    I realized early on, perhaps because I was shy, the power of clothes as a mask,
    of a way to present a persona to the world. When I was young I was fascinated with clothes even as my mother had
    trouble getting me to comb my hair and look neat. I was fascinated by the idea of clothes as
    role-playing just as I was fascinated with play-acting. I suppose I still am to some extent, but not
    as much so as when I was then. Perhaps
    it is just that I no longer feel as strong a need to hide behind the mask. When I was young and working in a much more
    corporate environment I was attracted to suits in the Saint Laurent vein far
    more than the standard, dowdy, shapeless, sexless suits that my colleagues wore
    and corporate (at least IBM style corporate) America seemed to espouse. I like the powerful image of a well-cut suit
    and I liked a suit that also celebrated being female. Yves Saint Laurent did this kind of suit very
    well, and although many were not appropriate for business, much of his day look
    could be adapted. Dressing in this kind of suit was a statement of confidence
    and strength, strength I could shore myself up with even when I personally felt
    insecure. Insecure, quiet, and something of a doormat I might have been, but
    there was a part of me that was smart, competent, and very proud of being a
    woman with all that the words female and feminine entailed. I saw no reason why I couldn’t be smarter
    than the men I worked with and enjoy clothes.. Perhaps this was an extension of those confused childhood dreams I
    always had, where I was the princess in the tower waiting to be rescued by the
    handsome prince; except my prince always got in trouble and I had to go out and
    rescue him.